Yes, I'm still alive...yes I'm still working about 70 hours a week, plus school...and yes, I did upgrade the site, thats why it doesn't look anything like it should around here! I haven't had time to fix the templates *sighs*
Stay tuned...I'm sure it will only get more interesting LOL (*memo to me...fix the damn smilies!*)
"Life is what happens when you're making other plans"
And it seems while said life is going on, blogging takes a back seat 
Well where to begin...since so much has been going on here lately.
I started school today...I'm attending classes online to obtain my Associates in Accounting.
For the last several months I've been looking into having another child, and in the process discovered I'm pre-diabetic, and have been on a diet to get that under control.
Yes, you read those last 2 paragraphs correctly. 
Even though I am working 2 jobs, I've decided the best course of action is for me to go back to school and get my degree...then perhaps I can eliminate one job and make more at the other 
And now for the second paragraph...anyone that knows me can tell you that I wanted another child for years...but for a long time I didn't think it was an option, but it is...and no, I'm not doing it alone...but I'll discuss that part of it some other time, since I'm not really ready to share all the details so publicly yet.
But in this process, I discover that a problem that was pushed aside for years by previous doctors, and even one tried to tell me that I didn't have it, was in fact causing serious problems for me healthwise, and would have probably developed into type 2 if allowed to continue.
So now for some more good news...I'm going to see my kids again in 2 1/2 weeks My older 2 (dude and middle dude) are both playing football this year...it will be the first time I've gotten to see either of them play! 
Hopefully sometime soon after I return, I'll have a moment to upgrade the site, and then update my photo blog...the 4 wheelin pictures are cute too 
till l8r
Yes, I am aware that it's been a while...in fact...I know exactly how long it's been
Let's just say, there have been a lot of things going on in my life, not all of which I could talk about...so sometimes, it's best not to say anything at all!
For those that do not know, and that still come here...M and I are no longer together 
I'm ok, she's ok, and we're still friends...and all I'm really willing to put here is it didn't work out...
Moving on, as some of you might have noticed (the 2 or 3 that might still come here) redeaglespirit.com has undergone a facelift and upgrade...not all of which was planned, but what the heck!
facelift came because they suspended my account due to a spam attack...had to install a few plugins and such, and they didn't want to play nice with the old templates 
So as usual, my site was the guinea pig (since I post so often LOL) to figure out how to use these new templates to get some of the old looks back (some of the people I host are very attached to their templates! 
) it's definitely been a learning process, since with the new templates, all the tags have changed...and I can't just use the old stylesheet like I used to (ok, well, I could, but would be more of a headache!)
so, off to work on getting everyone else back up to speed, I promise I will return shortly
The 'happy' part is still up for debate :hum
My shopping is done, most of it has even been delivered (gotta love online shopping :biggrin )
I actually mixed up the dough for cookies last night...(although finding the time to bake them might be interesting :uhoh3 )
Secret santa this week at the office...
Not sure yet if I'll have to work Sunday and Monday (M has to, so it really doesn't matter :sad )
Talked to my Mother AND my sister (on the same day) last week, plans made to pick me up from the airport next week when I fly in...and my kids are actually happy about it now (since their father is having vehicle trouble and they're not going anywhere for the holiday after all :angdev )
Life, overall, is not bad...even though every other song I hear at the PTJ is xmas music, and they're torturing me with it at the FTJ today :hammer and we have yet to actually PUT anything on the tree we have up at the house (plenty under it though)
So, in case I don't find the time to say it later...Have a great one everybody!!
:group_smile
So I've had a few people tell me that I need to update, which I keep promising to do as soon as I have the time...
Time is something I STILL don't have...but I'm going to attempt this anyway :lol
Yes, I am still working two jobs, and will be for some time I'm afraid, The PTJ usually consists of overnights Fri. and Sat. and a couple evenings a week 6-whenever I manage to get out of there! (or about 30 hours a week)
I am going to see my kids after X-mas, they are less than thrilled about it however :walk_sad Dude just want's to know what we'll be doing, and they're all afraid they may miss out on something else (no idea why they would think that /sarcasm )
I don't really have much else to write about...I'm sure none of you want to hear about work...though if things keep going as they are, I'm sure to be posting a few humorous things about it (drunk runs can be interesting :hum , though I may need to figure out how to incorporate that so I don't get fired!)
I do promise the next update will be much sooner!!
:gmorning
yes, sometimes it takes more than a 'nudge' to get me to post
my life as it's been lately, hasn't really allowed time to do such things though... :eyes
I'm still working 2 jobs, and most likely will be for quite some time...I'm living for the time when I can only work one and be able to afford the bills I have and to possibly discover if there's still life out there (at least once a month anyway)
my 'to do' list is growing quite long...I have a network to set up, 2 computers to fix, and a site that needs designed...not to mention the computer I've had for the better part of a year that I still haven't gotten the parts to fix (its either the motherboard or processor, neither of which are cheap to go pick up), and several upgrades on current sites that I run (including my own)
if I could just figure out how to live without sleep I might get it all done...as it stands now, people are just gonna have to wait! (and no, it's not like they're paying me for it...so the jobs that make money come first)
I've discovered that working this much makes me very bitchy...I get very irritated over little things that wouldn't have bothered me much before. I also tend to get very frustrated with those closest to me, so it's probably a good thing I don't see them much these days.
