{"id":389,"date":"2005-06-23T21:32:26","date_gmt":"2005-06-23T21:32:26","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.redeaglespirit.com\/blog\/?p=389"},"modified":"2005-06-23T21:32:26","modified_gmt":"2005-06-23T21:32:26","slug":"torn","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.redeaglespirit.com\/blog\/torn\/","title":{"rendered":"torn"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>first off&#8230;I&#8217;d like to go on record thanking everyone for their support&#8230;you know who you are, I know who you are, and I love each and every one of you :kisses<br \/>\nneedless to say, I am very upset about the kids decision&#8230;yet at the same time, very excited about our upcoming ceremony :hum<br \/>\nmake any sense to anyone else out there?<br \/>\ndidn&#8217;t think so&#8230;:shrug<br \/>\nits hard to explain for me too&#8230;I&#8217;ll be going along, thinking about something we need to do&#8230;just did, etc&#8230;and WHAM! it suddenly hits me that my kids won&#8217;t be here&#8230;and that so much of this was planned with them in mind, so that they would enjoy themselves too since they were SUPPOSED to be here.<br \/>\nIt&#8217;s hard to feel such joy, such love, and such peace&#8230;yet at the same time, be hurting so deeply inside, like a part of my heart has been ripped out and tossed aside.<br \/>\nanyway&#8230;didn&#8217;t mean to get so grapic there, but I know how some people stress if my blog is blank for to long&#8230;hopefully soon I&#8217;ll actually have something substantial to post!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>first off&#8230;I&#8217;d like to go on record thanking everyone for their support&#8230;you know who you are, I know who you are, and I love each [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[12],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-389","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-my-viewpoint"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.redeaglespirit.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/389","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.redeaglespirit.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.redeaglespirit.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.redeaglespirit.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.redeaglespirit.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=389"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.redeaglespirit.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/389\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.redeaglespirit.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=389"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.redeaglespirit.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=389"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.redeaglespirit.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=389"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}