Disclaimer

When you first become part of a couple, everyone wants to know how you met, the where's, whys and whatfor's...since ours is a rather unique story, I thought it appropriate to share it with you here, and also since I'm certain that people will get tired of reading about wedding plans and the like long before the big day, I got the bright idea to create a blog just for that purpose :smile.

While this is not a 'private' blog, it is only intended for people who are interested, if you're not, or do not agree with our lives, and you're here anyway, please leave without any flaming comments, or I will not hesitate to ban you.
You have been warned.

Part 1

It happened on a Tuesday, March 9th, 2004 to be exact, at around 9:00 am.
I had a job interview that morning in Jacksonville, was still living in Oklahoma, the interview was over and I had headed back downstairs in the elevator to go out the door of the Bellsouth tower, when what did I see behind the desk View image almost broke my neck looking :blush
:jaw
I head down the escalator, and I was heading out the door when I ran into (almost literally) the guy who had sat beside me in the testing class Saturday, his interview wasn't for two hours, so we were talking outside, when the side door opens and out she walks...so I comment to him the same thing I thought when I saw her upstairs..."with eye candy like that working here, I REALLY hope I get this job!" :rofl
He, of course, has a broken gaydar and wasn't sure if she was even family, to which I assured him I was certain she was! :lol
So not thinking much more about it, and certainly not thinking anything would ever come of it, since even if I had gotten the job, I would have NEVER had the nerve to go up to her and say anything, or even get within 10 feet of her...
I even told my friend Sandi, when I picked her up from work to run an errand that day, about seeing her...she teased me for not getting a phone number at least...
who knew what fate had in store!

to be continued...

Part 2

So time, and life, goes on...4 months, 2 days go by, and I get this e-mail, from someone I don't know, who says that "Joe has not told her a lot about me"
ok, Joe is the guy that I "ran into" outside Bellsouth, so I assume thats who she's talking about, but what the heck is he doing? I wonder...
My curiosity has the best of me, so I email her back, telling her that she apparently knows more than me, because I haven't spoken to Joe in quite some time...the next email I get tells me, as I'm on the phone with him...she was the security guard I about fell down the stairs staring at! :lol :Woot
So, we email back and forth for a couple days, when we were planning to meet up, and I get a message from Ran saying she needs to go to the hospital...I'm on the phone with M, who asks which hospital and said she would meet me there. It was July 14, 2004...
We stayed up all that night talking, both had to work that day (the 15th) and were so tired that we stayed apart that evening...
the next night, the 16th, she came over, Sandi cooked dinner, my sister, Sandi, M and I played cards, M and I got lost looking for limes (long story that I'll go into some other time! :rofl) and we've spent every day together since then...discovering it really is true what they say, it happens, when you're not looking for it, and least expecting it...
:1luvu:1luvu:1luvu

6 Months

to say she surprised me is putting it mildly, I honestly had no idea what was going on, just thought we were going out with some friends for our 6 month anniversary.
we're all laughing, having a great time, basically just hanging out, when over the speakers comes the announcement "this song goes out to T"
I, of course, ask who I get to kill for doing THAT! and get the response "all of us"
the song I posted below comes on, I recognize it, but it hasn't dawned on me yet...till she sets a box down in front of me and said "well you know what the question is, you recognize the song, don't you?" (or something like that, since I think I went into shock then :lol)
Then Ran read a letter she had written to the both of us, after which I asked her if she knew beforehand...to which I got the response "we ALL knew, everybody except you was in on it" :biglaugha

it amazes me, how right this feels, how in tune we are with each other, how much I'm looking forward to spending the rest of my life with her, I never expected to find that with anyone...those thoughts will be continued, in another post though :wink

I wanna laugh
Until I cry
Wake up with you each day 'till the day that I die
Let's go to New Orleans
And watch the parade
Take funny pictures, eat jambalaya, and drink lemonade
And when the day is finally over
And we stumble home
Before we sleep
Baby, marry me

I wanna drive
Until we get lost
Lie in a field staring up at the sky
While you point out the Southern Cross
Somehow I know
Without asking why
That you love me more in a minute
Than anyone could in a lifetime

Dancing in the parking lot
While the band plays inside
Sweep me off my feet
Baby, marry me

We don't need no preacher man
Readin' from the Good Book
And I don't want no fancy dress
Ain't no ceremony for the vows that I took
From the moment I met you
I have been blessed

So let's make a toast
And drink up the wine
Here's to you lying here next to me
Until the end of time

Wherever you are
I wanna be
And anything that means anything to ya
Means everything to me

Sneakin' out the back door
While they're throwing the rice
And they'll talk for weeks
But we're all we need

So baby, if you're free
Marry me
Baby, marry me
Marry me

the great 'lime' search

So anyone who's been around us has heard about the first night we spent together, after the hospital meeting...and they all ask about the 'lime search' when we mention it and start laughing...so here's the story...