I honestly don't know what else to post about...unless you want to hear about a 'typical day' in my life (only helpful in case of insomnia) I don't really have much else worth posting...
maybe I'll be back when I do...:shrug
goodness it's been a while!
Let's see, when I last posted, I had to go to court to see if I could get my kids to come visit me for the summer...or if he would get his way and I wouldn't get any visitation...
Well, to make a long story short, I won, my kids were here for almost 6 weeks :banana
The hardest thing about it was at first they didn't want to come down...my oldest told me what a horrible mother I was for making them do what they didn't want to do, and they were determined not to have a good time.
I'm not sure when it changed...but between the park, the beach, camping, waterpark, yu-gi-oh tournements, etc...They managed to say that had a great time.
I had so much ridding on this visit...I told them that if they didn't have a good time and didn't want to come back that I wouldn't make them come again...
of course, I know they had a good time, but that doesn't mean their father won't try to convince them they don't need to come back :uhoh3
anway...in other news...while they were here I got myself a new-to-me car :eyes
Not sure what I was thinking there...except for the one I bought just 5 months before was costing me a fortune in repairs, and I was constantly worried it was going to break down and leave afoot (since the assholes that stole the van smashed the stearing column and it's pretty much undrivable)
so...with the new car comes something I've never had before....
a car payment
yes, you read that right, I've never in my almost 37 years on this earth had a car payment :shakehead
And while things are a bit tight due to having to move, and the kids being here, and gas prices being what they are...I don't have 2 pennies to rub together, much less spare.
so...I have another job now...yes, I still have the job I love, and hope to never leave there....but now 3-4 nights a week, you can find me at the Village Inn resturant waiting tables :scared
mind you, I haven't waited tables in over 18 years...so take it easy on me if you come out! :lol
Other than this, not much to report...I've been playing around with the new version of MT (the one where they finally decided to go back to unlimited blogs and users for FREE) so we may have an upgrade here before to long...:group_smile
I just wanted to take a moment, and thank everyone who helped out with the "Nurse Ran Tuition Fund"
Thanks to several people, online, and off, she had enough to cover her tuition :happydance
In related news...she got an "A" last semester :banana
needless to say, we're all VERY proud of her! :biggrin
:trumpet
I'm ok...(ok, the lump is ok! :lol how I am is still up for debate)
apparently, I have a gland that just wanted to hang out there by itself (antisocial little thing) and that's what caused it to appear more prominent to my Dr.
:group_smile
Happy St. Paddy's day all!!
as many people have reminded me lately...my blog has been blank for a while.
yes, I'm aware of that. :uhoh3
there are a few people who know what has been going on lately...some of that I'm going to share now...some of it, I probably never will.
I think I mentioned a few weeks that I've been going to the Dr. and she has me on a diet, I have hypoglycemia, and am trying to get that under control. I must say, I do feel better with the changes I've made...more energy, not as tired all the time, I can really tell the difference!
So last week, I go back for my 'annual exam' that I haven't had in 5 years (not good, especially since I had cervical cancer that they caught in time after my youngest was born...but I digress) and I hear those words no woman wants to hear from her Dr during this type of exam...."I feel a lump"
:scared
granted, it could be anything....and I'm trying to keep positive thoughts about it...but she wants me to have a mammogram ASAP (today is when I'm scheduled) to check it out, and see if we need to take further steps.
Naturally, I'm freaking out...my normal mode to go into is trying to stay busy to distract myself...this time is no different :biggrin
so I decided that I need to back up all the people I host (both blogs, and sites through my reseller account) and move to a new server! Since I seem to be running out of room on the old one :errrr and there's nothing like new toys for a geek to play with :wink
so, if you don't hear from me for a while...that is where I'll be...
don't worry, I will let you all (what's that, 3 people now?) know how things turn out today
wish me luck...
With everything else that happened this weekend, I almost forgot our little trip on Friday after I got out of work...and they say a picture is worth a thousand words...
I'm sorry about the blank page here for the last week or so, life around here has just not been conducive to posting lately..
In what spare time I have, I've been working on a new account (you all can see it when I'm done, be patient) and trying to fix a few things on my own domain here so my bloggers have new toys to play with :biggrin
oh, and managed to get a friend of mine computer fixed (one new MB and processor later :uhoh3 )
work has been SLAMMED...with new minimum wage increases in all the companies (that have to be put in one at a time, since our program doesn't have a way to update everyone :cry ) and making end of year corrections for servers who try to claim 5,000.00 in tips in one week...and it's only going to get busier when we get the W-2's in :eyes
but that's okay, I still love my job :1luvu and being busy makes the time go so much quicker!
speaking of work, they gave us 2 tickets to see Billy Joel in concert last Tuesday! :banana (which was sold out) my wife managed to change her schedule around a bit and we had an awesome time...he put on an amazing show.
