Trip through blogland long enough, and you see some recurring elements among authors. Many are struggling with something that rules their their thoughts, their hopes, dreams and waking moments. Often, it isn't something good.
Ever think about how one mistake you've made has changed your entire life? Is it something you think about, or something you live? The bright side is that for every gaffe or flub along life's path that causes us to stumble, there are good choices that can keep our direction somewhat positive.
Some struggle with addictions, depression, the cult of lonliness, the constant wonder of why we even exist – some brought on not by choices, but by nature. Still, there are stories of people born into a struggle who somehow overcome obstacles to lead productive, heart-warming lives. How do they do that? How do they reach for a new attitude, make it their own, and fight the good fight to shine light on all who see them? Is it within us, or something we find elsewhere?
Maybe it's the realization that we face divergent paths: one on which we are in control of our choices; the other on which we are controlled by our choices. There are varying demons we all face, some not spiritually crippling. But none of us are immune. We all have choices, and nobody can make them for us.
I have my answers to these delimmas, and the source of them brings me peace. Do you?
I don't have all the answers yet, but I am working on them. Okay, I have the answer, I just don't always remember to use It to bring me peace.
Its funny I was just thinking about the 'mistakes' I've made regarding the choices I've made and how now that I look back I'm not sure I would change any of those 'wrong' decisions.
I'm pretty darn content right now, which means every screw-up I have made over the years brought me to this place. Ultimately, how can any of that be wrong? :)
i have many lightning bolts (screw up moments)...they make me feel like there are lightening bolts going off in my brain every time i think about them. some are minor...some are major. the last one...telling my mother in law that matt hates roast...when she was carrying a bag that contained roast. how was i to know?!! that was a minor one. i am okay with all of them too. there were a few that probably should have killed me...but they didn't...so that has to make me stronger. right?
I'm working on it.
I'm working through it.
:)
psst
http://surlysomethin.blogspot.com/
I don't understand a word I just read cause I am pretty shallow, but I seem to be happy these days. Does that answer the question?
Funny you should post this - I was was reflecting on a COLOSSAL mistake I made a year ago this month. The truest form of forgiveness is living past the mistake without recrimination but I can't get past the GUILT and SHAME of my action. I know that my life is better in so many facets because of the fallout, but I will always wonder what if the mistake hadn't happened - what path would I be on right now?
Thanks for the spark.