5 more days…

I cannot wait!!
cannot say I’m looking forward to the 17 hour drive, but it will so be worth it! :hug
I seem to have a case of ‘feeling sorry for myself-itus’ lately, I’ve had such a hard time getting motivated to do much of anything, including cleaning my house (which desperately needs it) to just getting up in the morning to go to work :walk_sad…I’m seriously not liking the fact that M and I are on opposite schedules AGAIN! :let_it_all_out and then to top it off that several friends of mine are going through some very tough times that make my petty problems seem like so much child’s play…it’s enough to make me wonder :wtf is going on with the universe, especially this close to the holidays (OK, lets not get me started on that rant!)
I don’t even feel like posting here lately, although its the only communication I seem to have with some of my friends lately, I guess knowing my family is reading it now has really affected that, and is probably a lot of the problem…knowing the decisions they’ve made, and how that will affect my children and I really does hurt, deep down, even when I try to make myself believe otherwise.
I was always told “you are my daughter, I will always love you no matter what”, and I was still told that, even up to the last email I received from her, but I’m sorry, actions speak louder than words IMHO…you said when I came out to you, years ago, that I still had your support and love, I guess that was true when I didn’t have a partner that I wanted to bring ‘home’
I’ve always said that being gay in no way affected what type of parent I was, or my ability to raise my children, in fact, just the opposite, because hopefully my children would be more accepting and loving of individuals who were ‘different’ than what society considered to be ‘normal’…and when I said that to her she agreed with me, didn’t really want to discuss it, but still…
This was not what I intended to post about when I opened this page, heck, was not even what was on my mind…or so I thought :lol, but I guess with the countdown getting closer and closer, and knowing that up until a few weeks ago what the plans for that holiday were going to be…well…:shrug
if I don’t get a chance to post it before then, have a great holiday season, with whomever you CHOOSE to spend it with, and I hope you are thankful for whoever that is…
:group_smile