This weekend was our 'anniversary' of sorts...the 12th was one year since she proposed :heart I had a day off coming for new years, she had one coming from when she switched with someone months ago...so we took them on Friday and Saturday and got to spend 2 whole days together :smokedevil we took her car in to be fixed (which the place we took it to is not screwing us over nearly as bad as some other places have, they're actually fixing whats wrong for a very reasonable price!) spent some time with Mom, and have worked on getting our bedroom the way we want it...those are all the details you're getting here :wink but it was very nice getting that time together, especially since now they are one guard short at work and she'll be getting major OT the next 10 days :uhoh3
Till next time folks :wavey...time to find more :gmorning and get back to work
yes, I'm that young. :moon
My day started out pretty good, got to wear my costume to work (wore the vampiress one for those that remember it) We were having a luncheon today (they do it every year) I'd gotten the latest Melissa CD from my wife, and a card was waiting for me from Ran when I woke up...if nothing more than that it would have been a great day. :1luvu
I got to work, and my co-worker had decorated my cubicle, which was one of the sweetest things anyone had ever done for me...so I call my wife, wake her up, and because it's my birthday she drives out there with the camera so I can take pictures of it (that's got to be love, I'm tellin ya!) :notworthy
So she gets there, with camera, Balloon that SINGS (don't worry, be happy...now that I've gotten it stuck in YOUR head too...) and flowers :biggrin
Pictures will come when I get my hands on the camera and download the pics :lol
While I'm at work, Jet and WhteTigr call with their birthday wishes (thank you Tig for finishing the song :wink )
When the workday's over, and I get home, the phone starts, and doesn't stop for what seemed like hours!
First I heard from my boys, then I talked to Bluewolf, then Ran, M (my wife), My Dad, My sister (the one just younger than me), and Ran again. I know while I'm on the phone I got several calls in between, and one was unknown that I wasn't able to switch over quickly enough. :hum
goodness....I can't forget the card and thread from all my friends over at PA, the messages and emails when I was afk...my brain is smoking from trying not to forget anyone!! :eyes
I just want to say thank you all, for making this the best birthday to date. I love you guys!! :kisses
Always
~T~
yes, I'm back...thank you to those that realized I was gone and contacted me to ask how the trip went....it was wonderful
Last Wed. I flew out to TX to visit my kids...what started out to be a rather uneventful trip turned into anything but!
My father had called the night before I left, and when he found out I was coming to see the kids, asked about what our plans were. Well, to be honest, we really didn't have any...just spending time together and play it by ear from there, so he invited us down for a camping trip at the 4-wheeler park he goes to.
Needless to say, when I mentioned it to the boys, they were all for it! :lol
So, Wed. night, my flight gets in, I pick up the car and drive to OK...I hadn't even been in the state 15 minutes and I'm getting pulled over and get a speeding ticket!
finally get to the motel (about 2:00 am) and manage to get some sleep before picking the kids up at 7:30
my oldest had gotten to bring his uniform home...so got some pictures of him in that, and we were on the road for 'grandpa's' house!
the next day (Friday) we headed for the park...rode around, and let me tell you, my oldest can RIDE!! He has his own 4-wheeler now, and was the first time that he'd really ridden by himself...my father put him through his paces, and he managed to impress even the old man (I know from experience that's not an easy job!)
Saturday was spent with more ridding, spending time together, and basically enjoying the time we had...(until their dad showed up, my father had invited him :angry)
not much I could do about that, I just wish the 2 of them would think about how their actions affect others sometime...but I did enjoy the time spent with my kids...the hurricane held off long enough to allow me to get back home, and my 2 youngest boys have swore they're coming to FL next year :happydance
(possibly the oldest too, I'm really hoping, but he hasn't decided yet)
I do have pics that will be posted as soon as I get them developed....and since there's nothing else I feel comfortable putting here, I will close this now.
till next time!
the countdown continues...getting closer to the time I'll see my boys :biggrin
but of course, as life tends to do...I have to make other arrangements to get to and from the airport...
My wife got a promotion at work, which is a good thing (I'm so proud of her, and she deserves it!) however, it means a schedule change...so the plan has to be re-planed :hum
My oldest boy had his first real game tonight (football) :errrr
and while I am understandably nervous about my baby (hush, he will always be my baby) playing this sport, I have to brag a bit...because...:trumpet
THEY WON!!!
:banana:bounce:banana
20 to 8 :biggrin (stomped em I would say!)
*note, no offense to any actual blondes who may be reading this!*
I pulled a doozy yesterday...:hammer
after a, shall we say, 'interesting' week at work...I actually get ready to leave a little early (10 minutes, but hey, still early)
I gather up my stuff, turn off the radio, shut down the computer, put the phone on DND, tell the boss goodbye and have a nice weekend...
drive home, uneventful, no ones there...check the mail
walk in the house and start my usual 'get home routine' which is put down my purse, get out the cigarette case and cell phone, plug in cell phone, and put my travel mug in the kitchen, make coffee, check email...
oh, but wait...where's my cell phone :confused11
yep...back at work sitting on my desk! :cry
now mind you...I have keys now to get in the building...
however, its a bit of a drive to get to where I work...and with gas prices being what they are...:shrug...I'm not exactly racing anywhere to waste more of it!
I only hope on my way back to work Monday morning...well...lets not even put that thought out there :uhoh3
actually, there are a couple of 'official' things in my life that happened in this last week.
Monday, I went permanent on the job I've been working at for a little over 3 months, in the payroll department of a management company for a rather well known group of restaurants. Which I LOVE doing...very challenging, rather fast paced, which makes the days go quickly, but not so much that you feel overwhelmed...I can definitely see myself staying here for many years (and it's been a while since I felt this way about a job)
my co-workers are awesome, especially my boss, who has such a similar sense of humor it's almost scarry!
