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Yes, I'm still alive...yes I'm still working about 70 hours a week, plus school...and yes, I did upgrade the site, thats why it doesn't look anything like it should around here! I haven't had time to fix the templates *sighs*

Stay tuned...I'm sure it will only get more interesting LOL (*memo to me...fix the damn smilies!*)

"Life is what happens when you're making other plans"
And it seems while said life is going on, blogging takes a back seat
Well where to begin...since so much has been going on here lately.
I started school today...I'm attending classes online to obtain my Associates in Accounting.
For the last several months I've been looking into having another child, and in the process discovered I'm pre-diabetic, and have been on a diet to get that under control.
Yes, you read those last 2 paragraphs correctly.
Even though I am working 2 jobs, I've decided the best course of action is for me to go back to school and get my degree...then perhaps I can eliminate one job and make more at the other
And now for the second paragraph...anyone that knows me can tell you that I wanted another child for years...but for a long time I didn't think it was an option, but it is...and no, I'm not doing it alone...but I'll discuss that part of it some other time, since I'm not really ready to share all the details so publicly yet.
But in this process, I discover that a problem that was pushed aside for years by previous doctors, and even one tried to tell me that I didn't have it, was in fact causing serious problems for me healthwise, and would have probably developed into type 2 if allowed to continue.
So now for some more good news...I'm going to see my kids again in 2 1/2 weeks My older 2 (dude and middle dude) are both playing football this year...it will be the first time I've gotten to see either of them play!
Hopefully sometime soon after I return, I'll have a moment to upgrade the site, and then update my photo blog...the 4 wheelin pictures are cute too

till l8r

Yes, I am aware that it's been a while...in fact...I know exactly how long it's been

Let's just say, there have been a lot of things going on in my life, not all of which I could talk about...so sometimes, it's best not to say anything at all!
For those that do not know, and that still come here...M and I are no longer together
I'm ok, she's ok, and we're still friends...and all I'm really willing to put here is it didn't work out...

Moving on, as some of you might have noticed (the 2 or 3 that might still come here) redeaglespirit.com has undergone a facelift and upgrade...not all of which was planned, but what the heck!
facelift came because they suspended my account due to a spam attack...had to install a few plugins and such, and they didn't want to play nice with the old templates
So as usual, my site was the guinea pig (since I post so often LOL) to figure out how to use these new templates to get some of the old looks back (some of the people I host are very attached to their templates! ) it's definitely been a learning process, since with the new templates, all the tags have changed...and I can't just use the old stylesheet like I used to (ok, well, I could, but would be more of a headache!)

so, off to work on getting everyone else back up to speed, I promise I will return shortly

The 'happy' part is still up for debate :hum
My shopping is done, most of it has even been delivered (gotta love online shopping :biggrin )
I actually mixed up the dough for cookies last night...(although finding the time to bake them might be interesting :uhoh3 )
Secret santa this week at the office...
Not sure yet if I'll have to work Sunday and Monday (M has to, so it really doesn't matter :sad )
Talked to my Mother AND my sister (on the same day) last week, plans made to pick me up from the airport next week when I fly in...and my kids are actually happy about it now (since their father is having vehicle trouble and they're not going anywhere for the holiday after all :angdev )
Life, overall, is not bad...even though every other song I hear at the PTJ is xmas music, and they're torturing me with it at the FTJ today :hammer and we have yet to actually PUT anything on the tree we have up at the house (plenty under it though)
So, in case I don't find the time to say it later...Have a great one everybody!!
:group_smile

So I've had a few people tell me that I need to update, which I keep promising to do as soon as I have the time...
Time is something I STILL don't have...but I'm going to attempt this anyway :lol

Yes, I am still working two jobs, and will be for some time I'm afraid, The PTJ usually consists of overnights Fri. and Sat. and a couple evenings a week 6-whenever I manage to get out of there! (or about 30 hours a week)

I am going to see my kids after X-mas, they are less than thrilled about it however :walk_sad Dude just want's to know what we'll be doing, and they're all afraid they may miss out on something else (no idea why they would think that /sarcasm )

I don't really have much else to write about...I'm sure none of you want to hear about work...though if things keep going as they are, I'm sure to be posting a few humorous things about it (drunk runs can be interesting :hum , though I may need to figure out how to incorporate that so I don't get fired!)

I do promise the next update will be much sooner!!

:gmorning
yes, sometimes it takes more than a 'nudge' to get me to post
my life as it's been lately, hasn't really allowed time to do such things though... :eyes
I'm still working 2 jobs, and most likely will be for quite some time...I'm living for the time when I can only work one and be able to afford the bills I have and to possibly discover if there's still life out there (at least once a month anyway)

my 'to do' list is growing quite long...I have a network to set up, 2 computers to fix, and a site that needs designed...not to mention the computer I've had for the better part of a year that I still haven't gotten the parts to fix (its either the motherboard or processor, neither of which are cheap to go pick up), and several upgrades on current sites that I run (including my own)
if I could just figure out how to live without sleep I might get it all done...as it stands now, people are just gonna have to wait! (and no, it's not like they're paying me for it...so the jobs that make money come first)

I've discovered that working this much makes me very bitchy...I get very irritated over little things that wouldn't have bothered me much before. I also tend to get very frustrated with those closest to me, so it's probably a good thing I don't see them much these days.

I honestly don't know what else to post about...unless you want to hear about a 'typical day' in my life (only helpful in case of insomnia) I don't really have much else worth posting...
maybe I'll be back when I do...:shrug

goodness it's been a while!
Let's see, when I last posted, I had to go to court to see if I could get my kids to come visit me for the summer...or if he would get his way and I wouldn't get any visitation...
Well, to make a long story short, I won, my kids were here for almost 6 weeks :banana
The hardest thing about it was at first they didn't want to come down...my oldest told me what a horrible mother I was for making them do what they didn't want to do, and they were determined not to have a good time.
I'm not sure when it changed...but between the park, the beach, camping, waterpark, yu-gi-oh tournements, etc...They managed to say that had a great time.
I had so much ridding on this visit...I told them that if they didn't have a good time and didn't want to come back that I wouldn't make them come again...
of course, I know they had a good time, but that doesn't mean their father won't try to convince them they don't need to come back :uhoh3

anway...in other news...while they were here I got myself a new-to-me car :eyes
Not sure what I was thinking there...except for the one I bought just 5 months before was costing me a fortune in repairs, and I was constantly worried it was going to break down and leave afoot (since the assholes that stole the van smashed the stearing column and it's pretty much undrivable)
so...with the new car comes something I've never had before....
a car payment
yes, you read that right, I've never in my almost 37 years on this earth had a car payment :shakehead
And while things are a bit tight due to having to move, and the kids being here, and gas prices being what they are...I don't have 2 pennies to rub together, much less spare.
so...I have another job now...yes, I still have the job I love, and hope to never leave there....but now 3-4 nights a week, you can find me at the Village Inn resturant waiting tables :scared
mind you, I haven't waited tables in over 18 years...so take it easy on me if you come out! :lol
Other than this, not much to report...I've been playing around with the new version of MT (the one where they finally decided to go back to unlimited blogs and users for FREE) so we may have an upgrade here before to long...:group_smile

I just wanted to take a moment, and thank everyone who helped out with the "Nurse Ran Tuition Fund"
Thanks to several people, online, and off, she had enough to cover her tuition :happydance
In related news...she got an "A" last semester :banana
needless to say, we're all VERY proud of her! :biggrin

:trumpet

I'm ok...(ok, the lump is ok! :lol how I am is still up for debate)
apparently, I have a gland that just wanted to hang out there by itself (antisocial little thing) and that's what caused it to appear more prominent to my Dr.

:group_smile
Happy St. Paddy's day all!!

as many people have reminded me lately...my blog has been blank for a while.
yes, I'm aware of that. :uhoh3

there are a few people who know what has been going on lately...some of that I'm going to share now...some of it, I probably never will.

I think I mentioned a few weeks that I've been going to the Dr. and she has me on a diet, I have hypoglycemia, and am trying to get that under control. I must say, I do feel better with the changes I've made...more energy, not as tired all the time, I can really tell the difference!

So last week, I go back for my 'annual exam' that I haven't had in 5 years (not good, especially since I had cervical cancer that they caught in time after my youngest was born...but I digress) and I hear those words no woman wants to hear from her Dr during this type of exam...."I feel a lump"
:scared
granted, it could be anything....and I'm trying to keep positive thoughts about it...but she wants me to have a mammogram ASAP (today is when I'm scheduled) to check it out, and see if we need to take further steps.

Naturally, I'm freaking out...my normal mode to go into is trying to stay busy to distract myself...this time is no different :biggrin

so I decided that I need to back up all the people I host (both blogs, and sites through my reseller account) and move to a new server! Since I seem to be running out of room on the old one :errrr and there's nothing like new toys for a geek to play with :wink

so, if you don't hear from me for a while...that is where I'll be...
don't worry, I will let you all (what's that, 3 people now?) know how things turn out today
wish me luck...

With everything else that happened this weekend, I almost forgot our little trip on Friday after I got out of work...and they say a picture is worth a thousand words...

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I'm sorry about the blank page here for the last week or so, life around here has just not been conducive to posting lately..
In what spare time I have, I've been working on a new account (you all can see it when I'm done, be patient) and trying to fix a few things on my own domain here so my bloggers have new toys to play with :biggrin
oh, and managed to get a friend of mine computer fixed (one new MB and processor later :uhoh3 )
work has been SLAMMED...with new minimum wage increases in all the companies (that have to be put in one at a time, since our program doesn't have a way to update everyone :cry ) and making end of year corrections for servers who try to claim 5,000.00 in tips in one week...and it's only going to get busier when we get the W-2's in :eyes
but that's okay, I still love my job :1luvu and being busy makes the time go so much quicker!
speaking of work, they gave us 2 tickets to see Billy Joel in concert last Tuesday! :banana (which was sold out) my wife managed to change her schedule around a bit and we had an awesome time...he put on an amazing show.
This weekend was our 'anniversary' of sorts...the 12th was one year since she proposed :heart I had a day off coming for new years, she had one coming from when she switched with someone months ago...so we took them on Friday and Saturday and got to spend 2 whole days together :smokedevil we took her car in to be fixed (which the place we took it to is not screwing us over nearly as bad as some other places have, they're actually fixing whats wrong for a very reasonable price!) spent some time with Mom, and have worked on getting our bedroom the way we want it...those are all the details you're getting here :wink but it was very nice getting that time together, especially since now they are one guard short at work and she'll be getting major OT the next 10 days :uhoh3

Till next time folks :wavey...time to find more :gmorning and get back to work

yes, I'm that young. :moon

My day started out pretty good, got to wear my costume to work (wore the vampiress one for those that remember it) We were having a luncheon today (they do it every year) I'd gotten the latest Melissa CD from my wife, and a card was waiting for me from Ran when I woke up...if nothing more than that it would have been a great day. :1luvu
I got to work, and my co-worker had decorated my cubicle, which was one of the sweetest things anyone had ever done for me...so I call my wife, wake her up, and because it's my birthday she drives out there with the camera so I can take pictures of it (that's got to be love, I'm tellin ya!) :notworthy
So she gets there, with camera, Balloon that SINGS (don't worry, be happy...now that I've gotten it stuck in YOUR head too...) and flowers :biggrin
Pictures will come when I get my hands on the camera and download the pics :lol
While I'm at work, Jet and WhteTigr call with their birthday wishes (thank you Tig for finishing the song :wink )
When the workday's over, and I get home, the phone starts, and doesn't stop for what seemed like hours!
First I heard from my boys, then I talked to Bluewolf, then Ran, M (my wife), My Dad, My sister (the one just younger than me), and Ran again. I know while I'm on the phone I got several calls in between, and one was unknown that I wasn't able to switch over quickly enough. :hum
goodness....I can't forget the card and thread from all my friends over at PA, the messages and emails when I was afk...my brain is smoking from trying not to forget anyone!! :eyes
I just want to say thank you all, for making this the best birthday to date. I love you guys!! :kisses

Always
~T~

yes, I'm back...thank you to those that realized I was gone and contacted me to ask how the trip went....it was wonderful
Last Wed. I flew out to TX to visit my kids...what started out to be a rather uneventful trip turned into anything but!

My father had called the night before I left, and when he found out I was coming to see the kids, asked about what our plans were. Well, to be honest, we really didn't have any...just spending time together and play it by ear from there, so he invited us down for a camping trip at the 4-wheeler park he goes to.
Needless to say, when I mentioned it to the boys, they were all for it! :lol

So, Wed. night, my flight gets in, I pick up the car and drive to OK...I hadn't even been in the state 15 minutes and I'm getting pulled over and get a speeding ticket!
finally get to the motel (about 2:00 am) and manage to get some sleep before picking the kids up at 7:30
my oldest had gotten to bring his uniform home...so got some pictures of him in that, and we were on the road for 'grandpa's' house!
the next day (Friday) we headed for the park...rode around, and let me tell you, my oldest can RIDE!! He has his own 4-wheeler now, and was the first time that he'd really ridden by himself...my father put him through his paces, and he managed to impress even the old man (I know from experience that's not an easy job!)

