October 2004 Archives

Straight Americans need... an education of the heart and soul. They must understand - to begin with - how it can feel to spend years denying your own deepest truths, to sit silently through classes, meals, and church services while people you love toss off remarks that brutalize your soul. ~Bruce Bawer

yes, I'm about to put 'family (not THAT family folks) business out here again, for those that don't want to know, come back later :kisses and as far as "airing my dirty laundry" well, it's my blog, it's my server, and if that is what I choose to do with it, then STFU and deal.

I don't understand, how, when you can accept so many people into your home, why you cannot accept someone your child loves, and who loves your child, because you don't agree with how they were BORN. (NO, it is NOT a choice!)

I don't understand, how, when you say you support your child when they come out to you, you don't figure in that somewhere along the line, their may be a 'significant other' in the picture you might have to deal with, and when it does happen, you don't deal with it, instead choose not to accept or agree with it.

I also don't understand, why I'm expected to be a perfect mother, as far as I know that does not exist, as hard as we try, we're not perfect. Perhaps if I did things differently, I would be closer to it in your eyes, but I cannot help being who I am. No, I did not have to move to FL, but you well know that I could not stay where I was, and actually encouraged me to move here, and now want to say what you've had to go through since I did...I could say something about this, but I won't, and it's not like I'm never planning on getting them back, that is something I work toward every day I'm here!

And if "EVERYONE" (yes, this is for you 'sis') has told you these things all your life, (I'm selfish, never give anyone a chance, only care about myself)...I would seriously love for them to stand up and tell me, because that seems to be something no one has ever had the nerve to do...isn't that something, that they would talk so much about me behind my back, to you, yet never say anything to me...interesting...because goddess knows I've never tried to be like that in my life, just the opposite in fact, and I really hate to think that I failed that badly

and people wonder why I would think the best family's are not always the ones you are born into, they are the ones you create yourself!

I'm not sure how an entire week goes by between posts here, but somehow it does...I still manage to keep up with everyone else's blog but don't find time for my own :lol
Speaking of blogs, not sure if any of you have noticed or payed attention, but there are a few more in the last several months here at the redeagle continuum, links are on the sidebar if you would like to check it out, and yes, if you pay attention to the addresses, the one with 'sis' in the URL, really IS my sister :rofl

for those of you really interested in how my life is going, read further...

So it's finally the weekend :happydance...and while my house still sleeps I thought I might as well post to update everyone on the latest going-ons...

Last night we celebrated the Ranran's birthday, which, of course, was done by heading to the Metro for Lesbo-a-go-go! :biggrin. Several people showed who we hadn't seen in quite some time (:wavey to SP) as well as dear friends who we always know will (:wavey to Cheryl and Fer)...one notably missing was Tigr :sad, who I know was there in spirit...
I had to leave early to get my gal from work...who after walking around for 8 hours on her job, really was not up to partying, so we came home...
Speaking of my girls job...

I found this very interesting...for those of you, women expecially, who don't think your vote counts for anything...go read this and tell me if it changes your mind
As Oprah Slaps Bush
With 30 states poised to smack down women's rights again, the one true savior emerges

So after much begging and pleading I consented to let my girl take my picture...since the one I'd had on the sidebar was over 2 years old now :scared and most say that even though it's their favorite picture of me, it really didn't look anything like me anymore :shakehead
So I put one of the ones she took up there...I'm sure she would have rather have this one up there: View image
since she seems to have an obsession with my legs...but it IS my blog after all :wink
And since there is nothing else really to report, I'm going to eat and possibly hit the beach with my gal.
:wavey

Let me just start with the fact that I've discovered that as time goes on, I'm still not seeing the bright side to my girls new schedule :walk_sad.

Work is going OK on my end, other than the fact that my boss is looking for a new job :scared, and where that will leave me when she finds one, I have no idea :errrr.