Today, I bought my plane tickets to see my boys (now I just need to find a good *read=affordable) car rental place...and convince myself it won't kill me to fly back out at 6:34 am :scared (flight time, not the time I have to be back at the airport!)
excited? oh hell yes! :banana
nervous as hell? you becha...who knows what the hell he's going to try and pull this time :angry
I know karma comes around in it's own time, but damn she's taking a while about it, and I'm not that patient of a person!! :uhoh3
note: CT, I bumped up your bandwidth gal, you should be ok now
I talked to my kids last night...while they were a bit disapointed, they, (expecially my oldest) was more excited about possibly finding a 4 wheeler for him...
we came up with an alternate plan, of going down there durring their fall break (when I don't have to compete with 4 wheelers and camping trips) to see them.
:banana
life is just not fair.
why does it seem, when you're able to do something, when you PLAN to do something, then plans change, perhaps due to other people involved plans changing, or for other reasons.
so you rework your plans, postpone them...then something happens and there is no way that you can see that the plans can be carried out.
:wtf is she talking about? I'm sure you all are saying right about now...
allow me to explain...and yes, this is more detail than I usually go into on my blog...but I'm tired of all the bullshit
I've been told to update...
about what, I have no idea...
the plans fell through on getting the boys this summer, more about that I will not post here due to reasons I'm certain most are aware of! :asshole
the new job is still awesome :heart and I've cut down to part time at the other one, soon will be down to just the one I imagine, as working 7+ days a week is starting to take it's toll on me :disapear
there's really not much else to report...working on wedding plans, and other plans...STILL unpacking stuff in the new house (how the hell is all this going to fit in here???) plus work, doesn't leave alot of time for much of a life :yawn
I was off this weekend...
not a big deal for most people, I know, but for me, was the first time I'd been off from both jobs in over a month...
And what did I do with all that free time? Absolutely nothing!
Outside of going to the store after M got off work Sat. night (shopping is almost tolerable at midnight)...I didn't do not one blessed thing that required my lazy ass to get out of the house. :biggrin
BW even tried to call me into work...I never answered the phone :biglaugha
so...that was my big exciting weekend...how was yours?
so I received a call the other day, from the agency I had worked through before, kinda surprising since, even though I'd told them to keep me in mind if anything good came up, I still had not heard from them since going to work at Best Western.
She had 3 jobs she wanted to tell me about, the first one to set up an interview was a payroll position.
They want me to start Monday.
I would be making more than 1 1/2 times what I make now...granted, it's a further drive, and gas is outrageous!! but I really do want to do this...at the same time, I'm freaking out!
First off, I need to give BW 2 weeks notice, I don't want to burn this bridge in any way, shape or form. They've been very good to me. At the same time, I'm going to be so dead tired trying to work these 2 jobs it's not even funny!!
Secondly, I was let go from my last 'temp-to-hire' job because I was gay, even though I can't prove it, I'm 99% certain. Even if I could prove it, sadly, it's not illegal in most states, FL being one of those. So there's the big 'what if' question.
Thirdly is, what if I hate it? OK, that ones doubtful, it's working in payroll FFS, I love doing that sort of thing (yes, I enjoy accounting and paperwork, so sue me :lol) and it seems like an awesome company to work for...but there is that possibility...
So, anyone have any thoughts? wisdom to share? solutions to this issue? if so, you know the routine.
Okay...so as I posted last time, we've moved :biggrin
in spite of my now ex-landlord being a bit of a prick, (he wants April's rent, even after the agreed upon 30 day notice) all is going well.
We STILL have not finished unpacking, working toward it rather well (managed to find the kitchen counters and part of the living room)...I'm getting to that point where I just want it DONE! It's driving me nuts (yes, short trip, I'm aware of that) however, have been to tired to really contribute much to the effort. :sad
I will be so glad when I get to feeling better! (as anyone who knows me can attest to, I hate being sick!)
Work seems to be going well for all involved, and we're doing well working out schedules to make sure the little one's covered...that all seems so familiar to me, working nights and making sure you're up in time to pick up the kid from school :lol...just wish it was my own that I was picking up also :walk_sad
on that front, I was informed a couple weeks ago that NONE of them wanted to come down this summer :cry, hopefully that has since changed, or it seemed to have changed last I talked to them...still very hard to talk about considering what all is involved there, to say I'm hurt beyond belief is an understatement.
On a final note, some progress has been made with wedding plans, to which I plan on updating that blog as soon as I post this!
So, as most of you know by now, WE GOT THE HOUSE :banana!!
4 bedroom, 1 1/2 bath, fenced yard, fireplace, w/d hookups, PERFECT house!! :biggrin
my grrl Ran (and her daughter) will be moving in with her "two mommies" :rofl, each will have their own room :smile, and I get to see my best buddy all the time again!! :happydance
so for weeks now I've been working the 7-3 shift, with a couple 11-7 thrown in there...which sucks on many levels, mostly because M works 3-11 and 11-7, but also because I am NOT a morning person! :gmorning
Today, it caught up with me...I came home and 'napped' for about 6 hours :sleeping...and I'm still sleepy :snore...but we have hired a new gal at work (and looking for one more) so hopefully soon I will be back on my regular schedule!! (whatever that is...:lol)
yesterday...after work (for me, M had the day off) we went and looked at houses...we found the PERFECT one!! Both of us feel in love with it on sight, enough room for everything we want, huge back yard, front yard, fireplace, lots of storage, kitchen is awesome, within our price range...but the lease here is not up for 3 more months...I'm not sure if we should wait it out, or take a chance and break it...decisions, decisions...:shrug
some of you might have noticed, that for a bit I had a 'mood and music' added to my blog for a few days, and it was working fine....in all aspects except for the cron job I had running on here, (which rebuilds the site every hour so the rss feeds are updated) was generating an email telling me that there was no configuration defined for this blog :wtf?