It was Friday, July 16th, 2004, My friend Sandi came over and cooked dinner for us (my sister, kids, M, and I) after putting the kids to bed we all went upstairs to play Monopoly and hang out.
I think we all started out drinking beer, or something, I know we were drinking, and let me state now that I was wearing shorts and a 1/2 shirt kind of tank top (it was July in FL, give me a break! :lol) not important yet, but it will be.
So anyway, we remember that there is tequila downstairs from my housewarming party, since I had not touched alcohol since that night! We discussed doing shots but sis and I needed limes...so M and I offer to go to the store...it's approximately 9pm (I think)
So, off we go, over the bridge to Riverside and Publix...which we discover closes at 9...oh, and did I mention it's raining?
I call back to the house and tell them the store is closed, and we're going to the liquor store to find some limes, but will take us a bit longer...my dumb ass forgets that there is not an on-ramp to I-95N from the Park St. exit...so we drive around riverside for a bit till we get to it (via downtown...:rofl) I think it was at the point we were going through 5 points when I showed her my tat, when we passed by the shop where I got it...since you could only see part of it with the shirt I had on...again, this will be important soon :wink
So two liquor stores later, both of which are closed, and 3 or so phone calls to the house, we find a Winn-Dixie where we get some limes...the one on Normandy Ave. :eyes just a 'little' ways from the house...
Now heading back, there is a store just up the road from the house, where I buy my ciggs cause I'm a cheap bitch, and I was almost out...so we stop, and wonder to each other if they have limes...
so of course, I have to ask when I go in..."yes ma'am, we sure do, right back there by the beer" :hammer
get back to the house, where after telling the story get accused of all kinds of nonsense (oh, BTW, at this point in time we had not even kissed yet!) and go downstairs to cut said limes....where we remedied that little issue, before getting busted by Sandi, who had to run up the stairs hooting "I knew it! I was right!" (thanks pal! :chtounge)
ok, here's where the outfit comes into play...we're all upstairs playing cards...'bullshit' I think the game was called...my sis is pretty lit at this time, and Sandi is feeling pretty good also, as am I...not sure about M though...when I realize that M is out of cards...how she managed that I have no idea, but at that time she decided to check out my tat a little closer, was amazing how quickly the others in the room remembered they had somewhere else they needed to go, and rather quickly! :biglaugha
So there you have it, the 'great lime search', and also the reason for the wedding date :wink :heart

Ice Queen

"I think she's going to be the one to melt that heart of ice you've got, Ms. Ice Queen, and break down that wall you've built around it"
"No way, not a chance anyone could do that!"
"I'll bet you $20.00 she does"
"you're on"

So went a conversation between Sandi and I a few days later, M and I had seen each other every day since the night in the previous post, but I was determined...as only a femme...and a Scorpio one at that...can be :wink.

But determination or no, the heart tends to have a mind of it's own, the more time I spent around her, the more I could feel that ice starting to crack...no matter how hard I fought it. :errrr

(*Edited to add* I did tell M about this convo. and she did tell me that it was her intention to do that!)

More time goes by, my kids return home to Oklahoma, and we go out to the bar to meet with Sandi and Beth...we're having a great time, talking and laughing, hanging out, when Sandi leans over to me and says "Love looks very good on you" :confused11

I asked her if it was that obvious, since, until that moment I had admitted it to no one, not even myself, I was in love and that thought scared the hell out of me! She told me it was obvious to anyone who looked at me that I was :wtf
how the hell did THAT happen?!?!?!

So the next day, I'm talking to Sandi on-line, and ask her if she thinks a letter would be to corny, since I am pretty much a gutless wonder when it comes to admitting things in person, and have this major fear of rejection...but I still want to tell her...crazy, yes, I may be, but I did...

So I wrote the letter, at work that day :lol, and went to see her that afternoon at work, was going to give it to her before I left but chickened out...same thing the next day...it wasn't until the 2nd day after I wrote it that I finally gave it to her, and that was only because I had just woken up, and called her back in the room before she left for work :rofl

To say fear had ahold of me would be putting it mildly, until I got to work all I could think of was that I might never see her again, then convincing myself that it would be better to know now than later down the line...

I get to work, and have a voice message waiting for me, from her, telling me she feels the same way but prefers to show it rather than say it also...thank the goddess for private cubicles because I could not hold it together any longer...

I think 'puddle princess' was the new nickname Sandi dubbed me with...and yes, I still owe her that $20.00 :rofl

little things

You know the old saying, "it's the little things"?
I've realized how very true that is in the last several months...

It was a long time since I'd actually 'lived' with someone, over three years in fact, (best friends not included in that of course, you know what I mean!) and of course, past history will tell you that it was anything but a good experience :lol

I'm having a very hard time getting used to these 'little things', I'm not used to someone doing them just because...it's almost like I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop, and I'm finding it hard not to slip back into old patterns, at times I find myself doing just that, until I remind myself that this time is so very different, and I don't need to be afraid...I can be myself and that's okay...
and now that I have that off my chest, wedding updates will be posted soon! I promise!!