Saturday was spent with more ridding, spending time together, and basically enjoying the time we had...(until their dad showed up, my father had invited him :angry)
not much I could do about that, I just wish the 2 of them would think about how their actions affect others sometime...but I did enjoy the time spent with my kids...the hurricane held off long enough to allow me to get back home, and my 2 youngest boys have swore they're coming to FL next year :happydance
(possibly the oldest too, I'm really hoping, but he hasn't decided yet)

I do have pics that will be posted as soon as I get them developed....and since there's nothing else I feel comfortable putting here, I will close this now.

till next time!

the countdown continues...getting closer to the time I'll see my boys :biggrin
but of course, as life tends to do...I have to make other arrangements to get to and from the airport...
My wife got a promotion at work, which is a good thing (I'm so proud of her, and she deserves it!) however, it means a schedule change...so the plan has to be re-planed :hum

My oldest boy had his first real game tonight (football) :errrr

and while I am understandably nervous about my baby (hush, he will always be my baby) playing this sport, I have to brag a bit...because...:trumpet

THEY WON!!!
:banana:bounce:banana

20 to 8 :biggrin (stomped em I would say!)

*note, no offense to any actual blondes who may be reading this!*

I pulled a doozy yesterday...:hammer

after a, shall we say, 'interesting' week at work...I actually get ready to leave a little early (10 minutes, but hey, still early)
I gather up my stuff, turn off the radio, shut down the computer, put the phone on DND, tell the boss goodbye and have a nice weekend...
drive home, uneventful, no ones there...check the mail
walk in the house and start my usual 'get home routine' which is put down my purse, get out the cigarette case and cell phone, plug in cell phone, and put my travel mug in the kitchen, make coffee, check email...
oh, but wait...where's my cell phone :confused11

yep...back at work sitting on my desk! :cry

now mind you...I have keys now to get in the building...
however, its a bit of a drive to get to where I work...and with gas prices being what they are...:shrug...I'm not exactly racing anywhere to waste more of it!

I only hope on my way back to work Monday morning...well...lets not even put that thought out there :uhoh3

actually, there are a couple of 'official' things in my life that happened in this last week.
Monday, I went permanent on the job I've been working at for a little over 3 months, in the payroll department of a management company for a rather well known group of restaurants. Which I LOVE doing...very challenging, rather fast paced, which makes the days go quickly, but not so much that you feel overwhelmed...I can definitely see myself staying here for many years (and it's been a while since I felt this way about a job)
my co-workers are awesome, especially my boss, who has such a similar sense of humor it's almost scarry!

Today, I bought my plane tickets to see my boys (now I just need to find a good *read=affordable) car rental place...and convince myself it won't kill me to fly back out at 6:34 am :scared (flight time, not the time I have to be back at the airport!)
excited? oh hell yes! :banana
nervous as hell? you becha...who knows what the hell he's going to try and pull this time :angry

I know karma comes around in it's own time, but damn she's taking a while about it, and I'm not that patient of a person!! :uhoh3

note: CT, I bumped up your bandwidth gal, you should be ok now

I talked to my kids last night...while they were a bit disapointed, they, (expecially my oldest) was more excited about possibly finding a 4 wheeler for him...

we came up with an alternate plan, of going down there durring their fall break (when I don't have to compete with 4 wheelers and camping trips) to see them.
:banana

life is just not fair.
why does it seem, when you're able to do something, when you PLAN to do something, then plans change, perhaps due to other people involved plans changing, or for other reasons.
so you rework your plans, postpone them...then something happens and there is no way that you can see that the plans can be carried out.
:wtf is she talking about? I'm sure you all are saying right about now...
allow me to explain...and yes, this is more detail than I usually go into on my blog...but I'm tired of all the bullshit

I've been told to update...
about what, I have no idea...

the plans fell through on getting the boys this summer, more about that I will not post here due to reasons I'm certain most are aware of! :asshole

the new job is still awesome :heart and I've cut down to part time at the other one, soon will be down to just the one I imagine, as working 7+ days a week is starting to take it's toll on me :disapear

there's really not much else to report...working on wedding plans, and other plans...STILL unpacking stuff in the new house (how the hell is all this going to fit in here???) plus work, doesn't leave alot of time for much of a life :yawn

I was off this weekend...
not a big deal for most people, I know, but for me, was the first time I'd been off from both jobs in over a month...
And what did I do with all that free time? Absolutely nothing!
Outside of going to the store after M got off work Sat. night (shopping is almost tolerable at midnight)...I didn't do not one blessed thing that required my lazy ass to get out of the house. :biggrin
BW even tried to call me into work...I never answered the phone :biglaugha

so...that was my big exciting weekend...how was yours?

so I received a call the other day, from the agency I had worked through before, kinda surprising since, even though I'd told them to keep me in mind if anything good came up, I still had not heard from them since going to work at Best Western.
She had 3 jobs she wanted to tell me about, the first one to set up an interview was a payroll position.
They want me to start Monday.
I would be making more than 1 1/2 times what I make now...granted, it's a further drive, and gas is outrageous!! but I really do want to do this...at the same time, I'm freaking out!
First off, I need to give BW 2 weeks notice, I don't want to burn this bridge in any way, shape or form. They've been very good to me. At the same time, I'm going to be so dead tired trying to work these 2 jobs it's not even funny!!
Secondly, I was let go from my last 'temp-to-hire' job because I was gay, even though I can't prove it, I'm 99% certain. Even if I could prove it, sadly, it's not illegal in most states, FL being one of those. So there's the big 'what if' question.
Thirdly is, what if I hate it? OK, that ones doubtful, it's working in payroll FFS, I love doing that sort of thing (yes, I enjoy accounting and paperwork, so sue me :lol) and it seems like an awesome company to work for...but there is that possibility...
So, anyone have any thoughts? wisdom to share? solutions to this issue? if so, you know the routine.

Okay...so as I posted last time, we've moved :biggrin
in spite of my now ex-landlord being a bit of a prick, (he wants April's rent, even after the agreed upon 30 day notice) all is going well.
We STILL have not finished unpacking, working toward it rather well (managed to find the kitchen counters and part of the living room)...I'm getting to that point where I just want it DONE! It's driving me nuts (yes, short trip, I'm aware of that) however, have been to tired to really contribute much to the effort. :sad
I will be so glad when I get to feeling better! (as anyone who knows me can attest to, I hate being sick!)
Work seems to be going well for all involved, and we're doing well working out schedules to make sure the little one's covered...that all seems so familiar to me, working nights and making sure you're up in time to pick up the kid from school :lol...just wish it was my own that I was picking up also :walk_sad
on that front, I was informed a couple weeks ago that NONE of them wanted to come down this summer :cry, hopefully that has since changed, or it seemed to have changed last I talked to them...still very hard to talk about considering what all is involved there, to say I'm hurt beyond belief is an understatement.
On a final note, some progress has been made with wedding plans, to which I plan on updating that blog as soon as I post this!

So, as most of you know by now, WE GOT THE HOUSE :banana!!
4 bedroom, 1 1/2 bath, fenced yard, fireplace, w/d hookups, PERFECT house!! :biggrin
my grrl Ran (and her daughter) will be moving in with her "two mommies" :rofl, each will have their own room :smile, and I get to see my best buddy all the time again!! :happydance

so for weeks now I've been working the 7-3 shift, with a couple 11-7 thrown in there...which sucks on many levels, mostly because M works 3-11 and 11-7, but also because I am NOT a morning person! :gmorning
Today, it caught up with me...I came home and 'napped' for about 6 hours :sleeping...and I'm still sleepy :snore...but we have hired a new gal at work (and looking for one more) so hopefully soon I will be back on my regular schedule!! (whatever that is...:lol)

yesterday...after work (for me, M had the day off) we went and looked at houses...we found the PERFECT one!! Both of us feel in love with it on sight, enough room for everything we want, huge back yard, front yard, fireplace, lots of storage, kitchen is awesome, within our price range...but the lease here is not up for 3 more months...I'm not sure if we should wait it out, or take a chance and break it...decisions, decisions...:shrug

some of you might have noticed, that for a bit I had a 'mood and music' added to my blog for a few days, and it was working fine....in all aspects except for the cron job I had running on here, (which rebuilds the site every hour so the rss feeds are updated) was generating an email telling me that there was no configuration defined for this blog :wtf?
yes there was!! (it wouldn't have worked at all otherwise)
so if anyone out there is familiar with this little problem,:hum and knows how to fix it (or at least a good place to start!) please help!! cause I think I've tried about everything I can think of :shrug

the work schedule has changed again :cry...where I was working evenings and nights, I'm now back on first shift this week (and hopefully only this week!) due to one of the other clerks leaving...goddess I hate mornings :gmorning and I get to be there when all the managers are present :uhoh3

So last night, I come home, sign on as usual, and a message pops up from a friend who's computer I just fixed, asking us to meet her at the norm for a drink...M was at work :cry, but she still wanted me to meet them (her and another mutual friend of ours) up there, so, even though it was pretty much the last thing I felt like doing, I get ready and go...and I'm so glad I did!
We're sitting there drinking, and talking, when Ran calls! asking where I am and the like, since they were over by my house :lol, so I tell her to meet us up there, and then M calls and said if I want to stay she will meet us up there after work...so we had quite a little group going by this time, and to top it off it was the King's show last night! :biggrin
It's been so long since we've all done that, just go and hang out, have a good time, and just unwind after a long week. I hope it's not that long before we all get together again!
One element was missing though, and I'm sure everyone knows what/who that was...we drank one for you gal, hope everything is going well :cool we miss you!!
to my friends that were there, thank you, Love you all, and hopefully we can do it again VERY SOON!
:kisses

Last years NYD entry
Last Years Recap
it's funny, I don't make resolutions, and most of the time I don't, I didn't think I did last year, but I did...and yes, I kept it. I was determined to get out of that hellish state and get my life back...and while it (my life) may still be somewhat off track, it's getting better all the time :wink

So, it's that time of year when we reflect on things that have happened to us over the last year, and I'm human, I tend to do the same, it's human nature I suppose to reflect on the passing year and what could have been done differently.
I try to live my life without regrets, and for the most part I have succeeded, after all, everything in my past helped shape me into the person I am today, I wouldn't be ME, if not for the events that took place to shape who I am, and where I am today...
this does not mean that I look back and don't wish some things could have been done differently, but for the most part, it was out of my hands, as it was the actions of others that directed the course of events, but you still wonder if there is something that you could have done or said differently to alter the outcome...I am extremely thankful that friendships were not permanently damaged when all was said and done.
If you're wondering what brought on that bout of rambling, suffice it to say that I was rereading archives this morning looking for the above links :lol

My hopes for this year, are for my friends to find the happiness they deserve, for the insane person in the white house to come to his senses and see that we're not looking for anything special, just equal, actually I'd rather all these 'questionable voting results' declare a new winner...but I'm certain that will be hushed up quickly.
I look forward to getting me back on track, taking care of things I need to get done, so M and I can move forward in our lives...

:group_smile
Goodbye 2004!! I can't say as I'll miss you, but you made for an interesting year :rofl

this years 'recap' below if you're interested...

I did want to wish all of my friends (yes, and family) on here a Merry Christmas!
just because I'm a Scrooge this year is no reason not to at least do that....

I'm going to combine this with a little update, so if you want to know more, read on...if not, have a VERY Happy New Year! (yes, that would be the only holiday I'm really celebrating this year it seems :rofl)

So yes, as Ran said in her previous comment, I got the job!:notworthy and I start on Monday in the Management training program for Firehouse Subs
Needless to say this will be a bit different than most jobs I've had in recent years!
I do have management experience, and lord knows tons of experience with reports, managing the day to day operations of a business, etc...just not in a fast food setting :scared I am interested in seeing how different it is working on this side of the counter goes though :lol

OK WhiteTiger, per your request, I'm updating dammit :bite:chtounge

first off, the 'everyone keep your fingers crossed for me' news...I have a second interview with Firehouse Subs on Friday for the management program! :red
I'm also going to be working with M's step-dad to help him get his own business off and going...on the technical side...webpage, database, business cards...that sort of thing...his partner is pretty much screwing him out of a lot with what they're doing now :angry

other than that, not much going on here...except it's COLD!!!
Dammit, this is Florida, it's not supposed to be cold!! :uhoh3
something is seriously screwed up in the universe :fdup

so much for that...:cry

I got a call last night that told me the place didn't think it was going to work out...no reason, just not...
Then she said they had said something about me being to 'abrupt' on the phone with the customers.
Odd, since the lady that was training me to do her job (who is retiring) said I was being to nice :confused11
It was very unexpected...my first day we were all (my supervisor, the one who's retiring, and me) standing around talking about how we don't 'job hop' and my supervisor said something about once she finds a place, she's settled, I mentioned how much I would like to be able to do that here in Jax (since all who know me know I pretty much had the same job the whole time I was working in OK, and they'd still love for me to come back) and she told me she thought I had, how well she thought I was going to fit into the office, etc...
I must say they're a lot better at deception than the last place...not that I think that's a good thing :sad but at least then I saw it coming...
So back to stressing out and looking :scared

:trumpet

:WootI GOT A JOB!!!:woo

yes folks, that's right, first job interview I went on today after losing mine Friday...I got it :happydance I start tomorrow!!