yes there was!! (it wouldn't have worked at all otherwise)
so if anyone out there is familiar with this little problem,:hum and knows how to fix it (or at least a good place to start!) please help!! cause I think I've tried about everything I can think of :shrug
the work schedule has changed again :cry...where I was working evenings and nights, I'm now back on first shift this week (and hopefully only this week!) due to one of the other clerks leaving...goddess I hate mornings :gmorning and I get to be there when all the managers are present :uhoh3
So last night, I come home, sign on as usual, and a message pops up from a friend who's computer I just fixed, asking us to meet her at the norm for a drink...M was at work :cry, but she still wanted me to meet them (her and another mutual friend of ours) up there, so, even though it was pretty much the last thing I felt like doing, I get ready and go...and I'm so glad I did!
We're sitting there drinking, and talking, when Ran calls! asking where I am and the like, since they were over by my house :lol, so I tell her to meet us up there, and then M calls and said if I want to stay she will meet us up there after work...so we had quite a little group going by this time, and to top it off it was the King's show last night! :biggrin
It's been so long since we've all done that, just go and hang out, have a good time, and just unwind after a long week. I hope it's not that long before we all get together again!
One element was missing though, and I'm sure everyone knows what/who that was...we drank one for you gal, hope everything is going well :cool we miss you!!
to my friends that were there, thank you, Love you all, and hopefully we can do it again VERY SOON!
:kisses
Last years NYD entry
Last Years Recap
it's funny, I don't make resolutions, and most of the time I don't, I didn't think I did last year, but I did...and yes, I kept it. I was determined to get out of that hellish state and get my life back...and while it (my life) may still be somewhat off track, it's getting better all the time :wink
So, it's that time of year when we reflect on things that have happened to us over the last year, and I'm human, I tend to do the same, it's human nature I suppose to reflect on the passing year and what could have been done differently.
I try to live my life without regrets, and for the most part I have succeeded, after all, everything in my past helped shape me into the person I am today, I wouldn't be ME, if not for the events that took place to shape who I am, and where I am today...
this does not mean that I look back and don't wish some things could have been done differently, but for the most part, it was out of my hands, as it was the actions of others that directed the course of events, but you still wonder if there is something that you could have done or said differently to alter the outcome...I am extremely thankful that friendships were not permanently damaged when all was said and done.
If you're wondering what brought on that bout of rambling, suffice it to say that I was rereading archives this morning looking for the above links :lol
My hopes for this year, are for my friends to find the happiness they deserve, for the insane person in the white house to come to his senses and see that we're not looking for anything special, just equal, actually I'd rather all these 'questionable voting results' declare a new winner...but I'm certain that will be hushed up quickly.
I look forward to getting me back on track, taking care of things I need to get done, so M and I can move forward in our lives...
:group_smile
Goodbye 2004!! I can't say as I'll miss you, but you made for an interesting year :rofl
this years 'recap' below if you're interested...
I did want to wish all of my friends (yes, and family) on here a Merry Christmas!
just because I'm a Scrooge this year is no reason not to at least do that....
I'm going to combine this with a little update, so if you want to know more, read on...if not, have a VERY Happy New Year! (yes, that would be the only holiday I'm really celebrating this year it seems :rofl)
So yes, as Ran said in her previous comment, I got the job!:notworthy and I start on Monday in the Management training program for Firehouse Subs
Needless to say this will be a bit different than most jobs I've had in recent years!
I do have management experience, and lord knows tons of experience with reports, managing the day to day operations of a business, etc...just not in a fast food setting :scared I am interested in seeing how different it is working on this side of the counter goes though :lol
OK WhiteTiger, per your request, I'm updating dammit :bite:chtounge
first off, the 'everyone keep your fingers crossed for me' news...I have a second interview with Firehouse Subs on Friday for the management program! :red
I'm also going to be working with M's step-dad to help him get his own business off and going...on the technical side...webpage, database, business cards...that sort of thing...his partner is pretty much screwing him out of a lot with what they're doing now :angry
other than that, not much going on here...except it's COLD!!!
Dammit, this is Florida, it's not supposed to be cold!! :uhoh3
something is seriously screwed up in the universe :fdup
so much for that...:cry
I got a call last night that told me the place didn't think it was going to work out...no reason, just not...
Then she said they had said something about me being to 'abrupt' on the phone with the customers.
Odd, since the lady that was training me to do her job (who is retiring) said I was being to nice :confused11
It was very unexpected...my first day we were all (my supervisor, the one who's retiring, and me) standing around talking about how we don't 'job hop' and my supervisor said something about once she finds a place, she's settled, I mentioned how much I would like to be able to do that here in Jax (since all who know me know I pretty much had the same job the whole time I was working in OK, and they'd still love for me to come back) and she told me she thought I had, how well she thought I was going to fit into the office, etc...
I must say they're a lot better at deception than the last place...not that I think that's a good thing :sad but at least then I saw it coming...
So back to stressing out and looking :scared
:trumpet
:WootI GOT A JOB!!!:woo
yes folks, that's right, first job interview I went on today after losing mine Friday...I got it :happydance I start tomorrow!!
