the person this goes out to will never see it...
today is my oldest son's birthday. yes, The Dude is 12 today...(and I seriously need to update my album)
12 years ago today, he didn't come into the world kicking and screaming...he cried once, then started looking around to take it all in...he still does that...
He's the oldest...like I am, and even though he's always been 'daddy's boy', he holds a very special place in my heart...with his questions that I don't always know how to answer, his constant striving to be perfect, and do everything "exactly right", so he has to be pushed to take a few chances with things he's not sure if he can do (because you never know unless you try) and his memory that still amazes me...even though I've known him all his life...
He's the one that can tell you about the day's his brothers were born...about the fights his parents had, and how much better things are now that they don't live together...he's the child that saw to much, at to young, yet still, in his own way, knew how to deal with it.
I love you my son...you may get older, but don't grow up to fast...