:thumb:bounce:group_smile:groupwave

I'm a bit excited...think it shows?? :red

as if I didn't have enough going on in life, Friday the place I was working at saw fit to have the agency I was working through (no, they couldn't even tell me themselves) call and tell me I was no longer working there...nice huh?
not that I didn't see it coming, I had been given the heads up a few days before by someone outside my department...but I was still very upset...even though I had been wondering since my old boss left, I guess I don't have to do that anymore now, huh?
so enough of the pity party...I was cleaning out old emails today and came across this, I'm sure She has already posted it on her site, but with all my friends and I have been through here lately, I wanted to remind them what they mean to me...

okay...now for the story...
We left out of here Wed. night after I got off work and got everything loaded...no major issues, she'd just gotten the car serviced, and all seemed to be going well.
I talked to my boys, they called because they wanted to know what time we were going to be there, etc...the way things were looking I figured about 10-11 am.
We stopped and got gas, drinks, all still was going fine
I no sooner got off the phone than M told me that something was wrong with the car, it kept saying she needed to shift (standard trans.) but she was already in 5th gear...
:uhoh3
granted I don't know jack about cars, but even I know this cannot be good...
that was an understatement to say the least...
tachometers goes nuts, clutch is GONE...nadda, zip, zilch...going uphill on I-10 and it just finished raining...
So, we pull off to the side of the road, M gets out and pushes it off the road, and thankfully as we're nearing an exit, someone stops to help push, while I steer the car and his wife drives behind us with her flashers on so no one runs us over...
fortunately, the little town does have a gas station we pull it in as we get off the exit, and a Motel next door, I call the Ex to tell him that we're not going to make it after all, my friend Jamie who we were planning on seeing this weekend to tell her the same...then a thought occurred to me, my dear friend WhiteTiger moved to PC a few months ago, and didn't I see the signs for that not to far back up the road? Maybe they know of someplace we can get the car fixed at...so hoping she may still be at work, I give her a call too and leave a message...
She calls back and asked :wtf happened...so I give her a brief rundown of events and we get off the phone (since it is after 1am at this time) she calls back a bit later and tells me that they want to come get us and use her g/f's AAA to get us towed to PC, since there are more places there we could probably get it fixed at...:cry
I truly mean it when I say I have the best friends a girl could ever ask for...I pretty much lost it then, and again that night after waiting almost 5 hours for the tow truck, them bringing us back to their place, feeding us some awesome food...I felt so bad that we had messed up their holiday together...words could never express how much it meant to me though :hug :notworthy
The next day we call the place we had it towed to...sure they can fix it, for about $1,000.00 :scared
the cheapest place we found still wanted around $800.00...ummm...I'm sorry, I'm a poor lesbian, and cannot afford that much!! So M called her step-dad and asked if he could come get us and tow us home...which he did (TTG&G), we managed to find the last car transport in PC and rented it IMMEDIATELY!! hung out with Tig and A for one more day, and then A drove us up to meet him while Tig was at work Saturday (thank you, thank you, thank you again!!)
We got back in town last night, (where her step-dad knows a mechanic who will fix it for less than $500.00), and now are trying to recuperate from our first 'road trip' together and prepare for work tomorrow...
I just want to publicly thank everyone who helped us out this weekend...I don't know of any better friends than the ones I have and I love you all dearly...I hope to see you again soon, but as we said, under MUCH better circumstances!!
:kisses

yes, we're back early, no I didn't get to see my boys, :cry and yes, I will explain why later...to much to do this morning
:fdup :hammer

I cannot wait!!
cannot say I'm looking forward to the 17 hour drive, but it will so be worth it! :hug

I seem to have a case of 'feeling sorry for myself-itus' lately, I've had such a hard time getting motivated to do much of anything, including cleaning my house (which desperately needs it) to just getting up in the morning to go to work :walk_sad...I'm seriously not liking the fact that M and I are on opposite schedules AGAIN! :let_it_all_out and then to top it off that several friends of mine are going through some very tough times that make my petty problems seem like so much child's play...it's enough to make me wonder :wtf is going on with the universe, especially this close to the holidays (OK, lets not get me started on that rant!)

I don't even feel like posting here lately, although its the only communication I seem to have with some of my friends lately, I guess knowing my family is reading it now has really affected that, and is probably a lot of the problem...knowing the decisions they've made, and how that will affect my children and I really does hurt, deep down, even when I try to make myself believe otherwise.
I was always told "you are my daughter, I will always love you no matter what", and I was still told that, even up to the last email I received from her, but I'm sorry, actions speak louder than words IMHO...you said when I came out to you, years ago, that I still had your support and love, I guess that was true when I didn't have a partner that I wanted to bring 'home'
I've always said that being gay in no way affected what type of parent I was, or my ability to raise my children, in fact, just the opposite, because hopefully my children would be more accepting and loving of individuals who were 'different' than what society considered to be 'normal'...and when I said that to her she agreed with me, didn't really want to discuss it, but still...

This was not what I intended to post about when I opened this page, heck, was not even what was on my mind...or so I thought :lol, but I guess with the countdown getting closer and closer, and knowing that up until a few weeks ago what the plans for that holiday were going to be...well...:shrug

if I don't get a chance to post it before then, have a great holiday season, with whomever you CHOOSE to spend it with, and I hope you are thankful for whoever that is...

:group_smile

well, here we are, another Sunday morning...
M is fast asleep, having worked 7-7 last night, and having to again tonight :cry
another week, more overtime :snore this shit is getting old FAST!
however I'm trying to remember that it will give me the extra I need to go see my kids :happydance
speaking of my kids, little dude had a birthday Friday!! time is going by way to quickly...he's already 6 :sad...I cannot wait to see them in 11 days!!!! ( I see another countdown script on here in my immediate future :wink)
my other roomies are in their own place :walk_sad, I'm very happy for them, but damn I do miss them both!

I'm looking into changing this over to WP, I have it installed and setup, but all my little hacks and plugins I have here I need to figure out how to get on it...such as the RSS feeds, my own templates, etc...if I cannot do this, well, I just won't be using it! :lol since my entire front page is pretty much nothing but 'otherblog' plugins and hacks, rebuilt with cron jobs (and mt-rebuild) and I really don't have to do anything to it except add and remove as people come and go...can you tell I REALLY don't want to change that? :rofl
I've been looking around to see if WP can give me something similar, but since it looks like I would have to install it seperately for everyone who wants to use it, instead of just using the one install I have now in MT, I don't think I'm going to have alot of luck here...if anyone has any ideas on this, please let me know!

I have been told I needed to update...

1. my girl got a new job!!! thank the goddess for small favors...she is much happier and her schedule is a 'bit' better. hopefully that will improve once she finishes training

2. I still have my current job, and 11.5 hours OT last week :scared the new boss is interesting to say the least, she does seem to realize I know what I'm doing however!

3. I heard from my sister this weekend, how in the hell someone who was raised with me could think that I would say or do anything in front of 'her' children is beyond me, however, living in DFW, do ya REALLY think they're never going to meet anyone gay in their lives?? I'm the same person now as I was before, that hasn't changed, would you rather them see me with the :asshole and us fighting all the time? now there's a healthy environment for kids! :fdup :uhoh3

4. I cannot begin to express how upset I am about the decisions made by fellow Americans last Tuesday...so I won't try, however, I will tell you to go to BlueWolf's site and read everything in there from Nov. 2nd to present day...and KEEP READING IT!! She is an awesome writer and has a way of expressing points and facts in a way no one can dispute :notworthy

5. it looks like I will be losing some roomies soon :cry, but I am very happy for them finding a place they like...Love you guys!! :1luvu

ok, that's all for now, going to go spend time with my gal, since we have a few moments where neither of us are working :wavey

Straight Americans need... an education of the heart and soul. They must understand - to begin with - how it can feel to spend years denying your own deepest truths, to sit silently through classes, meals, and church services while people you love toss off remarks that brutalize your soul. ~Bruce Bawer

yes, I'm about to put 'family (not THAT family folks) business out here again, for those that don't want to know, come back later :kisses and as far as "airing my dirty laundry" well, it's my blog, it's my server, and if that is what I choose to do with it, then STFU and deal.

I don't understand, how, when you can accept so many people into your home, why you cannot accept someone your child loves, and who loves your child, because you don't agree with how they were BORN. (NO, it is NOT a choice!)

I don't understand, how, when you say you support your child when they come out to you, you don't figure in that somewhere along the line, their may be a 'significant other' in the picture you might have to deal with, and when it does happen, you don't deal with it, instead choose not to accept or agree with it.

I also don't understand, why I'm expected to be a perfect mother, as far as I know that does not exist, as hard as we try, we're not perfect. Perhaps if I did things differently, I would be closer to it in your eyes, but I cannot help being who I am. No, I did not have to move to FL, but you well know that I could not stay where I was, and actually encouraged me to move here, and now want to say what you've had to go through since I did...I could say something about this, but I won't, and it's not like I'm never planning on getting them back, that is something I work toward every day I'm here!

And if "EVERYONE" (yes, this is for you 'sis') has told you these things all your life, (I'm selfish, never give anyone a chance, only care about myself)...I would seriously love for them to stand up and tell me, because that seems to be something no one has ever had the nerve to do...isn't that something, that they would talk so much about me behind my back, to you, yet never say anything to me...interesting...because goddess knows I've never tried to be like that in my life, just the opposite in fact, and I really hate to think that I failed that badly

and people wonder why I would think the best family's are not always the ones you are born into, they are the ones you create yourself!

I'm not sure how an entire week goes by between posts here, but somehow it does...I still manage to keep up with everyone else's blog but don't find time for my own :lol
Speaking of blogs, not sure if any of you have noticed or payed attention, but there are a few more in the last several months here at the redeagle continuum, links are on the sidebar if you would like to check it out, and yes, if you pay attention to the addresses, the one with 'sis' in the URL, really IS my sister :rofl

for those of you really interested in how my life is going, read further...

So it's finally the weekend :happydance...and while my house still sleeps I thought I might as well post to update everyone on the latest going-ons...

Last night we celebrated the Ranran's birthday, which, of course, was done by heading to the Metro for Lesbo-a-go-go! :biggrin. Several people showed who we hadn't seen in quite some time (:wavey to SP) as well as dear friends who we always know will (:wavey to Cheryl and Fer)...one notably missing was Tigr :sad, who I know was there in spirit...
I had to leave early to get my gal from work...who after walking around for 8 hours on her job, really was not up to partying, so we came home...
Speaking of my girls job...

So after much begging and pleading I consented to let my girl take my picture...since the one I'd had on the sidebar was over 2 years old now :scared and most say that even though it's their favorite picture of me, it really didn't look anything like me anymore :shakehead
So I put one of the ones she took up there...I'm sure she would have rather have this one up there: View image
since she seems to have an obsession with my legs...but it IS my blog after all :wink
And since there is nothing else really to report, I'm going to eat and possibly hit the beach with my gal.
:wavey

Let me just start with the fact that I've discovered that as time goes on, I'm still not seeing the bright side to my girls new schedule :walk_sad.

Work is going OK on my end, other than the fact that my boss is looking for a new job :scared, and where that will leave me when she finds one, I have no idea :errrr.

My girl and I have been talking seriously about moving in together...yes, I know most of you will say we already do, but we're talking about WITHOUT paying rent on 2 places...as in one place of our own :heartpump

We've also discussed opening a B&B...she actually mentioned something about it, without knowing that has always been a dream of mine :heart, so I've been researching small business loans, properties for sale...etc...if anyone could provide assistance in this area PLEASE feel free to :biggrin

for those interested, there's more...