:thumb:bounce:group_smile:groupwave
I'm a bit excited...think it shows?? :red
as if I didn't have enough going on in life, Friday the place I was working at saw fit to have the agency I was working through (no, they couldn't even tell me themselves) call and tell me I was no longer working there...nice huh?
not that I didn't see it coming, I had been given the heads up a few days before by someone outside my department...but I was still very upset...even though I had been wondering since my old boss left, I guess I don't have to do that anymore now, huh?
so enough of the pity party...I was cleaning out old emails today and came across this, I'm sure She has already posted it on her site, but with all my friends and I have been through here lately, I wanted to remind them what they mean to me...
okay...now for the story...
We left out of here Wed. night after I got off work and got everything loaded...no major issues, she'd just gotten the car serviced, and all seemed to be going well.
I talked to my boys, they called because they wanted to know what time we were going to be there, etc...the way things were looking I figured about 10-11 am.
We stopped and got gas, drinks, all still was going fine
I no sooner got off the phone than M told me that something was wrong with the car, it kept saying she needed to shift (standard trans.) but she was already in 5th gear...
:uhoh3
granted I don't know jack about cars, but even I know this cannot be good...
that was an understatement to say the least...
tachometers goes nuts, clutch is GONE...nadda, zip, zilch...going uphill on I-10 and it just finished raining...
So, we pull off to the side of the road, M gets out and pushes it off the road, and thankfully as we're nearing an exit, someone stops to help push, while I steer the car and his wife drives behind us with her flashers on so no one runs us over...
fortunately, the little town does have a gas station we pull it in as we get off the exit, and a Motel next door, I call the Ex to tell him that we're not going to make it after all, my friend Jamie who we were planning on seeing this weekend to tell her the same...then a thought occurred to me, my dear friend WhiteTiger moved to PC a few months ago, and didn't I see the signs for that not to far back up the road? Maybe they know of someplace we can get the car fixed at...so hoping she may still be at work, I give her a call too and leave a message...
She calls back and asked :wtf happened...so I give her a brief rundown of events and we get off the phone (since it is after 1am at this time) she calls back a bit later and tells me that they want to come get us and use her g/f's AAA to get us towed to PC, since there are more places there we could probably get it fixed at...:cry
I truly mean it when I say I have the best friends a girl could ever ask for...I pretty much lost it then, and again that night after waiting almost 5 hours for the tow truck, them bringing us back to their place, feeding us some awesome food...I felt so bad that we had messed up their holiday together...words could never express how much it meant to me though :hug :notworthy
The next day we call the place we had it towed to...sure they can fix it, for about $1,000.00 :scared
the cheapest place we found still wanted around $800.00...ummm...I'm sorry, I'm a poor lesbian, and cannot afford that much!! So M called her step-dad and asked if he could come get us and tow us home...which he did (TTG&G), we managed to find the last car transport in PC and rented it IMMEDIATELY!! hung out with Tig and A for one more day, and then A drove us up to meet him while Tig was at work Saturday (thank you, thank you, thank you again!!)
We got back in town last night, (where her step-dad knows a mechanic who will fix it for less than $500.00), and now are trying to recuperate from our first 'road trip' together and prepare for work tomorrow...
I just want to publicly thank everyone who helped us out this weekend...I don't know of any better friends than the ones I have and I love you all dearly...I hope to see you again soon, but as we said, under MUCH better circumstances!!
:kisses
yes, we're back early, no I didn't get to see my boys, :cry and yes, I will explain why later...to much to do this morning
:fdup :hammer
I cannot wait!!
cannot say I'm looking forward to the 17 hour drive, but it will so be worth it! :hug
I seem to have a case of 'feeling sorry for myself-itus' lately, I've had such a hard time getting motivated to do much of anything, including cleaning my house (which desperately needs it) to just getting up in the morning to go to work :walk_sad...I'm seriously not liking the fact that M and I are on opposite schedules AGAIN! :let_it_all_out and then to top it off that several friends of mine are going through some very tough times that make my petty problems seem like so much child's play...it's enough to make me wonder :wtf is going on with the universe, especially this close to the holidays (OK, lets not get me started on that rant!)
I don't even feel like posting here lately, although its the only communication I seem to have with some of my friends lately, I guess knowing my family is reading it now has really affected that, and is probably a lot of the problem...knowing the decisions they've made, and how that will affect my children and I really does hurt, deep down, even when I try to make myself believe otherwise.
I was always told "you are my daughter, I will always love you no matter what", and I was still told that, even up to the last email I received from her, but I'm sorry, actions speak louder than words IMHO...you said when I came out to you, years ago, that I still had your support and love, I guess that was true when I didn't have a partner that I wanted to bring 'home'
I've always said that being gay in no way affected what type of parent I was, or my ability to raise my children, in fact, just the opposite, because hopefully my children would be more accepting and loving of individuals who were 'different' than what society considered to be 'normal'...and when I said that to her she agreed with me, didn't really want to discuss it, but still...
This was not what I intended to post about when I opened this page, heck, was not even what was on my mind...or so I thought :lol, but I guess with the countdown getting closer and closer, and knowing that up until a few weeks ago what the plans for that holiday were going to be...well...:shrug
if I don't get a chance to post it before then, have a great holiday season, with whomever you CHOOSE to spend it with, and I hope you are thankful for whoever that is...
:group_smile
well, here we are, another Sunday morning...
