first off...I'd like to go on record thanking everyone for their support...you know who you are, I know who you are, and I love each and every one of you :kisses
needless to say, I am very upset about the kids decision...yet at the same time, very excited about our upcoming ceremony :hum
make any sense to anyone else out there?
didn't think so...:shrug
its hard to explain for me too...I'll be going along, thinking about something we need to do...just did, etc...and WHAM! it suddenly hits me that my kids won't be here...and that so much of this was planned with them in mind, so that they would enjoy themselves too since they were SUPPOSED to be here.
It's hard to feel such joy, such love, and such peace...yet at the same time, be hurting so deeply inside, like a part of my heart has been ripped out and tossed aside.
anyway...didn't mean to get so grapic there, but I know how some people stress if my blog is blank for to long...hopefully soon I'll actually have something substantial to post!