OK, this new shift of my girls SUCKS!!
it's been one week, and come to find out it's Saturday and Monday she has off, with 8-4:30pm on Sundays :cry:walk_sad:cry:walk_sad:cry:walk_sad...anyone got some cheese to go with this whine??

we once again were very fortunate when Jeanne hit...power only flickered and no damage or flooding. My uncle down south where it hit however, did lose power, etc...but they got it back up and running in 3 days instead of over a week like last time, he is doing well as could be expected considering he STILL has a blood clot in his leg :scared

I updated my voter registration information :thumb and hope if you need to you have also!!! If not, most of you have till the post office closes tonight to do so, your area may vary on this!!

Now, I'm going to cut this short, since as posted above my girl is off tonight and I seriously need some time with her!!!

Till next time :wavey

OK, so a lot has happened since I last sat down and actually updated! :lol I know I say that every time and it seems to be getting longer and longer between updates, but I'm finding those are the hazards of having a life :scared

so lets start with last Friday...which was one of my best friends (Whtetigr, who used to have a blog but no longer does :cry) last weekend in town before she moved off and left us :cry:cry:cry...us being Ranran and I of course...and naturally we wanted to do something to send her off right...something like she would do for us (well no, we didn't let it get THAT bad! :rofl)
let me set it up for you...Whtetigr had Fri. and Sat. off work (she did end up working a couple hours Fri. afternoon though, till 6), Rans girlfriend D had to work Fri. till 9 I work till 5, M worked till 3...so trying to coordinate something with all those schedules was quite an accomplishment!
When M got off work she went and picked up Ran so I could pick them both up with one trip, then the 3 of us went to the ummm...'toy store' :biglaugha for a few items we would need that night...you know, handcuffs, blindfold...stuff you're going to need to convince someone who doesn't want to go out that night with their buds :wink then drop Ran off back at her place, where she had convinced Whtetigr that she'd gotten rid of D for the night so they could have some friend time before Whtetigr left town.
9:30...D is home and waiting downstairs, M and I pull up (with the purchases made earlier in the day) and we get set to put the plan in motion :biggrin going up the stairs as quiet as possible (Ran knew we were there, she'd seen us from the bathroom window earlier) and walk in the door to a surprised Whtetigr
who was then told (Via Ran and myself) to "assume the position" :rofl she was a great sport about it all, while we handcuffed and blindfolded her...even had a little flashing button that said 'bacheloretts last night out' we made her wear
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then lead her downstairs and loaded her into my van :lol drove her around for a bit so she wouldn't realize where we were going, and headed to the metro...when she walked in and realized where we were she said "you are NOT making me walk through here like this!"...she knows us better than that...we damn sure were!!! :rofl and did...got our drinks, found our table, and sat to enjoy the show...my friend, you were a great sport about it all :kisses
Since she was still speaking to us Sat. :lol, we all met up to go out to dinner, where I got to met the person who she was moving to :cry:cry...seriously, she seemed very nice (dammit! :sad) had some good food, good conversation, and then went our separate ways to spend time with our respective significant others...but my girl did get this before we did that...
The Three Musketeers
I miss you my friend...more than words can say or than you will ever know...I hope life brings you all you want and desire, because you deserve it so very much. :kisses you're an awesome person and we love you :1luvu

for those that have made it this far, there is more if you're interested....

yes, I am posting from work again...my boss is gone for the day and my work is done (well ok, most of it is :lol)
I really have several things to post about, but my desire to even be on the computer has pretty much reached an all time low when I'm home.

The kids are doing good, dude and little dude have even made student of the week (in the same week even :rofl) already this year! :banana

work is going great, not a whole lot to say about that, that wouldn't bore everyone to tears :wink

M and I are doing EXTREMELY well...just passed the 2 month mark :biggrin...the fear that she will decide she doesn't want to be with me or that she will just leave someday, or find someone else...is slowly but surely fading into the background...still there, but not nearly as strong as every other time when it DID happen...so we'll just continue to take it one day at a time and see where things go.

Well as Frances came and is still hanging around parts of the state, I must say I feel very lucky this morning :biggrin.
My area was probably one of the few that didn't lose power, my house did not flood, (and I do live in a very flood-prone part of town) so for right now I'm feeling very fortunate :crazy in spite of the tree that is laying across the middle of the road in front of my house (could have been a lot worse, it didn't hit anything :smile)
I am, however, very worried about my uncle, as most of you remember when I moved to Florida earlier this year, he is the one most responsible for my being here...he lives in Port Saint Lucie, which is very close to 'ground zero'...and was supposed to come stay with us...well, he opted to stay put...actually I think it had more to do with the 'person' living with him :let_it_all_out but M and I agreed that if she wanted to stay, let her, we'd have boarded up the house and left her ass there!! :rofl
anyway...he called yesterday morning about 5:15 am, and while I heard the phone ringing it didn't really register with me what was going on...so the phone went unanswered...and I haven't been able to get ahold of him since :cry

In better news, my kids went to my fathers house this weekend..and my middle dude now can water-ski! :banana...its so cute to listen to him talk about it because his older and younger brother cannot get up yet, and they're a lot bigger than him :biggrin....I'm so proud of him!!! Even my father was bragging because of how choppy the water was.
Of course, now my oldest wants me to come down and join them, because he wants to see if "I can out-ski Aunt Linda" to which I told him "I always could son" :wink :rofl

So I'm off now to clean house and do laundry and find something to occupy my time till my gal gets off work :fdup :walk_sad hope everyone has a good day, and my thoughts are with those dealing with Frances visit :sad

nothing really exciting to report about my weekend...was awesome enough for me but you don't need to know ALL those details :lol
Friday I had to work most of the day :sad, which sux cause M took it off and I usually get off early on Fridays...but was all good...amazing to come home to a clean house and she had even done the laundry :notworthy...and was informed when I said she didn't have to keep doing this or she was going to spoil me, that "the time you would have spent doing this takes away time from me" well...how could I argue??
then we headed out to do both of our least favorite chore...shopping...ugh...but hey, one does have to eat...then back home where she fixed dinner and Ran and her boi D came over.
Saturday we both had a hard time getting out of bed :biggrin but had to for her Nieces b-day party and then over to my friend Big D's house (different D) for a get-together which had more awesome food :red then home again to watch "Shrek" (I love that movie!)
Sunday was more shopping (chocolate cravings abound :rofl) baking, and watching my "L word" tapes that I finally got back from Big D...then back to the same ol grind today :cry
so like I said...not much to tell really...
but I tell you...I could get used to this...

I gave birth to one very pissed off baby boy...
(see more of him here)
who grew into being one of the great joys of my life, in spite of how much trouble he gave me coming into the world :rofl

To my middle dude...I hope you have the greatest of birthdays, your mama is there in spirit even if she cannot be there in person...I love you very very much my son...:kisses

When you're having fun...
I did fully intend on updating yesterday, but was having issues with the computer so decided to walk away from it and spend time with M instead :1luvu
and yes, for lack of a better term, for those that must put labels on such things, I guess you could refer to her as my girlfriend, since even though we haven't had that 'talk' we did just celebrate our one month anniversary on Fri. :biggrin

Ok, so between that and work...you have my excuse for why I've been updating so sporadically...

OK, so I've really sucked at updating lately, last weekend was the boys last weekend here, so we went to the parade (pics as soon as I get them developed) and the beach...got into a lovely fight with the Ex. and was ready to kill almost everyone by the time it was over with :let_it_all_out
this week was a little strained, with me stressing over taking the kids back to their father :cry and my sisters car having troubles...thankfully that all worked out OK, and she drove them back and met up with one of our other sisters in Shreveport. No, I didn't go, my gas hog would have been a bit much this go-round.
So this weekend was mostly spent stressing out over whether or not they made it OK, which they did after an unscheduled detour :lol
and spending some time with friends :biggrin we went to the festival yesterday at the beach, which was interesting to say the least...some ways good, some ways bad, but not really going to go into all that here since it's not my story to tell...

by that title, of course, I'm refering to life...
I found out today that a very close friend of mine is dying :cry, depending on some factors involved, she has anywhere from 1-10 years :walk_sad
she said to me today "life is to short", unfortunatly, she knows that all to well now...she talked more about living, I mean really living, now that she's aware she doesn't have much time left to do that...
she's a year older than I am...

it really makes you stop and think...

I have just got to say this...I enjoy getting comments as much as the next person, however, 250+ later in less than 12 hours is a bit much!!
Jet and I both got slammed with these people who have nothing better to do than write programs to leave these lovely little comment spams...I must say there is a special place in hell for all of them :flames

in other news...I had a most awesome weekend hanging out with friends again and my children...just wish I had known the weather was cooperating on the other side of town and we'd have went to the beach :sad
I also wish that my kids didn't think we had to go somewhere and spend money to have a good time, and inform their father how unhappy they were when they don't get to...because it pisses me off when he still tries to tell me how to live my life from 1,000+ miles away! :angry:let_it_all_out:angry:let_it_all_out:angry:let_it_all_out

but anyway...yes, things are going very well with the person I've been spending a lot of time with lately...so we'll see where/how it goes...it is kind of strange though..in some aspects, but in a good way...and I must say I'm enjoying the hell out of it! :wink

so today was about a 5 on a scale of 1-10...I have a head cold :cry, woke up to early as she was leaving :cry:cry but in a way that was a good thing because I had reset my alarm for my sister and it would not have gone off at the time I needed to get up! :scared
and needless to say my mind has been anywhere but where it should be lately :scatter
so I get home today...where I had a very sweet surprise :blush a balloon with "thinking of you" on it, and a very sweet note attached that you will NOT know the contents of...:lol
and my oldest son...wanting to talk...
yes...the talk that every gay parent gets to experience I'm sure...
I've always said from day one that my oldest was an old soul...I could see it in his eyes when he was born...and very curious about every little thing...not to mention smart as hell! so he had a lot of questions about my friends, one in particular that has been here a lot lately, and why did I marry his daddy :hammer
so we talked...he asked, I answered...and when all was said and done he had this to say
"Mama, you're very lucky, to have people who care about you so much"
oh yes...that's MY child :Woot
I just hope what he learns from me, won't be scared out of him when he goes back :walk_sad

omg...:blush :tounge
Names and some details omitted to protect the guilty :wink

well lets just say the weekend didn't exactly go as planned...I got off work early Fri. and we went and did errands...had a friend coming over and of course Whtetigr had said she would come cook for us...(yummy!!) we all hung out, put the kids to bed, and decided to play monopoly :shakehead
a little way through the game the tequila bottle from the housewarming party that never got opened was remembered, however we had no limes, and some of us were almost out of ciggs...so a trip to the store was planned by my friend and I...after hitting 3 stores which were NOT open, we found one, got our stuff and returned home...only to find that the party had started without us...:rofl
so out come the cards (no, not strip poker) let me tell you, playing with 2 drunk and 2 sober people (and for once i was one of the sober ones tyvm!!) is very interesting...then a few things occurred and the game broke up...
the next day we had plans to hit the beach...however the weather had other plans for us...so it was another day spent inside, hanging out with everyone that came over...and wanting to knock the kids out after they'd been inside all day :scared
today was spent lazing in bed...then we went over to see Ran and Beth, fixed her computer, tried to fix her AOL...ate some great food (thank you BOTH!! and that fish you sent is gone courtesy of my oldest :lol) then came home to say bye :cry
for now anyway...
I had such a blast hanging out with my friends, both old and new...you're the best :thumb
so that was pretty much my weekend...and go check out Whtetigr's latest post (it's back on the sidebar!! :banana) for the inside scoop on Scorpios :biggrin

what else could happen this week...

and how bout as I typed that I found out...
lets start from the beginning...
this morning I overslept, was late to work, woke up with a headache and basically felt like crap all damn day...
the day picked up a little bit when I got my new kitten...she's so adorable....all black with one white spot on her stomach...was love at first sight...

then I got a call from my sister, she found out the boys go back to school on the 12th...i was going to take them back the weekend of the 13th :cry...now I have to take them back a week early :cry:cry:cry:cry:cry:cry:cry:cry:cry
actually almost broke down at work, which i NEVER do...expecially in front of people...

then I get home, eat dinner, and check my mail...ok, that was good...
start this post, and get a phone call from my EX
the kids father
his dad, who has been sick for a while, passed away this morning...my kids were very close to this man and those who have read here a while know he has always through it all treated me like a daughter in spite of everything...the boys are taking it very hard, and its not easy watching your kids go through something like this...:walk_sad

then my girl, Ran, who I must say is the most awesome person...called me, just because she knew she needed to...then came over and hooked us up with some food and chocolate and a friendly shoulder to lean on...girl, if I haven't said it enough lately, you rock, and I love you very much :kisses thank you for everything you've done for me, and especially for being my friend...:hug