M is fast asleep, having worked 7-7 last night, and having to again tonight :cry
another week, more overtime :snore this shit is getting old FAST!
however I'm trying to remember that it will give me the extra I need to go see my kids :happydance
speaking of my kids, little dude had a birthday Friday!! time is going by way to quickly...he's already 6 :sad...I cannot wait to see them in 11 days!!!! ( I see another countdown script on here in my immediate future :wink)
my other roomies are in their own place :walk_sad, I'm very happy for them, but damn I do miss them both!
I'm looking into changing this over to WP, I have it installed and setup, but all my little hacks and plugins I have here I need to figure out how to get on it...such as the RSS feeds, my own templates, etc...if I cannot do this, well, I just won't be using it! :lol since my entire front page is pretty much nothing but 'otherblog' plugins and hacks, rebuilt with cron jobs (and mt-rebuild) and I really don't have to do anything to it except add and remove as people come and go...can you tell I REALLY don't want to change that? :rofl
I've been looking around to see if WP can give me something similar, but since it looks like I would have to install it seperately for everyone who wants to use it, instead of just using the one install I have now in MT, I don't think I'm going to have alot of luck here...if anyone has any ideas on this, please let me know!
I have been told I needed to update...
1. my girl got a new job!!! thank the goddess for small favors...she is much happier and her schedule is a 'bit' better. hopefully that will improve once she finishes training
2. I still have my current job, and 11.5 hours OT last week :scared the new boss is interesting to say the least, she does seem to realize I know what I'm doing however!
3. I heard from my sister this weekend, how in the hell someone who was raised with me could think that I would say or do anything in front of 'her' children is beyond me, however, living in DFW, do ya REALLY think they're never going to meet anyone gay in their lives?? I'm the same person now as I was before, that hasn't changed, would you rather them see me with the :asshole and us fighting all the time? now there's a healthy environment for kids! :fdup :uhoh3
4. I cannot begin to express how upset I am about the decisions made by fellow Americans last Tuesday...so I won't try, however, I will tell you to go to BlueWolf's site and read everything in there from Nov. 2nd to present day...and KEEP READING IT!! She is an awesome writer and has a way of expressing points and facts in a way no one can dispute :notworthy
5. it looks like I will be losing some roomies soon :cry, but I am very happy for them finding a place they like...Love you guys!! :1luvu
ok, that's all for now, going to go spend time with my gal, since we have a few moments where neither of us are working :wavey
Straight Americans need... an education of the heart and soul. They must understand - to begin with - how it can feel to spend years denying your own deepest truths, to sit silently through classes, meals, and church services while people you love toss off remarks that brutalize your soul. ~Bruce Bawer
yes, I'm about to put 'family (not THAT family folks) business out here again, for those that don't want to know, come back later :kisses and as far as "airing my dirty laundry" well, it's my blog, it's my server, and if that is what I choose to do with it, then STFU and deal.
I don't understand, how, when you can accept so many people into your home, why you cannot accept someone your child loves, and who loves your child, because you don't agree with how they were BORN. (NO, it is NOT a choice!)
I don't understand, how, when you say you support your child when they come out to you, you don't figure in that somewhere along the line, their may be a 'significant other' in the picture you might have to deal with, and when it does happen, you don't deal with it, instead choose not to accept or agree with it.
I also don't understand, why I'm expected to be a perfect mother, as far as I know that does not exist, as hard as we try, we're not perfect. Perhaps if I did things differently, I would be closer to it in your eyes, but I cannot help being who I am. No, I did not have to move to FL, but you well know that I could not stay where I was, and actually encouraged me to move here, and now want to say what you've had to go through since I did...I could say something about this, but I won't, and it's not like I'm never planning on getting them back, that is something I work toward every day I'm here!
And if "EVERYONE" (yes, this is for you 'sis') has told you these things all your life, (I'm selfish, never give anyone a chance, only care about myself)...I would seriously love for them to stand up and tell me, because that seems to be something no one has ever had the nerve to do...isn't that something, that they would talk so much about me behind my back, to you, yet never say anything to me...interesting...because goddess knows I've never tried to be like that in my life, just the opposite in fact, and I really hate to think that I failed that badly
and people wonder why I would think the best family's are not always the ones you are born into, they are the ones you create yourself!
I'm not sure how an entire week goes by between posts here, but somehow it does...I still manage to keep up with everyone else's blog but don't find time for my own :lol
Speaking of blogs, not sure if any of you have noticed or payed attention, but there are a few more in the last several months here at the redeagle continuum, links are on the sidebar if you would like to check it out, and yes, if you pay attention to the addresses, the one with 'sis' in the URL, really IS my sister :rofl
for those of you really interested in how my life is going, read further...
So it's finally the weekend :happydance...and while my house still sleeps I thought I might as well post to update everyone on the latest going-ons...
Last night we celebrated the Ranran's birthday, which, of course, was done by heading to the Metro for Lesbo-a-go-go! :biggrin. Several people showed who we hadn't seen in quite some time (:wavey to SP) as well as dear friends who we always know will (:wavey to Cheryl and Fer)...one notably missing was Tigr :sad, who I know was there in spirit...
I had to leave early to get my gal from work...who after walking around for 8 hours on her job, really was not up to partying, so we came home...
Speaking of my girls job...
