That's my life: October 2004 Archives

Straight Americans need... an education of the heart and soul. They must understand - to begin with - how it can feel to spend years denying your own deepest truths, to sit silently through classes, meals, and church services while people you love toss off remarks that brutalize your soul. ~Bruce Bawer

yes, I'm about to put 'family (not THAT family folks) business out here again, for those that don't want to know, come back later :kisses and as far as "airing my dirty laundry" well, it's my blog, it's my server, and if that is what I choose to do with it, then STFU and deal.

I don't understand, how, when you can accept so many people into your home, why you cannot accept someone your child loves, and who loves your child, because you don't agree with how they were BORN. (NO, it is NOT a choice!)

I don't understand, how, when you say you support your child when they come out to you, you don't figure in that somewhere along the line, their may be a 'significant other' in the picture you might have to deal with, and when it does happen, you don't deal with it, instead choose not to accept or agree with it.

I also don't understand, why I'm expected to be a perfect mother, as far as I know that does not exist, as hard as we try, we're not perfect. Perhaps if I did things differently, I would be closer to it in your eyes, but I cannot help being who I am. No, I did not have to move to FL, but you well know that I could not stay where I was, and actually encouraged me to move here, and now want to say what you've had to go through since I did...I could say something about this, but I won't, and it's not like I'm never planning on getting them back, that is something I work toward every day I'm here!

And if "EVERYONE" (yes, this is for you 'sis') has told you these things all your life, (I'm selfish, never give anyone a chance, only care about myself)...I would seriously love for them to stand up and tell me, because that seems to be something no one has ever had the nerve to do...isn't that something, that they would talk so much about me behind my back, to you, yet never say anything to me...interesting...because goddess knows I've never tried to be like that in my life, just the opposite in fact, and I really hate to think that I failed that badly

and people wonder why I would think the best family's are not always the ones you are born into, they are the ones you create yourself!

I'm not sure how an entire week goes by between posts here, but somehow it does...I still manage to keep up with everyone else's blog but don't find time for my own :lol
Speaking of blogs, not sure if any of you have noticed or payed attention, but there are a few more in the last several months here at the redeagle continuum, links are on the sidebar if you would like to check it out, and yes, if you pay attention to the addresses, the one with 'sis' in the URL, really IS my sister :rofl

for those of you really interested in how my life is going, read further...

So it's finally the weekend :happydance...and while my house still sleeps I thought I might as well post to update everyone on the latest going-ons...

Last night we celebrated the Ranran's birthday, which, of course, was done by heading to the Metro for Lesbo-a-go-go! :biggrin. Several people showed who we hadn't seen in quite some time (:wavey to SP) as well as dear friends who we always know will (:wavey to Cheryl and Fer)...one notably missing was Tigr :sad, who I know was there in spirit...
I had to leave early to get my gal from work...who after walking around for 8 hours on her job, really was not up to partying, so we came home...
Speaking of my girls job...

So after much begging and pleading I consented to let my girl take my picture...since the one I'd had on the sidebar was over 2 years old now :scared and most say that even though it's their favorite picture of me, it really didn't look anything like me anymore :shakehead
So I put one of the ones she took up there...I'm sure she would have rather have this one up there: View image
since she seems to have an obsession with my legs...but it IS my blog after all :wink
And since there is nothing else really to report, I'm going to eat and possibly hit the beach with my gal.
:wavey

Let me just start with the fact that I've discovered that as time goes on, I'm still not seeing the bright side to my girls new schedule :walk_sad.

Work is going OK on my end, other than the fact that my boss is looking for a new job :scared, and where that will leave me when she finds one, I have no idea :errrr.

My girl and I have been talking seriously about moving in together...yes, I know most of you will say we already do, but we're talking about WITHOUT paying rent on 2 places...as in one place of our own :heartpump

We've also discussed opening a B&B...she actually mentioned something about it, without knowing that has always been a dream of mine :heart, so I've been researching small business loans, properties for sale...etc...if anyone could provide assistance in this area PLEASE feel free to :biggrin

for those interested, there's more...

OK, this new shift of my girls SUCKS!!
it's been one week, and come to find out it's Saturday and Monday she has off, with 8-4:30pm on Sundays :cry:walk_sad:cry:walk_sad:cry:walk_sad...anyone got some cheese to go with this whine??

we once again were very fortunate when Jeanne hit...power only flickered and no damage or flooding. My uncle down south where it hit however, did lose power, etc...but they got it back up and running in 3 days instead of over a week like last time, he is doing well as could be expected considering he STILL has a blood clot in his leg :scared

I updated my voter registration information :thumb and hope if you need to you have also!!! If not, most of you have till the post office closes tonight to do so, your area may vary on this!!

Now, I'm going to cut this short, since as posted above my girl is off tonight and I seriously need some time with her!!!

Till next time :wavey