:gmorning
so my kids wore me down this weekend and got me to take them to the beach...that was all they could seem to talk about since weeks before they got there, so Sat. morning, we got up, cleaned house, and off we went for a couple hours :sun_smiley
was fun, the surf didn't beat us to death like it tried to last time we went over spring break...so we spent a couple hours there then headed home.
Sat. night was interesting to say the least :lol...not going to go into details here for reasons I'm sure most are aware of...but a great time was had by all :wink at least for most of the night...
So after getting in bed way to late Sat., I'm up at 10:30am Sun. morning :coffee:coffee:coffee:coffee
We all went over to a friend of mines so I could meet her new girlfriend, the kids could swim in the pool (to bad it started raining) and just hang out and enjoy ourselves...which we did :smile then back home where my sis and the boys watched movies, and I got some work done :sad

I can honestly say, a road-trip with my friend Whtetigr is NOT boring :rofl

We started out with her driving, me fighting the radio, and her hooting every time we entered a new county. I finally gave in and got a little sleep to get ready for my shift.
woke up not to long after we left the state of FL...we stopped and got something to eat and I took over driving...not a smart move on my part since right before entering Mobile there is a tunnel...which I did NOT want to drive through this trip...but tempted fate once again and managed it.
So...driving through Mobile AL...looking for a gas station...Whtetigr is changing clothes because it's getting warmer, and gets this wild idea to drive through town with her shirt off to see how people will react...and was rather upset when they didn't...:lol people are just not very observant...even when you stop to get gas they don't care what you're not wearing at that hour of the morning :wink
so we're driving along...out in the middle of NOWHERE, and we pass a closed weigh station, and this cute little dog standing there looking pitiful (in the rain :sad), I looked at her, she looked at me...I drove on, she said "T, he's gonna die out there"
turned the van around and went back...(can we say, SUCKER!)...she got out and the dog came right to her, it was a she...which we think had gotten dumped, you could tell where she had been wearing a collar for some time, and from the looks of it I'd bet that it had been removed and not gotten off by her. She rides very well though, and we figure it was a truckers dog until they got tired of caring for her. :walk_sad
so now we're picking up hitchhikers, my mother warned me about such things...:lol
so at this point, Whtetigr goes to sleep, how she managed with the dog on her I have no clue, but she crashed for about 6 hours :sleeping woke up asking "where the hell are we?" we had made it to Shreveport, LA, right before the TX border :biggrin
we drive through TX to OK, where she got to see there really is a small town America alive and well out there in East TX.

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thats right, tonight after my buddy Whtetigr gets off work we're leaving to go get my babies!! :biggrin:biggrin:biggrin:biggrin:biggrin
:happydance:happydance:happydance:happydance:happydance

then we're heading a bit further south to see my friends Jet and Speedbump, so tigr can have her steak :lol and pick up my sister, before heading home...

speaking of which, I still need to finish cleaning said home! :errrr

and I still don't have everything done I need to do!!
oh well...it will either get done or it won't...not much use in stressing myself out any more than I am already...
I'm finally coming to terms with Sat. night...as my friends have said, we've all been there, and lord knows I'm really being harder on myself about most of it than they are :kisses

although, today I was told something that really kind of threw me for a loop :brick not that I wasn't somewhat aware of it, but still, to have it put out there like that was rather shocking :errrr

not much else going on right now...same shit different day...working to much...but have to give major thanks to my girl for the awesome dinner tonight :notworthy I can still barely move! :biggrin and yes folks, she even managed to drag my ass into a mall (those who know me know how impossible that task really is!)

so going to finish doing what I'm doing :angdev...and head to bed...:snore
sweet dreams everyone

:gmorning
or last one for me for a while...
yesterday, my gal Ran gave me a housewarming party(thank you chica :1luvu...Whtetigr cooked for us...which, trust me, is a VERY good thing!! (you rock gal :kisses)...and although a few people who were supposed to be here bailed on us,:angry we still had a pretty awesome time (best as I can recall anyway :rofl)
speaking of recalling, I recall doing a few things last night that were COMPLETELY out of character for me...and seriously hope I didn't make to big of a fool of myself...though I'm pretty sure i did :blush
I also recall, that even though Ran and Whtetigr are two of my best friends in the entire world, and I love them to death, would walk over hot coals, take a bullet, and kick anyones ass that messed with them...I'm so going to KILL THEM!! And they so know the reason why!!! :let_it_all_out

so anyway, back to the topic at hand...after we ate and drank a bit to much (or was that only me? :lol) we hit the club...where someone was buying my drinks for me (thank you Ran and Beth) and at one point I had 3 sitting in front of me with Ran telling me to get busy and drink up...and of course during this whole time I had to make a fool of myself on the dance floor...hopefully the 6 weeks my kids are here will erase that from everyones memory :drunk (one can hope anyway! :biglaugha )

but seriously, thanks to all you guys...someone asked me the other day why I choose to live in Jax...I was so reminded of that reason why last night...I have the most awesome friends a girl could ask for here...I always know someones got my back...and I thank the god and goddess every day for bringing them into my life...I love you guys :hug :kissy :hug :kissy :hug :kissy

OK, enough mushy stuff...I've got a house to clean :scared

you're tired when, after getting to bed at a fairly decent hour (for you anyway) you wake up at 5:00am, realizing you forgot to turn on the alarm :scared

is this thing on?
well, life, as I know it, has been going pretty damn good...Ran, Whtetigr and I went to Lesbo a go go last Friday, where we met up with my friend that did end up getting her work done enough to come down :kisses

its been steadily stressing me out more and more since then however...between all the stuff i need to do to get ready for the trip...learning all the new stuff on my job...and finding out my kids are at my sisters tonight and will be at my moms tomorrow (long story, don't ask! lets just say I found out in an IM tonight and I'm not happy)
thank the goddess for ms clarol. or i would be looking twice my age right now...

don't feel like posting anymore...maybe tomorrow will be better...

well, OK, maybe :lol

so lets see, what's been going on
we had a BLAST Sat. night!! The show was great, we even got Tara up there in drag (chick made almost 50.00! :rofl)
I even got up and danced a couple times without being drug onto the floor (don't faint anyone, especially since my dancing leaves allot to be desired!)

Sunday we went out to Tara's to pick up some stuff for Ran, and ended up leaving with a whole van-load of stuff...which is still there waiting to be unloaded...
Tuesday we went to dinner with Tara and Greta (the we would be Ran and I of course!) and then a friend of mine drove up to meet me :banana
and is SUPPOSED to be coming back up this weekend...if she ever gets her work done :shakehead
yesterday I took my friend Mick out to dinner to thank him for giving up his day off, driving to Yulee, and helping me get my bed...we went to the Casbah (yummy!!) then I came home and died for about 10 hours!
went to work, afterward went and switched my cell phone over (finally) and then came home!
ok...that may be more than you needed to know...:biggrin but if anyone did have the old number and did not get an email or call from me...the links to the right will help you get ahold of me to get the new digits :biglaugha

well, my little gurl that I'm joined at the hip with (everyone :wavey to Ranran) told me since we left the club early and I came home that I had to post!
love her to death :remybussi ...but dang she can be so demanding!! :rofl
what i really need to do is get busy editing pictures that I've taken since I've been here and get them put up, and after this Sat. we should have a ton more (T just got 3 more rolls of film, look out you guys!! I've just got to learn to duck sooner so they don't get me again)

so yes, we're all going out Saturday night...will be the last time we can all get together probably before Tara leaves town :cry, I know Ran and I are planning on closing the place down and hitting the waffle house afterward (and most likely dragging everyone with us if we have our way!!) I am so looking forward to it...finally got my stuff all moved, things are looking great at my job, my debts will be paid off soon, everything is starting to come together finally and I'm not feeling the weight of the world on my shoulders quite as much (damn, I did only have one drink tonight, whats with all the philosophical bullshit?)

maybe I just need to go to :sleeping and I'll feel more like me in the morning (as opposed to feeling someone else, which I'd much rather be doing dammit! :angdev)

OK, as I was informed today, there are allot of things going on in my life right now and dammit I need to post!! (happy now Ranran?)

first off, yes, I have a great job, doing what I love to do (play with numbers) and was called into my bosses office today only to be told what good things the other departments were saying about me in regards to work I had done for them :biggrin nice to hear people are talking about you behind your back in a GOOD way!!

secondly, I have my own place!! yes, this post is made on my very own computer which I have missed SO MUCH!!! most of my weekend was spent moving stuff out of Whtetigr and Ran's place, with Saturday being spent moving furniture from Tara's to Whtetigr's and my places...and guys I SO appreciate the help!! you both rock!! (sorry you both were injured though :cry )
so all my stuff is now in my house, still in boxes, but in my house...hell, I'm not going anywhere for a while (yes, I'm NEVER moving again!!) so I have plenty of time to find places for everything :rofl

as for the love life or lack of it :lol, there is still nothing to tell...several people I'm talking to/hanging out with/dating, or whatever you want to call it, nothing serious and tyvm thats the way I like it!! :tounge

oh, and for those concerned, the foot is doing much better, swelling is going down, just the knot on the side of my foot and some bruising left now...just still hurts like hell to walk on it :shakehead

ok, as i stated before, my stupid ass tried to break my foot earlier this week while over fixing a friends computer (i've so got to learn to pay attention! :lol) for those into that sort of thing and would like to see what an idiot i really am...go ahead and click on the links taken by said friend :wink

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and how bout it looks even WORSE NOW!!!!
and i'm moving Tues. gee...that should be fun...:rofl

ok, first off, no it didn't really take me this long to recover from last weekend...just been working, fixing friends computers, getting things ready to move, and trying my damndest to break my foot in the midst of all of this (long story, you really don't want to know, just suffice it to say that my ass needs to learn to pay attention to what I'm doing and not focus on sexy butches so damn much!!)
ok, so from that statement you can safely assume that i met someone i've been hanging out with this last week, any more than that you really don't need to know....just know this..i don't have uhaul syndrome, and its just a 'we enjoy each others company' type thing...don't let your imagination run away with you :lol cause T isn't really into the whole 'relationship' thing right now TYVM!

so today, i met up with my friend Mick, went to breakfast, met my new landlord and got the lease taken care of :Woot got my ass chewed out for not contacting one of my friends in over a week (:wtf dude, you've got my number to yaknow!!) came back and went to yard sales with Whtetigr...found a cool dining room type table, black with red stools (yea, go figure i would like that setup..:rofl) and am probably planning on meeting up with my friend tonight at the club :smile

ok, so there's all the news that you need to know...any further details are deamed nunya :chtounge

:sleeping :snore :sleeping :snore :sleeping :snore :sleeping :snore
and why the hell am I up posting?????
I was sleeping so well when roomie came up to tell me the dogs ate chocolate and she needed my help...
damn, I must really love them...:1luvu :1luvu
and the roomies are pretty cool to...:rofl

so...I got a new job today...yes, I already had one, but have been worried since the beginning that when my contract runs out (I got it through an agency) that they might decide they don't need my position anymore :sad
and goddess knows, job security is a VERY important thing to me!! :scared
so, starting Monday the 24th, I will be working for British Airways :Woot

so after this I go to look at an apartment, which because we were 5 MINUTES late the current tenant would not let me see :angry so I have to go back Sunday to look at the inside, but from the outside it looks like a pretty nice place :sun_smiley

ok...I need more :coffee :coffee :coffee :coffee :coffee :coffee :coffee :coffee :coffee

maybe I should just hook up an IV?
:gmorning :gmorning :gmorning :gmorning :gmorning :gmorning :gmorning

THANK YOU

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To Cheryl, :kissy :1luvu and Ranran :kissy :1luvu...I don't know what I would have done without you today
:scared :uhoh3 :shrug :jaw :cry :shakehead :disapear

ok, I have to post this!!
not only did my (temporary) roomie (Ran) hook Jo and I up with some awesome food while she was at work Saturday...but saved me some of what she fixed for lunch today (for Whtetigr, while I was at work) so I had dinner waiting for me when I got back :sun_smiley :happydance (which was very nice because she knows I don't eat all day :lol)

damn I'm gonna miss her when I move :cry

which brings me to my other bit of news...I may possibly have a place to move into in the next couple weeks, another friend told me today the apartment I've been wanting is coming available...now lets just hope the landlady will be reasonable on the deposits!! *crossing fingers*

ok, as most of you know, in my job back in Oklahoma, they had a tendency to call me at all hours of the day and night with one problem after the other...
I have not worked there in over a month...
so can someone please explain to me, why is it, when the gal you put in as my replacement bails on you, and the GM has to take off due to personal family problems...I'M THE ONE THEY CALL????
I don't get it
it's not my problem....
I'm no longer on their payroll...
I no longer even live in that state...
I have no idea if your EOM stuff even balances, and if the gal thats working audit right now doesn't even know where to find these reports, trust me, they WON'T...so why in the fuck are you bothering me?!?!?!