My girl and I have been talking seriously about moving in together...yes, I know most of you will say we already do, but we're talking about WITHOUT paying rent on 2 places...as in one place of our own :heartpump

We've also discussed opening a B&B...she actually mentioned something about it, without knowing that has always been a dream of mine :heart, so I've been researching small business loans, properties for sale...etc...if anyone could provide assistance in this area PLEASE feel free to :biggrin

for those interested, there's more...

I found this over at Faiths, :biggrin and thought it looked like a good way to kill time here at work...the bolded one's I've actually DONE, and I liked her idea of commentary in italics so I'm stealing that to :lol

01. Bought everyone in the pub a drink
02. Swam with wild dolphins
03. Climbed a mountain
04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
05. Been inside the Great Pyramid (hopefully sometime before I die!)
06. Held a tarantula (and don't plan on it, thanks!)
07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone
08. Said 'I love you' and meant it (currently, on a daily basis)
09. Hugged a tree
10. Done a striptease
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris (another before I die thing...)
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea
14. Stayed up all night long, and watched the sun rise I worked nights, remember?)
15. Seen the Northern Lights (yet another...)
16. Gone to a huge sports game
17. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
18. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
19. Touched an iceberg
20. Slept under the stars
21. Changed a baby's diaper (to dang many!)
22. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
23. Watched a meteor shower
24. Gotten drunk on champagne
25. Given more than you can afford to charity
26. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
27. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
28. Had a food fight
29. Bet on a winning horse
30. Taken a sick day when you're not ill (oh tell me you haven't!)
31. Asked out a stranger
32. Had a snowball fight
33. Photocopied your bottom on the office photocopier
34. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
35. Held a lamb
36. Enacted a favorite fantasy
37. Taken a midnight skinny dip
38. Taken an ice cold bath
39. Had a meaningful conversation with a beggar
40. Seen a total eclipse (plenty of partial ones though)
41. Ridden a roller coaster (LOVE those things!!)
42. Hit a home run
43. Fit three weeks miraculously into three days
44. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
45. Adopted an accent for an entire day
46. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
47. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
48. Had two hard drives for your computer
49. Visited all 50 states
50. Loved your job on all accounts
51. Taken care of someone who was shit faced
52. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
53. Had amazing friends (and I still do :biggrin)
54. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
55. Watched wild whales
56. Stolen a sign
57. Backpacked in Europe (got to get there first)
58. Taken a road-trip
59. Rock climbing
60. Lied to foreign government's official in that country to avoid notice
61. Midnight walk on the beach
62. Sky diving
63. Visited Ireland
64. Been heartbroken longer then you were actually in love
65. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them
66. Visited Japan (lets not go here....)
67. Benchpressed your own weight
68. Milked a cow
69. Alphabetized your records
70. Pretended to be a superhero (I think I was 5 at the time...)
71. Sung karaoke (and no intention of doing it either!)
72. Lounged around in bed all day
73. Posed nude in front of strangers (see #71 comment)
74. Scuba diving
75. Got it on to "Let's Get It On" by Marvin Gaye
76. Kissed in the rain
77. Played in the mud
78. Played in the rain
79. Gone to a drive-in theater
80. Done something you should regret, but don't regret it (regret nothing)
81. Visited the Great Wall of China
82. Discovered that someone who's not supposed to have known about your blog has discovered your blog (happened to Scorpion's Sting...after a certain ex-jerk of mine got nosey)
83. Dropped Windows in favor of something better
84. Started a business
85. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
86. Toured ancient sites
87. Taken a martial arts class
88. Swordfought for the honor of a woman
89. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight
90. Gotten married (BIG Mistake!!)
91. Been in a movie
92. Crashed a party
93. Loved someone you shouldn't have (haven't we all...)
94. Kissed someone so passionately it made them dizzy
95. Gotten divorced (yes i did regain my sanity!)
96. Had sex at the office (but not the one I currently work at)
97. Gone without food for 5 days
98. Made cookies from scratch
99. Won first prize in a costume contest
100. Ridden a gondola in Venice
101. Gotten a tattoo
102. Found that the texture of some materials can turn you on (please don't ask)
103. Rafted the Snake River
104. Been on television news programs as an "expert"
