I really hate when something happens that reminds me that I’m human (yes folks, it’s true, seriously!
A week and a half ago we got a new system at work and now we are finally computerized! And guess who got to set it up…yep, yours truly ;-)
Now don’t get me wrong, I love this stuff… hooking up hardware, customizing the software we are using, getting our phone system to interface with both…oh yea, second only to sex in my book *S*
There is only one problem with this…
The people I work with, with the exception of being able to log onto the Internet, are clueless when it comes to computers it seems.
This week we have been running the new system side by side with the old one, so we can get familiar with the new one and make sure everything is matching up the way it’s supposed to…
Everyday this week I have gotten calls…
T, I’m not balancing.
T, we accidentally deleted so and so out…how do I fix that?
T, how do I fix this problem, its not coming out right?
And so on…
Now I would like to think I work with people that have a reasonable level of intelligence…however I AM beginning to wonder! This week alone they have managed to delete out 2 guests that shouldn’t have been, totally mess up the A/R system, and call me every dang day (yes, even my ‘days off’) with some new and inventive problem…
And I fixed them all…every last one of them…
Don’t get me wrong, its nice to feel needed, would be even nicer if that ‘need’ was reflected on my paycheck though…but once again I’m managing to get off the topic I had intended to post about…which is actually related to this, but I still didn’t mean to ramble on like that :-)
Yesterday, something happened that I usually call ‘hitting the wall’. I get to a point I’m so totally exhausted that I can no longer function…I hate when that happens.
Normally when I’m asleep the phone will wake me up, I have kids in school, I “need” that to wake me, due to if something goes wrong they need to be able to contact me.
Yesterday I came home and died I actually got 6 phone calls while I was sleeping and did not hear or answer one of them (unfortunately the one from work didn’t come until after I was awake)
I hate when this feeling comes, I am exhausted, I can’t focus, I feel totally outside of myself…and I don’t know how to fix it…I’m depressed, can cry at the drop of a hat, and wish everyone on the face of the earth would just drop off because I really don’t feel like dealing with them.
This hasn’t hit me in a long time, but honestly I feel I should have seen it coming.
The uncertainty of what’s going on in my own life right now, not knowing what the future is going to be, the frustration over being stuck in this holding pattern, couple that with lack of sleep, rushing to get things that I need to get done and really not having time to do them…which turns into a vicious cycle cause then I sacrifice sleep to get them done…and feeling that everything in my life right now is in the hands of someone else and not knowing what the hell they’re doing with it…something’s got to give.
Until then, anyone got a jackhammer?