that I need to start updaing more often, I thought I would bore you with the details of my weekend :biggrin
so my friend Joanna, who I have talked to for 4+ years and NEVER met face to face came down this weekend :Woot she got here friday night, which as some of you know from Ran and Whtetigr was the night of another friends party...she got in, I went and got her, and drug her dragging ass (sorry Jo, had to!) to the party...we had alot of fun hanging out, drinking to much, eating some good food (not to mention boobie cupcakes :lol) and just having a great time, thank you Mick :kisses

good lord, its been a while since I've done an actual update again...and for that I'm sorry :lol
I do want to say first of, regarding the last post, that yes, my friends do ROCK, and I'm thank the god and goddess every day for each and every one of them :1luvu
second off, the job I was working at before turned out to be only temporary, in spite of what the told the placement agency :let_it_all_out Needless to say, T was PISSED!!!
so, since them I've been helping out a gal doing detail work on boats, and looking...and looking, and tearing my hair out...it got to the point that if I didn't find anything by the end of this week I was going to take my test for my CDL permit and go OTR with my uncle, and anyone who knows me knows I HATE that kind of crap...been there, done that, burned the fucking T-shirt when it was done TYVM...but, I do what I have to...
so, this morning I have an interview at 9:00am, went rather well I thought, is a temp to perm. position, etc....and they call me 10 min. after I leave to offer me the job!!! :banana :banana :banana :banana
so I get back to the house, and am sitting talking to my roomies, when I get another call, from Courtyard Mariott, who I interviewed with last week...to offer me the position...
then while I'm working today (detailing a boat) I get ANOTHER call...from BCBS...wanting me to come in and take the data entry test tomorrow morning before I start work...(yea, I'm doing that one!! :lol) so I go from no job, to 2 offers and a possibility of getting on with a really great company all in one day...yes, there IS a goddess, and today she likes ME!!!!
now,as my roomie Ran just said, if my love life would go as good, my life would rock..:rofl
oh wait, I was just informed that my life does rock, cause I have the "Ranran" in it :tounge
damn right chica!!!
so...all this, and my friend Joanna is coming to visit me this weekend!! :Woot how bout I've known this chick for 4 years and never met her face to face!! And she's even agreed to help me look for a place this weekend while she's here :biggrin (long story for those keeping track)
ok, so there you have it, all the news thats fit to print...god I live a boring life...:cry

ok, so I'm a bit behind...:uhoh3

those of you that read Ran and Whtetigr's blogs already know all about the fun we had this last weekend...and I would like to thank them both for an awesome time, I don't think they realize how much it meant to me :kisses
then my sunday was spent driving to my uncles and back to fix his computer....which as we know gives me to damn much time to think about things that I really shouldn't, :cry

This week though, more good news, I have a job!! :banana:banana:banana:banana:banana:banana:banana:banana
which is very good cause I was starting to go a bit crazy without one (no smart-ass comments on that one please! :tounge )

so there you have it, all the news thats fit to print...cause now I need a nap!
:snore

ok, I'm updating! happy now? (don't answer that!)
when I last left you wonderful people, I was at my friends place, on my way to PSL unless things changed...those that read their blogs know that would be an understatement! :biglaugha

went and got the rest of my stuff this weekend, spent some great time with my kids,:banana however, had to explain to the ex why I would NOT spend some 'time' with him :uhoh3
you would think by now he'd have a clue :shrug

then it was on to TX to see Jamie, and then down to Lois Lane's wedding (even got to dance with the bride :Woot)

other than that, fixing everyones computers, :throwcomp and trying to stay out of trouble (its all rans fault, I swear!! :angdev) not much else going on...
unless of course you're willing to come help me unload my van...:biggrin

after sorting through everything I own, throwing most of it out, and realizing I still have TO MUCH CRAP...packing the van, moving stuff over to the ex's to keep till next weekend when I come back to pick it up...and lets not forget the drive :errrr
I finally made it to Florida Friday evening :banana
now granted, I have not made it to my uncles house yet :rofl am still here hanging out with my friends RanRan and Whtetigr who have been kind enough to put up with me again...even if giving me a bad time about certain issues :flames
we all went out last night, had a blast, drank way to much, and I know I for one had an awesome time, and hope they did also...:kisses I've missed my friends so much, even though it seems like I was here more than there lately :lol

looked at an apt. yesterday...very reasonable, clean, etc...and goddess knows I would much rather stay here than in PSL, however (yes, you all know I can brain fuck anything to death) while I'm reasonably sure I can get a job here in less than a week, that whole 'what if' factor weighs heavy on my mind....:uhoh3
so the plan is to look around tomorrow for a job before heading down there...mind you that can change on a moments notice...:biglaugha

OK, sorry about the pity party last night folks, but trust me, I earned it...several people know why, those that don't, well...you probably don't want to :lol
suffice it to say that I spent most of yesterday wallowing in the past, had a drink or two, and now am moving on to the business of moving :rofl

and my friend Lois Lane now has a blog...rather plain looking because a certain web-hostess hasn't had time to decorate over there yet, but go check her out at The Daily Planet

*side note* Gina, yes you did...

I wish I could do this in person to everyone who's been there for me through all of this, but since I can't...I'll just have to settle for a virtual :kissy
thank you ALL!!

just crawl under a rock and hide from the world for a while?
could someone explain to me why people say one thing, then do another?
make promises, then change their mind about them?
and it seems friends turn away whenever you need them most?

don't get me wrong, I have many good memories...those will see me through I'm certain...
I just have to find my way through the pain...

well, looks like I've been gone long enough for my page to disappear!! :scared

things have been very busy here since I last posted, as most know I went to court Friday, the judge deferred the decision until he could talk to the boys "when they get back from FL with their mother" :banana
so they go talk to him tomorrow, to say I'm a basket case is putting it mildly...we did have a great time though, I took them around Jacksonville, went down to Port Saint Lucie to visit my uncle, went to the beach...(my sis and I got totally sunburned!) took tons of pics which I will post when I get time :rofl and the boys can't stop talking about how much they want to go back!! :happydance

fixed a computer for my uncle, tried to fix Whtetigr's but didn't have the stuff with me to do it (on it's way gal, don't panic!) during which time my sis managed to get lost with 2 of my kids :shakehead which put us a bit behind schedule but we still rolled into town early this morning....in time for me to get some sleep and go to work tonight :cry can't wait to see what kinds of problems I need to fix this time :throwcomp

on a final note, driving for 17+ hours in a van with everyone asleep, gives one entirely to much time to think...I need to quit that shit!! :angdev

not much to put here again this time, Saturday went well and I have an interview set up for Tues. morning *crossing fingers, toes and anything else that may help*
been in sort of a 'mood' lately...those close to me know what I mean...:rofl (and have commented on it at great length I'm afraid :uhoh3) ...when i get this way I tend to play a lot of music...it just seems this song fits me perfectly right now...

Something to think about! *link opens in new window of course*
please view and sign if you haven't already :kisses

it really is never my intention to go so long without posting something, but when my priorities are 'kids, work, life, blog' sometimes it happens :smile

a few brief updates, everything so far seems to be on track with my move, and I'll continue to cross my legs hoping it stays that way :rofl

my boss, bless her heart, is freaking out over all of this...and is afraid I won't return after this week :lol (yes, I'm back down here for an interview :banana) to which I assured her I would be, since I have an upcoming court date! (the fun just never stops, does it?) :shakehead

well, there you have it, all the news that's fit to print :wink for reasons that I'm sure most of you know :lol

I want to appoligize to all of my friends who are feeling someone neglected lately, I am fine!! I promise!! :tounge

*warning, this is a very personal post*

I've just had a lot on my mind lately
no big surprise there :walk_sad
I finally heard from his lawyer, was really no more or less than I expected, I file my response tomorrow (monday) morning. :flames
several have asked me if I'm prepared for what may happen, if I've thought about it and if I can live with it if goddess forbid the worse may happen...what is to follow is nothing more than my feelings on the matter, if you don't agree, that's fine and your right, and we can even discuss that, but if you flame me or bash me, I know how to deal with the likes of you! Unless you've walked this road I'm on, you have no idea what I'm going through.

*more than you want to know inside*

first off I'd like to say that my nephew and ex-father-in-law are both out of the hospital...my nephew got to go home last week, and ex-f-i-l is in a nursing home :sad...thank you all for your thoughts, prayers and well wishes. :remybussi

so no, I have not been around much lately, life is rather chaotic here lately...for those of you who don't know, I'm moving (FINALLY!! :banana)...by the first of April if not sooner. So updates may be hit and miss for a while until I get everything worked out...plus working 2 doubles this weekend :scared and going out of town the first week in March :biggrin is NOT going to leave me a lot of spare time :scatter

I know there were several things I wanted to say here, but for the life of me I can't think of what they were...so on that note, I might need to go get some :sleeping
have a great weekend all! :chtounge

OK, so if you've been reading me any time at all you're well aware of the fact Patience is NOT a virtue I have (and yes, I have virtues, I just hide them well! :biglaugha)
I'm also nosy as hell...
so when :asshole tells me that he's going to his lawyer Monday (last Monday) and I still have not heard a word, nor has he seen fit to tell me anything about it (not to mention he's been unusually nice the last few days :wtf)
I'm seriously wondering what's going on...:hum
(full moon tonight folks, can we tell?)

in totally unrelated news, my ex-father-in-law is back in the hospital after he quit breathing yesterday :sad
and my nephew is going to be in the hospital for a couple more weeks it seems with severe burns on his leg, for skin grafts, etc...poor baby's still in ICU :walk_sad

*random thought*
some of the people who visit the 'redeagle continuum' are really warped...I've seen google searches the last couple days that make me wonder :wtf is going on in some peoples minds!

*more random thoughts inside*

OK, for those that were hiding under a rock or something the last month or so, I went to FL last week :biggrin and had an AWESOME time!
spent some time with my uncle, during which time we worked out some plans that will hopefully pan out in the next couple months *crossing fingers*
and got to meet Whtetigr :banana (which was awesome all by itself :smile) and several of her friends (most of who are listed in the post below, I hope!)

there is no way I could go into all the details and do them justice, but the one thing I have to mention is the 'souvenir' I picked up when we went to 5 points one day
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those of you that know me know this has been a long time coming :wink

and no, I'm NOT happy about being back :cry, but it will make the return that much better I'm certain :chtounge

my oldest boy was born :1luvu
since that day there have been many sleepless nights, gray hairs found, voices raised, and beatings threatened...
on the other hand, there have been even more hugs, kisses, and I love yous said...
the one drawback to this day, is coming to terms with the fact that I'm old enough to have a child this age :scared (when did that happen???)

Happy birthday dude, your mama loves you more than you could ever realize...:cry

I'm back
:cry
yes, I had a wonderful time...thank you so much to Whtetigr for putting up with me, to KC for the wonderful food, D for helping to come get me, DJ and RanRan for everything, and everyone else I met but either cannot remember your name or I don't want to use your real name here :smile
I'll post more of an update later, got to get ready for work now :walk_sad

*edited at work to add!! Thank you to Jamie and Speedbump for getting me to and from DFW airport and putting up with my basket case and grouchy self :uhoh3 *

:groupwave
Who needs :coffee?
can we tell I'm a bit excited?? :banana
it's finally the day, and if anyone hears from me before the next 2 weeks are over, feel privilaged! :wink
:wavey see you later!

just when you think that your co-workers have the lock on cluelessness...
:brick
I get a phone call the other day from the owners wife
:jaw
first time I've ever spoken to the woman in over 2 years of working there, hell, I didn't even know she knew who I was!!
she asked if I would PLEASE call OKC and walk them through the audit :wtf
different franchise, different procedures, but for some reason none of them can figure out how to do it :errrr
so I do, and after 1/2 the night on the phone with this person, (who I STILL can't figure out how he manages to do his job), it's still not working...
T to the rescue again...I drive up there, look the problem over, and figure out what they need to do to get their audit to balance. :fdup (I'm telling ya, I wish I had it as easy as their people do!!) went to dinner with the 'dingy sales chick' (her words, not mine!) :lol almost drank to much, and went back, went to the room and made a few calls, rested for a bit, then went and trained their night audit for 2 1/2 hours (that was interesting to say the least) then drove home...durring which I get a phone call from my property saying we're not balancing :let_it_all_out
perhaps I was right in my first assumption...:shrug

I just know I seriously need my vacation!!!!! :biggrin

well, it seems 2003 wasn't done with me yet...:let_it_all_out
on the way to work last night, at 10:45pm, a cop decided to give my year a fitting end, and pull me over (OK, so I wasn't wearing a seatbelt...but good goddess didn't he have some drunks or something to harass?!?! :hammer)
yes, I got a ticket :angry
a wonderful ending to a perfect year :uhoh3

oh well...I did have some great friends that called not long after I got there...who let me whine then cheered me up immensely! thanks to all of you :kisses

and I found out some interesting info on the :asshole this morning (don't you love that smiley?) from my co-worker...not sure what to do with it yet, but with the way he goes on about every little thing that I do...I'm sure I can think of something :angdev

yep, 2004 is looking pretty damn good!! :wavey

I wasn't going to do a year end post...and to be honest, I'm not sure this will be my last post this year :lol
To say this year has been a bitch and I couldn't wait for it to be over would be putting it mildly...however, something happened that made me realize it really wasn't all THAT bad...
lucky me, got to pull a 12 hour shift last night...to say I was bored out of my mind would be putting it mildly :rofl but about 5 AM it got interesting. (well, interesting stuff happened before that to, but thats not what this post is about!)
There was a family in town for a funeral, nothing much unusual about that...but one of the guests managed to lock herself IN her room (yes, I said in...not out of)
I honestly wish I could say this is the first time this has happened...but I can't...so I go up there to help her get out...
I couldn't get it open either :confused11
come to find out that really wasn't a big deal, she had turned the bolt on the inside and didn't get it unlocked all the way...but by the time we got it, she had worked herself into a fine panic...
she also had high blood pressure, and told me when she checked it, it was 240+ over 120+...(or somewhere around in there) enough to scare the hell out of me!
I tried to calm her down, while waiting for her son to come over, when I found out the real kicker...
it was her husband they were burring today...they had been married over 45 years :walk_sad
No...my year doesn't seem so bad after all...:hug

See you all when I get back :kisses

Wreath from Paradise Ali please pass it on.

it seems, sometimes when things hit a very low point in life, something happens to renew my faith in angels...
like my co-worker calling me last night to swap nights, and now I get to spend the day with my kids...
or a friend who will send me a card when they know I need cheering up...
and the friends that listen to me rant and rave and cry and then turn around and still talk to me the next day...