So after much begging and pleading I consented to let my girl take my picture...since the one I'd had on the sidebar was over 2 years old now :scared and most say that even though it's their favorite picture of me, it really didn't look anything like me anymore :shakehead
So I put one of the ones she took up there...I'm sure she would have rather have this one up there: View image
since she seems to have an obsession with my legs...but it IS my blog after all :wink
And since there is nothing else really to report, I'm going to eat and possibly hit the beach with my gal.
:wavey
Let me just start with the fact that I've discovered that as time goes on, I'm still not seeing the bright side to my girls new schedule :walk_sad.
Work is going OK on my end, other than the fact that my boss is looking for a new job :scared, and where that will leave me when she finds one, I have no idea :errrr.
My girl and I have been talking seriously about moving in together...yes, I know most of you will say we already do, but we're talking about WITHOUT paying rent on 2 places...as in one place of our own :heartpump
We've also discussed opening a B&B...she actually mentioned something about it, without knowing that has always been a dream of mine :heart, so I've been researching small business loans, properties for sale...etc...if anyone could provide assistance in this area PLEASE feel free to :biggrin
for those interested, there's more...
OK, this new shift of my girls SUCKS!!
it's been one week, and come to find out it's Saturday and Monday she has off, with 8-4:30pm on Sundays :cry:walk_sad:cry:walk_sad:cry:walk_sad...anyone got some cheese to go with this whine??
we once again were very fortunate when Jeanne hit...power only flickered and no damage or flooding. My uncle down south where it hit however, did lose power, etc...but they got it back up and running in 3 days instead of over a week like last time, he is doing well as could be expected considering he STILL has a blood clot in his leg :scared
I updated my voter registration information :thumb and hope if you need to you have also!!! If not, most of you have till the post office closes tonight to do so, your area may vary on this!!
Now, I'm going to cut this short, since as posted above my girl is off tonight and I seriously need some time with her!!!
Till next time 
:wavey
OK, so a lot has happened since I last sat down and actually updated! :lol I know I say that every time and it seems to be getting longer and longer between updates, but I'm finding those are the hazards of having a life :scared
so lets start with last Friday...which was one of my best friends (Whtetigr, who used to have a blog but no longer does :cry) last weekend in town before she moved off and left us :cry:cry:cry...us being Ranran and I of course...and naturally we wanted to do something to send her off right...something like she would do for us (well no, we didn't let it get THAT bad! :rofl)
let me set it up for you...Whtetigr had Fri. and Sat. off work (she did end up working a couple hours Fri. afternoon though, till 6), Rans girlfriend D had to work Fri. till 9 I work till 5, M worked till 3...so trying to coordinate something with all those schedules was quite an accomplishment!
When M got off work she went and picked up Ran so I could pick them both up with one trip, then the 3 of us went to the ummm...'toy store' :biglaugha for a few items we would need that night...you know, handcuffs, blindfold...stuff you're going to need to convince someone who doesn't want to go out that night with their buds :wink then drop Ran off back at her place, where she had convinced Whtetigr that she'd gotten rid of D for the night so they could have some friend time before Whtetigr left town.
9:30...D is home and waiting downstairs, M and I pull up (with the purchases made earlier in the day) and we get set to put the plan in motion :biggrin going up the stairs as quiet as possible (Ran knew we were there, she'd seen us from the bathroom window earlier) and walk in the door to a surprised Whtetigr
who was then told (Via Ran and myself) to "assume the position" :rofl she was a great sport about it all, while we handcuffed and blindfolded her...even had a little flashing button that said 'bacheloretts last night out' we made her wear
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then lead her downstairs and loaded her into my van :lol drove her around for a bit so she wouldn't realize where we were going, and headed to the metro...when she walked in and realized where we were she said "you are NOT making me walk through here like this!"...she knows us better than that...we damn sure were!!! :rofl and did...got our drinks, found our table, and sat to enjoy the show...my friend, you were a great sport about it all :kisses
Since she was still speaking to us Sat. :lol, we all met up to go out to dinner, where I got to met the person who she was moving to :cry:cry...seriously, she seemed very nice (dammit! :sad) had some good food, good conversation, and then went our separate ways to spend time with our respective significant others...but my girl did get this before we did that...
The Three Musketeers
I miss you my friend...more than words can say or than you will ever know...I hope life brings you all you want and desire, because you deserve it so very much. :kisses you're an awesome person and we love you :1luvu
for those that have made it this far, there is more if you're interested....
yes, I am posting from work again...my boss is gone for the day and my work is done (well ok, most of it is :lol)
I really have several things to post about, but my desire to even be on the computer has pretty much reached an all time low when I'm home.
The kids are doing good, dude and little dude have even made student of the week (in the same week even :rofl) already this year! :banana
work is going great, not a whole lot to say about that, that wouldn't bore everyone to tears :wink
M and I are doing EXTREMELY well...just passed the 2 month mark :biggrin...the fear that she will decide she doesn't want to be with me or that she will just leave someday, or find someone else...is slowly but surely fading into the background...still there, but not nearly as strong as every other time when it DID happen...so we'll just continue to take it one day at a time and see where things go.
Well as Frances came and is still hanging around parts of the state, I must say I feel very lucky this morning :biggrin.
My area was probably one of the few that didn't lose power, my house did not flood, (and I do live in a very flood-prone part of town) so for right now I'm feeling very fortunate :crazy in spite of the tree that is laying across the middle of the road in front of my house (could have been a lot worse, it didn't hit anything :smile)
I am, however, very worried about my uncle, as most of you remember when I moved to Florida earlier this year, he is the one most responsible for my bein