I want to appoligize to all of my friends who are feeling someone neglected lately, I am fine!! I promise!! :tounge
\n*warning, this is a very personal post*<\/b>
\nI’ve just had a lot on my mind lately
\nno big surprise there :walk_sad
\nI finally heard from his lawyer, was really no more or less than I expected, I file my response tomorrow (monday) morning. :flames
\nseveral have asked me if I’m prepared for what may happen, if I’ve thought about it and if I can live with it if goddess forbid the worse may happen…what is to follow is nothing more than my feelings on the matter, if you don’t agree, that’s fine and your right, and we can even discuss<\/b> that, but if you flame me or bash me, I know how to deal with the likes of you! Unless you’ve walked this road I’m on, you have no idea what I’m going through.
\n*more than you want to know inside*<\/p>\n
\nwe moved to this town almost 9 years ago, we being myself, my now ex and my oldest son, during that time frame I had 2 more children, and got a divorce…those that read the old blog (Scorpion’s Sting) will know that that did not come about until 2 years after I asked for it, and it took me leaving one day while he was at work to finally bring it about.
\nThat was 3 years ago.
\n3 years and 2 weeks ago today, he took my kids, in the middle of the night, when he had come down to see them. (we were at my moms)
\ndue to paperwork not being filed by my lawyer like it should have been, I had no recourse to get them back, unless I did the same, and no way would he leave me alone with them for any length of time to do that! (hell yes, I would have done it to!!)
\nweeks pass with me driving back and forth to see the boys, waiting for the court date, and basicly plotting murder and mayhem (hell, wouldn’t you?) when little dude gets very sick, and I bite the bullet and do what I have to, to be near my son when he needs me, it was during this time we came to the agreement we have today, where both of us are custodial parent, both see them on a daily basis, and pretty much share in the care and raising of them.
\nonly one major problem with this picture…we have to live in the same town for it to work.
\nand I’m dying here…
\nas most know, I tried last year to move, didn’t work, laws had changed and things didn’t work out as I had planned them.
\nThis year, after talking with my uncle for a few months, I decided it was time, I’m not doing myself and more importantly my kids any favors by staying here letting someone else dictate my life, and letting them think thats ok and normal. :shakehead
\nyes, I know I am taking a risk of losing them, and yes, I’m aware of the consequences that go with that.
\nI’m also aware of what will happen to me if I stay here…
\nregardless, since we are going back to court to determine this, it wouldn’t matter if I stayed or went if that were to happen.
\ndo I think I’m going to lose? NO
\nbut, am I a realist, and do I brain fuck everything to within an inch of it’s life? you betcha…there is no scenerio that you could come up with that I haven’t already thought through.
\nI’m strong, I can deal with this, whatever the outcome…
\nbut don’t think for a minute I’m giving up without a fight! :angdev<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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