I have the best friends in the world, most of those I met right here on this little box, and I don't tell them that nearly enough...so I wanted to take the time to do that today...and let you know how thankful and blessed I feel to have you all in my life...

Thank you, to the ones who listen to me rant, call me in the middle of the night to make sure I'm ok, welcome me into their hearts, homes, and family's, and most of all accept me AS me.
Thank you, to the ones who've given me a virtual shoulder to lean on when I needed it, who've shared laughter, tears, good times and bad, all without us ever meeting face to face...hopefully time will change that!
Thank you, to the ones who, sometimes without even knowing it, push me to be a better person, and keep me occupied when I need it the most.
Thank you all, because all of you, in your own way, has touched my life more than you could ever realize...
MERRY CHRISTMAS

one very tiny dose of Christmas spirit...

after looking everywhere this year, to no avail, I finally managed to find the dregs of Christmas spirit in me...
don't ask, it's been a bad year...:shakehead
and while my tree has only been decorated for 2 days, and there will be no baking done on my part this year (cept cheesecake...got to have that!!) and I still don't have present one wrapped (they were out of paper at wal-mart) I still discovered it...in the strangest place...:wtf

anyone who knows me knows I HELL HATE to shop...I will go out of my way to avoid it, seriously (abnormal for a femme, I know!) so, as of this evening I still didn't have it done...sad thing was the only people left to shop for were my kids :scared

so, I bit the bullet, went to the store, and actually found myself ENJOYING it :jaw
even humming along with the x-mas music playing in the store...
unfuckingbelieveable :fdup

Ok Jamie...off my back gal, you know I've been busy!!
(last comment on previous post for those of you who are confused)
trying to update the site, not to mention with x-mas stuffies :uhoh3

thank you all for your feedback on the new look :notworthy but any information on the IRL model will need to be directed to the artist :rofl

now...I have a bit of a dilemma for you guys, a "what would YOU do" type thing if you will...
pretty much anyone who reads my blog regularly will know that I work Night audit at a local Best Western, been there over 2 years now, and tend to get called on allot with various problems that arise (since I seem to be the only one that knows my job and how to fix them) not to mention all around tech guru for the parent company.
Back in Oct., when my old GM left, and the new one was in place, there was another girl hired who had worked at another BW, not with the same owner though...but she knew about BW standards, etc...and came on board...
I recently found out that she was hired at the same wage that it took me 2 YEARS to obtain...and all she's pretty much managed to do is piss everyone off by rambling on about how much work she does, to include paperwork! (:confused11 she wants to see paperwork, let her come work with me one night!!!)

Needless to say, I'm a bit PISSED OFF about this matter...and I know what I would have done in my younger days (hopefully, I've calmed a bit since then..:lol) and what I want to do now...
what I want to know is, what would you do in my shoes?

Well...it's done! As of this afternoon everything I own is in my new place :banana
thanks to everyone who 'would have' helped *s* was very sweet and I'm sure would have been a hell of a party when we got done :rofl
as it was, my father came up, and the ex took the weekend off (sometimes it pays to be civil to one another) and between all of us, with much assistance from 'da boys', we got it done.
I've rediscovered muscles I'd long forgotten...not in a good sense either :lol
now comes the major task of figuring out where to put everything...and since still no DSL at home for a couple more days, I've got some time on my hands :biglaugha
*and yes, it's a good thing to have admin privileges at work* :biggrin

no, I'm not changing servers again, very happy with the one I have, thanks anyway *s*
as I posted before, I have to actually, physically, move *deep sighs*
I hate moving...
I especially hate moving during holiday times...
this is also the first move where it's just me moving the entire house...before I just had clothes, dishes, etc...and accumulated more as I got settled...usually from friends with pickup trucks and spare furniture...
not that I need furniture anymore...and I still have friends with trucks...but doubt seriously that any of them will let me 'borrow' for the holiday...:lol
ok, enough of the whinefest...

the phone and gas get turned on at the new place tomorrow...so I get to be there most of the day, and if I want to receive any phone calls, from then on...:rofl
so I will try to be productive and finish cleaning the place, and the majority of the stuff moved over while I wait...
but the DSL won't be up and going until NEXT Wed. :errrr
so I'll either deal with dial-up again (damn, didn't take me long to get spoiled did it? :biglaugha) or get allot accomplished between now and then...
which do YOU think it will be...:wink

well...it's been an interesting week here in the 'nest'...not sure how interesting it will be to the rest of you, so I'll just hit the highlights :smile

first off...the kids grandpa is doing better, he's still in the hospital, off the respirator and sedative, and trying to get out of there (not gonna happen anytime soon) he had 'threw' a blood clot which blocked off one of his lungs, has pneumonia, and they found he also has congestive heart failure and had a heart attack in the last 2 years or so :sad

on the home front, I found a place here locally, about 10-12 blocks from where I am now, only 2 bedroom but the one bedroom is about the size of the boys 2 rooms put together...huge yard, much better shape than the place I'm in now, 2 buildings in the back, one for storage and one I could make into a playhouse for the kids...the boys love it (can't wait to move in actually)
but I still hate this town...*sighs*

anywayyyyyy...I'm here for the time being...vacation put on hold, Christmas is looking up...and my father is gone (he was here taking care of the kids while I worked and their dad was at the hospital w/grandpa)
I love my father...if not for him I wouldn't be here...however, we do NOT have the same opinions on ALLOT of things!!
example: the Jessica Lynch issue...while I agree it's been blown way out of proportion by the media, his opinion is that she has no business being in the army in the first place...and I quote
"she should have stayed home and had babies like a womans supposed to, she had no business being in any mans army"
EXCUSE ME?!?!
is it any wonder this is the only family member I'm NOT out to??

I have a Friday night off...thanks just the same, but I'd rather not :sad
my kids are here...all 3 of them...because their little worlds got quite a shaking today...

I was training last night/this morning, and I got a call about 6:15am from my ex (which usually means something wrong with the kids)
in a roundabout way, it was...their grandfather, (the exes dad) who's been staying with them for the last month or so, had stopped breathing, 911 had been called, cops and paramedics all over the place, and my kids woke up to this...
needless to say my boss was very understanding why I was leaving...and even arranged for my shift to be covered tonight so I wouldn't have to wake the kids to take them to work with me...

he's got blood clots in his lungs and legs... he's not breathing on his own...but somehow, when the sedative wears off, he fights to take the tubes out...

my heart hurts for my kids...my oldest is being typically the oldest...holding it all in except to tell me that he's worried about his grandpa, and you can tell in the way he acts he has the weight of the world on his shoulders....the middle child, my 'sensitive one' gets upset over every little thing, from telling him it's dinner time, to whats on tv...the little guy (OK, he's really NOT that little *s*) is aware of what's going on, in his own way, and tells you how upset his is about it before something else grabs his attention...
hes been such a major part of their lives from the beginning, and will (probably) be the first major loss in it...maybe it's selfish of me, but I'm not sure I'm prepared to help them deal with that

:gmorning

OK people...I need you to put your thinking caps on, as I know some are good at this sort of thing!
I have a friend who's getting married April 4, 2004 (can you tell the guy picked that date?!?)
this is the dress she wants
View image
beautiful...isn't it?
the wedding is going to be on a paddle wheel riverboat...casino, old west kinda theme...
right now she's calling it her "casino old fashion boat theme" wedding...
surely we can do better than that???
come on people...help me out here :uhoh3
all ideas will be seriously considered

thank you...thank you...:notworthy

well...just when I thought they were going to work me to death...I have a 3 day (night?) weekend!!
:banana
former employee and one who has done my job on my nights off before, decided to return...so the new GM decided not to give me OT and an 'extra' break :happydance
especially nice since I didn't get one last week!

so what exciting, amazing things do I have planned for these days off?
not one blessed thing :lol

that's right...it's my birfday :banana
to bad I gotta work tonight :sad
I've always thought it was the coolest thing to get to dress up and get 'candy from strangers' on my birthday...how many kids get to do that? and naturally my boys now think it's just awesome that mama dresses up (yes, I dress up every year...*view last years pictures*) and takes them out on her 'birthday'

thank you all who came by and sent birthday wishes...I received an email not to long ago with some 'history' of customs this time of year...not sure how accurate all of it is, but if you're interested, read on!

Last week, I finally finished up working on the computers in Durant.. refomated, networked, sharing internet connection, and EVERYTHING working like it's supposed to!!
:cocktail here's hoping she doesn't change her mind again on what she wants them to do!
the person who was working on my nights off switched departments, so had to train a new hire, who has never worked at anything like this before, to do it :uhoh3

We had 2 new people at work this last week, one of them apparently decided last night that she no longer wanted to work there...so instead of calling and informing us of this, she doesn't show up for work this morning...nice huh? :let_it_all_out
then the other one, apparently his dad got stomped on by a cow and had to go to the hospital...which wasn't so much the problem...but he was scheduled to work 3-11 shift last night and forgot to call and tell us he wouldn't be able to make it in :angry ain't overtime grand?

So now that I have all this free time...and I have my vouchers paid for, it's time to buckle down and study for this...I wanted to have it completed by my birthday (which is next Friday BTW! :biggrin and yes I know what day that is!) but unless I get allot more 'free time' it ain't gonna happen...so hopefully by vacation time I will have it completed...which the way things are looking...will be sometime in the next millennium...*deep sigh*

it seems like lately in my real life, I haven't had much of this...so this post might not make much sense...

so much has happened in the last week, that had I posted about it, well, it wouldn't have been pretty...perhaps when I get it all sorted out in my head, and don't feel like ripping someone else's off, I'll tell you about it :smile
for right now, all I will say, is when you try to help someone out, not asking for anything in return, just because you think they're your friend...and they turn around and take advantage of that (not to mention rip you off monetarily) how come when they cut you out of their life, because (you assume) you stayed in the 'group' they left, do you get accused of 'using' them, and 'only doing it to get something' from them....when the only thing you GOT was fucked over?
does.not.compute...sorry...someone will have to spell this one out for me...cause I don't see it

work is a royal pain right now...we have a new boss, who seems very nice...just getting her 'trained' is...well, it's different...and now 2 people who decide to take time off...one for surgery, one for other reasons, both who worked on my nights off...but I'm not going to complain about the overtime! :biggrin this company HATES when you get OT!

where has the time gone?
my 'nights/days off' have been spent still running back and forth working on these computers referenced in the last post...thankfully McAlester is taken care of...Durant would be also if not for the fact the GM can't seem to make up her damn mind how she wants it all set up! :let_it_all_out
middle dude and little dude have both been sick this week, so yesterday was spent taking them to the Dr. both have ear infections...life is never dull, I'm telling ya! :lol
to top all this off, I found out my parents are coming to visit next weekend (major housecleaning mode going on here!) will post more about that later...perhaps...feelings there are probably not what anyone wants to hear anything about...:uhoh3
so the day begins, hopefully I'll get Durant finished up today before I go completely off the deep end :fdup and post again sometime before the next millennium

well, it looks like I've been a bit busier than even I thought...since I was told that all my posts disappeared this morning :sad

I actually had 3 nights off this last week, had plans of getting things taken care of around here that I've been avoiding waiting for my days off to do...thats what I get for planning things...
I got a call Monday night from my boss...

