{"id":525,"date":"2004-08-07T13:36:36","date_gmt":"2004-08-07T20:36:36","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.redeaglespirit.com\/arrrgh\/introspection\/"},"modified":"2004-08-07T13:36:36","modified_gmt":"2004-08-07T20:36:36","slug":"introspection","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.redeaglespirit.com\/arrrgh\/introspection\/","title":{"rendered":"Introspection"},"content":{"rendered":"

I was reading over at Broad at Bat’s blog<\/a> today. Her entry for August 4th is very introspective. I had to make myself read all the way to the bottom.
\nI know that sounds bad, and it has nothing to do with the quality of her writing, and all to do with my ability to play “ostrich” about my own situation.
\nBeing introspective gives me the willies. If I took the time to look into my heart, or my mind, I might actually figure out what drives me, and it that’s GOT to be scary! On the other hand…..I’m getting to a point in life where it might not be a good idea to drag my feet on this.
\nThe power of positive mental attitude. Who used to talk about that? Was it W. Clement Stone? I can’t remember, but it seems to me that our physical health has got to start with a healthy mental attitude about life, and our place in life.
\nSomewhere, my healthy attitude has gotten set aside, or lost along the way. I’m willing to admit that I HATE exercising for the sake of exercise. Give me something to do that disguises the exercise, and I don’t mind so much, but exercising because I know it’s good for me sucks pond water! And yet, I know that’s just what I have to get myself to do. So….WHY have I waited so long to embrace that issue? See, what I mean about introspection? Do I really want to know if I have a death wish, or if I’m just terminallly lazy?? Gives me the willies….
\nI’ve been reading a series of books by Janet Evanovich. The main character is Stephanie Plum, who has lost a job as a lingerie buyer and had to turn to her cousin for a job. Unfortunately, Cousin Vinnie is in bail bonds, and he hires Steph as bounty hunter. She’s totally unprepared for the job in every way. She’s bailed out by a cop and a fellow bounty hunter again and again. Between having her cars blown up, and loosing her man repeatedly, she shops for Tastykakes……in every flavor…..by the pound. As I read about her eating junk food, or going to her mother’s for dinner (read: comfort food), one part of me nods in agreement. I can understand exactly how she feels. Another part of me is going…..”DON’T EAT THAT!” I feel really schizophrenic, and Evanovich must have read my mind before she wrote several of the scenes.
\nOkay….you just saw a prime example of my ability to play ostrich. I neatly detoured off the subject of introspection, and put the focus on a fictional character, moving it away from myself. I’ve been doing that for too many years to count, and I think I’ve just hit the wall. Pardon me while I bang my head against it for a bit.
\nDo I want to be healthy? YES
\nDo I want to be healthy enough to eat appropriately? Well….yes….sorta.
\nWHY am I not running to embrace a healthy lifestyle. Okay….ya got me there.
\nI really don’t know why, and I need to find out.
\nIt’s time to quit pretending that I’m Peter Pan, and accept that I am an adult. And….it’s time to make adult choices. The question is…..where do I start?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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