June 2005 Archives

first off...I'd like to go on record thanking everyone for their support...you know who you are, I know who you are, and I love each and every one of you :kisses

needless to say, I am very upset about the kids decision...yet at the same time, very excited about our upcoming ceremony :hum
make any sense to anyone else out there?
didn't think so...:shrug

its hard to explain for me too...I'll be going along, thinking about something we need to do...just did, etc...and WHAM! it suddenly hits me that my kids won't be here...and that so much of this was planned with them in mind, so that they would enjoy themselves too since they were SUPPOSED to be here.

It's hard to feel such joy, such love, and such peace...yet at the same time, be hurting so deeply inside, like a part of my heart has been ripped out and tossed aside.

anyway...didn't mean to get so grapic there, but I know how some people stress if my blog is blank for to long...hopefully soon I'll actually have something substantial to post!

I've been told to update...
about what, I have no idea...

the plans fell through on getting the boys this summer, more about that I will not post here due to reasons I'm certain most are aware of! :asshole

the new job is still awesome :heart and I've cut down to part time at the other one, soon will be down to just the one I imagine, as working 7+ days a week is starting to take it's toll on me :disapear

there's really not much else to report...working on wedding plans, and other plans...STILL unpacking stuff in the new house (how the hell is all this going to fit in here???) plus work, doesn't leave alot of time for much of a life :yawn

I was off this weekend...
not a big deal for most people, I know, but for me, was the first time I'd been off from both jobs in over a month...
And what did I do with all that free time? Absolutely nothing!
Outside of going to the store after M got off work Sat. night (shopping is almost tolerable at midnight)...I didn't do not one blessed thing that required my lazy ass to get out of the house. :biggrin
BW even tried to call me into work...I never answered the phone :biglaugha

so...that was my big exciting weekend...how was yours?