"T, (yes, she really calls me that) what are you doing tomorrow?"
Me: not much, what's up?
boss: Durant got some new computers at both properties down there that they would like you to set up, and McAlester also has a new system that they need done...you interested?
Me: you're kidding, right? of course...never ask a geek if they 'want' to work on computers, of course they do! *g*
boss: I figured as much, also figured you could use the extra money (laughs) and I know you T, you do this one on the company, not just cause you get a kick out of it!

well, yesterday was middle dude's birthday :sad he's all of 7 now...
I swear they grow up to damn fast!
pictures will go up as soon as I get them developed, which will be after the roll gets finished :errrr due to trying to save a few to take of him riding his new bike :wink

My boss and a co-workers last day will be next Monday, I swear this must be some sort of cruel joke they're playing on me (right after EOM reports)...we also have 3 new people at work, who have NO idea it seems how our system works (which wouldn't bother me much, but guess who gets to fix the fuck ups?) the only silver lining to this would be, yours truly got a dollar an hour raise out of the deal (my boss convinced them I was thinking of leaving to!) due to being the only person staying that knew what the hell was going on...not that the thought of leaving didn't cross my mind...
still is to be honest...

and in the 'to cute for words' category...
the other night I heard a cat, now this in itself is not that unusual due to the fact I have 2 of them...so I didn't think much about it.
the next morning, I get up, and am fixing breakfast for the rug-rats, and my cats were in the back room (off the kitchen) in the windowsill 'talking' to something outside...so I go investigate.
I see the cutest little white kitten, with black ears and tail...meowing at my back door
so I let her in :brick after which, she proceeded to make herself right at home...
my other 2, are not really sure how they feel about this new development...curriosity to be sure (they wonder what the heck that thing on her 'tail' end is for one, as they were both born without one!) :lol and are not very sure about sharing 'their mama'
we haven't even given her a name yet...listen to me...yet, like I'm seriously considering keeping her! :hum I think I need my head examined!!
but she is so cute, and friendly, and cuddly, and, and...:uhoh3
help!!

:gmorning

Well, after giving myself massive headaches trying to configure certain plug-ins that only gave me 500 errors when I uploaded them :confused11, I took a little break. :smile
during which time, I learned how to import blogger entries :Woot while getting Texas T-bone to his new home over here at the Redeagle continuum (and away from that horrible blogspot!) go give him a welcome to the neighborhood!

School started here last week...I think mama is having a harder time dealing with this than they are...yes, this year my baby started Pre-K my baby is growing up to damn fast!
The good part about this, is now I get to see them more often...durring the summer they are gone with their dad most of the time, but during school, I get to take them, pick them up, help with homework, cook dinner, etc...not to mention them being here to stay with me on my nights off :biggrin so this is definitely a good thing!
I've missed them so much this summer...so if you notice me not posting as much (not like I did allot anyway!) or not being around for chit-chat...now you know why :1luvu

no, not the blog, or the server (I hope!) but this is what I've felt like today...
most of the time, when I have nights off, I try to get everything done that's going through my head...update sites, work on committee stuff for the on-line group I'm in, tech support, and we won't even discuss all the calls I get from work :uhoh3...they so don't understand the whole "night off" concept!!
today, I've managed to avoid most of it, normally I look forward to doing all this and catching up...not today...today I'm seriously wondering wtf I'm even sitting here for, and outside of correcting links on the other blogs I host, have managed not to do much of anything (and I'm sorry that took me so long guys!)

I haven't heard from my kids tonight, they're supposed to be down visiting my mom...got into it with the ex last night...won't go into details, but it came down to me telling him I would come over this morning after work to see the kids before they left, he told me "not to bother" and he made damn sure they were gone before that happened :angry
and to top it off, I got my copy of the custody modification papers today...

it's days like today I wish I still drank on a regular basis :drunk
nite all...

I was talking to a dear friend of mine last night/yesterday morning (depending on your point of view *s*) about reasons why people don't post, or comment...
(speaking of which, please take a moment and go make a child's day, and post a comment about his fish *all links open in a new window*)
thank you!! :remybussi
I read allot of blogs, some every day, some weekly, some when the mood strikes...I rarely comment with any regularity on any of them though. why, you might ask? well, same as you I would imagine, not sure of what to say, fear of sounding silly, or just not feeling you know the person well enough to speak up on something.
And honestly, I don't post (often enough it seems to some) for the same reason, nothing to say...perhaps I need to get one of those 'life' things everyone keeps referring to :lol

I hate when I wake up at 3:30am on a night off and feel the need to ramble on about nothing in general...
such as:
when doing a 'clean install', make sure you reset the boot sequence, or you won't be able to delete existing partitions...:errrr
when setting up Internet connection sharing between 2 computers using DSL, be sure you're sharing from the right connection, to the correct card...:brick
sometimes, when thing's aren't working right (totally unrelated to the above) it's not always something you've done! sometimes, it's the server f**king with it...they're not the postal service, they don't care if the mail goes through! :fdup
and after all that's said and done, more often than not you'll have to go in and change things from their 'upgrade' so it works correctly again :angry

speaking of 'upgrades' (we were, weren't we?) I think it's about time for one around here...not sure why...but I'm a bit tired of this look/layout
who knows, I might just 'delete' the whole thing and start over :biggrin
don't worry, I'll back everyone else's blog up first :biglaugha (I can just hear Jet screaming from here)

Well, as my dear friend Jet has pointed out, I've made it back safe and sound, even with the forces of the universe conspiring against me!
For those that want a recap, click below, for those that don't, well, move along now! :lol
It all started when I left work Tues. morning...(**warning, very long!**)

:1luvu
well let's see...
laundry-done
dishes-done
trash-taken out
lawn-arranged to be mowed
bills-paid
someone to cover my shifts-that's their problem..they've known for months
someone to take me to the airport-Speedbump, you still on for this?
bag's-packed
kids-told

well thats about all I can think of...in less than 19 hours my plane will touch down at Logan airport
:banana
don't expect to hear from me before Sunday at the earliest, as I plan on being much to busy to blog :biggrin
and yes, I'm sure I'll have a very good time :wink

Well...it's been an interesting couple days.
Yesterday, (note: my day off) I wake up around 1:30pm. Run a few errands, make a few calls, and decide that evening to go swimming.
So I'm up at work in the pool, about to leave, and walk back through the lobby, where one of my co-workers is on the phone.
I hear, "well, she's here, so I'll let her know"
the "she" come to find out, being me.
It seems the girl who worked on my nights off, decided 3 1/2 hours before her shift was to begin, that she could no longer do it, called in and quit.
oh joy! not to mention overtime...
so since I'm already there, I call the boss, ask if she's heard from said little slacker
not a word.
so we discuss what we're going to do about it (so I can still make my trip next week) and hang up.
I try to sleep before I have to go in, nothing doing...oh, and did I mention I had a 6 hour training class today? (9:30am-3:30pm)
and naturally, I'm so wired up on coffee and adrenaline by the time I get off, I couldn't sleep if I tried (and believe me, I DID try!)

There was a time I could stay up for 26 hours, working, partying, etc...never bothered me a bit...
I must say, there's allot I learned today, first and foremost being
I'm WAY to f**king old for this shit!!

:gmorning
as everyone who's out there knows, whether you're a mother, father, or important in a child's life, things happen to change plans...
such as my plan to post everyday this week...middle son had OTHER plans!
I was feeling a bit down yesterday, due to it being my day off and all the kids wanting to go with their dad...which is honestly not unusual for the summertime...but still (I'm allowed to pout about it!)
about 5 min. after I got the call to tell me that, I hear a little tap at my door, so I go answer it
:puke
yea, I know, probably tmi, however, the child couldn't even say "good morning Mommy" first!
poor baby...his tummy was a bit upset. :sad
so his father and brothers went to work, and we stayed here (and played nintendo! :red) and by the end of the day, with resilience only children have, he was feeling fine and eating like a horse!! and ready to with above mentioned to Ft. Smith last night.
while I clean house, do laundry, study, and get ready to go back to work tonight :sleeping
and try to come up with another post to catch up :wavey

so I decided that since I've got a jump on it already, I'd see if I could manage to post every day this week...why? you might ask, well, check the title :biggrin

first thing I want to say is thank you to the ones that sent good thoughts and well wishes on my sisters behalf, publicly or privately...I spoke with her last night and I'm afraid she's had to do allot of growing up in the last few days, and I'm very proud of her and the progress she's making (for those that don't know, and those that have read here awhile do, my baby sis is bi-polar)

as for 'others' involved in this mess....well they better pray I don't go 'home' any time soon! :angry

ok, on to other things!!
have you ever had to deal with anyone/thing that just creep-ed you out? I mean gave you that feeling that something was just 'not right' about this person?
I don't often get those types of feelings, however, when I do they have never been wrong...so over the years (when I was younger they used to bother me) I've learned to accept and listen to them.
last night, I had to deal with a person who gave me that same sense of 'creepiness' before when I had to deal with him...he was working on my shift doing staining/painting work while we were remodeling.
he decided, for reasons unknown to me, to come in and 'chat' while I was working last night...normally I don't have a problem with this sort of thing, if I know and like/trust the person...which is not the case here.
this ASSHOLE, proceeded to tell me, not only how I should be and act in my relationship, but also (after he found out who 'dick-head' was, as I refer to my ex) that I needed to get back with him and what a wonderful, hard working, guy he was.
:wtf
excuse me, you were NOT married to him for over 10 years, and really don't have a clue what you're talking about!! (and that's exactly what I told him)
so he proceeds to try and 'pump' me for information about what was 'so wrong' in my marriage
'that's really none of your business' I told him.
he persists.
he obviously doesn't know me to well if he thinks that's going to work!
so he left...
and I told my co-worker this morning, if he returns on my shift and refuses to leave, the cops will be called.
I don't have to put up with that shit!
so why am I posting this crap? :hum
good question, I really don't know...maybe to put it out there and get others thoughts on it...
what would YOU have done?

:gmorning
yes I know most of you are probably scratching your heads and thinking "yes, she's finally gone off the deep end, doesn't she know it's Sunday?"
well you're WRONG!! I went off the deep end a longgggggggg time ago :biglaugha
and for me, today is Friday! :happydance
(I seriously need to check the alignment of the planets, posting twice in 48 hours just doesn't happen for me)
but I had to share, I finally took about 30 min. out and worked on my own pages here...not anything most would notice unless you check my archives on a regular basis...but I was inspired last night while working on templates for a friend, to check my own archive pages...:scared
need I say more? :rofl

I got some terrible news about my baby sister today... I'm not going to go into details here, but NO woman, I don't give a rats ass who she is, should have to go through that!
expecially not while in a treatment facility :let_it_all_out
yea, it's a good thing I don't still live there, people would be seriously hurt! :pummel
ok...need to go find something to work on before I go on a rant
:fdup
later all!

Well after meaning to post for the better part of the week, I'm finally getting around to it!!
It's been a very busy week around here, the kids got out of school Tues. and afterward the two younger ones and I went to visit this crazy lady, (after which all they could ask about is "when do we get to go back?")
and showed her how to make the 'dolls' that she's now going nuts on...*sighs*

Have also been helping another friend get her blogs set up (she also has some really cool pics on her photoblog for you to check out)

and finally added a countdown script here at the 'view' *g*, which I'd been wanting to do for some time...but I guess I'm kinda like the shoemaker who's kids are always barefoot...never time to work on my own site!

and on that note, I've promised to help a friend with a stylesheet...so you may now go take that nap you've been needing since you started reading this! :lol

first and foremost, I want to thank everyone for the wonderful mothers day wishes, they were very much appreciated and needed, as I had to work Saturday night (I get off at 7am), slept most of the day Sunday, got to see my kids for 'maybe' an hour (which is more than usual on the weekends, and they brought me roses *s*) and then had to be back to work last night at 11pm.
so needless to say, yesterday was not a real good day for me :-(
and I didn't get to go to all my friends blogs and wish them a happy mom's day, and for that I am very sorry! but I wanted to!! hopefully that counts for something!!

I also found out my sister will not be graduating, as the spanish test she took kicked her a** again...so this time she's actually going to take the class and graduate in August...I feel so bad for her, and of course my 'perfect sister' isn't helping matters one bit!! Thank god the baby sister got hold of the phone and gave her what for, or I'd have to go visit and give her a piece of my mind...and right now I don't have any to spare (no comments from the peanut gallery tyvm!!)

and yes, for those that don't know, I'm the oldest of 4 girls...my poor dad...the man is a saint *s*

one last thing, for my dear friend Joanna, I hope all goes well for you today gal! remember, we are all pulling for ya! *s*