random stuff

I’ve sat down to this thing at least a 1/2 dozen times this week and every time thought it best to let it be for the time being..
I’ve finally come to realization that it doesnt matter..as a good friend of mine said ‘Your real friends know and will stand by you through this’ she’s right, I’m not going to sit and allow myself to become as bitter as she is over something I know (and so does she) is a lie..if the truth someday does come out, wonderful, but even if it doesnt those that are important know what it is and so do you, and no amount of saying otherwise will change those facts.
enough of that BS
numbnuts was digging yesterday, I found out that he FIANALLY got served w/ papers..bout friggin time..and concted some story about my youngest saying that I had gone to the courthouse..yea right, good one..now of course he’s doing his damndest to turn my kids against me w/o actually seeming like thats what he’s up to..he had my oldest in tears on the phone w/ me last night as his go between, and I did the hardest thing I’ve ever done, I told my son I would not disscuss it with him as he was way to young to be worrying about it and not to call me about it anymore..
thankfully all was forgiven this morning as far as my kids went, they went for a weekend trip w/ him and when i went over to see them before they left it was all hugs and I love you mommys and your the bestest mommy in the whole world from all..i hope and pray they know deep down that what I’m trying to do is what I really feel is best for them w/o all the head games and such that he puts them through…if I was never certain before I was last night after I heard what he had been and was telling them *sighs*
T-19 days and counting..I can’t wait for this crap to be over…