105. Got flowers for no reason
106. Masturbated in a public place
107. Got so drunk you don't remember anything
108. Been addicted to some form of illegal drug
109. Performed on stage
110. Been to Las Vegas (twice)
111. Recorded music
112. Eaten shark
113. Had a one-night stand
114. Gone to Thailand
115. Seen Siouxsie live
116. Bought a house
117. Been in a combat zone
118. Buried one/both of your parents
119. Shaved or waxed your pubic hair off
120. Been on a cruise ship
121. Spoken more than one language fluently
122. Gotten into a fight while attempting to defend someone
123. Bounced a check
124. Performed in Rocky Horror
125. Read - and understood - your credit report
126. Raised children
127. Recently bought and played with a favorite childhood toy
128. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
129. Created and named your own constellation of stars
130. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
131. Found out something significant that your ancestors did
132. Called or written your Congress person
133. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
134. ...more than once? - More than thrice?
135. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
136. Sang loudly in the car, and didn't stop when you knew someone was looking
137. Had an abortion or your female partner did (NO I didn't, but an ex-girlfriend of mine did)
138. Had plastic surgery
139. Survived an accident that you shouldn't have survived
140. Wrote articles for a large publication
141. Lost over 100 pounds
142. Held someone while they were having a flashback
143. Piloted an airplane
144. Petted a stingray
145. Broken someone's heart
146. Helped an animal give birth
147. Been fired or laid off from a job
148. Won money on a T.V. game show
149. Broken a bone
150. Killed a human being (plotting doesn't count, right?)
151. Gone on an African photo safari
152. Ridden a motorcycle (owned one ffs)
153. Driven any land vehicle at a speed of greater than 100mph
154. Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced
155. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
156. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
157. Ridden a horse
158. Had major surgery
159. Had sex on a moving train
160. Had a snake as a pet
161. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
162. Slept through an entire flight: takeoff, flight, and landing
163. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours
164. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states
165. Visited all 7 continents
166. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
167. Eaten kangaroo meat
168. Fallen in love at an ancient Mayan burial ground
169. Been a sperm or egg donor
170. Eaten sushi
171. Had your picture in the newspaper
172. Had 2 (or more) healthy romantic relationships for over a year in your lifetime (although the 'healthy' part could be debated)
173. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about
174. Gotten someone fired for their actions
175. Gone back to school
176. Parasailed
177. Changed your name (getting married counts, right?)
178. Petted a cockroach
179. Eaten fried green tomatoes
180. Read The Iliad
181. Selected one "important" author who you missed in school, and read
182. Dined in a restaurant and stolen silverware, plates, cups because your apartment needed them
183. ...and gotten 86'ed from the restaurant because you did it so many times, they figured out it was you
184. Taught yourself an art from scratch
185. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
186. Apologized to someone years after inflicting the hurt
187. Skipped all your school reunions (I've only had one ffs)
188. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
189. Been elected to public office
190. Written your own computer language
191. Thought to yourself that you're living your dream
192. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
193. Built your own PC from parts (my favorite pastime)
194. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you
195. Had a booth at a street fair
196: Dyed your hair
197: Been a DJ
198: Found out someone was going to dump you via LiveJournal
199: Written your own role playing game
200: Been arrested

OK, this new shift of my girls SUCKS!!
it's been one week, and come to find out it's Saturday and Monday she has off, with 8-4:30pm on Sundays :cry:walk_sad:cry:walk_sad:cry:walk_sad...anyone got some cheese to go with this whine??

we once again were very fortunate when Jeanne hit...power only flickered and no damage or flooding. My uncle down south where it hit however, did lose power, etc...but they got it back up and running in 3 days instead of over a week like last time, he is doing well as could be expected considering he STILL has a blood clot in his leg :scared

I updated my voter registration information :thumb and hope if you need to you have also!!! If not, most of you have till the post office closes tonight to do so, your area may vary on this!!

Now, I'm going to cut this short, since as posted above my girl is off tonight and I seriously need some time with her!!!

Till next time :wavey