March 2004 Archives

after sorting through everything I own, throwing most of it out, and realizing I still have TO MUCH CRAP...packing the van, moving stuff over to the ex's to keep till next weekend when I come back to pick it up...and lets not forget the drive :errrr
I finally made it to Florida Friday evening :banana
now granted, I have not made it to my uncles house yet :rofl am still here hanging out with my friends RanRan and Whtetigr who have been kind enough to put up with me again...even if giving me a bad time about certain issues :flames
we all went out last night, had a blast, drank way to much, and I know I for one had an awesome time, and hope they did also...:kisses I've missed my friends so much, even though it seems like I was here more than there lately :lol

looked at an apt. yesterday...very reasonable, clean, etc...and goddess knows I would much rather stay here than in PSL, however (yes, you all know I can brain fuck anything to death) while I'm reasonably sure I can get a job here in less than a week, that whole 'what if' factor weighs heavy on my mind....:uhoh3
so the plan is to look around tomorrow for a job before heading down there...mind you that can change on a moments notice...:biglaugha

well, as most know I've been up to my eyeballs in packing, sorting, and stuff for the last couple days...something I really didn't do much of with my 'cross-town' move back in Dec.
This time everything has to fit in my van :scared so needless to say there is a lot that is being tossed...but in all of this I have managed to find a lot of things that I'd forgotten I even had, (and a few that should have remained hidden) :hum and in the process have been taking a few to many walks down memory lane :walk_sad

I'm feeling so conflicted right now, I've been waiting for this day for so long, it hasn't turned out the way I thought and hoped it would, but only a temporary setback...everything happens for a reason and things always turn out like they're supposed to in the end.
It's also unexpected how you find out at times like this who your friends really are, who will stick by you in the long haul and who will bail at the first sign of trouble...fortunately I have the most wonderful friends in the world (as I hope they ALL know!) so not to much of that going on :smile

OK, sorry about the pity party last night folks, but trust me, I earned it...several people know why, those that don't, well...you probably don't want to :lol
suffice it to say that I spent most of yesterday wallowing in the past, had a drink or two, and now am moving on to the business of moving :rofl

and my friend Lois Lane now has a blog...rather plain looking because a certain web-hostess hasn't had time to decorate over there yet, but go check her out at The Daily Planet

*side note* Gina, yes you did...

I wish I could do this in person to everyone who's been there for me through all of this, but since I can't...I'll just have to settle for a virtual :kissy
thank you ALL!!

just crawl under a rock and hide from the world for a while?
could someone explain to me why people say one thing, then do another?
make promises, then change their mind about them?
and it seems friends turn away whenever you need them most?

don't get me wrong, I have many good memories...those will see me through I'm certain...
I just have to find my way through the pain...

well, it's happened :cry
I don't really feel like posting, but I have a lot of people who have stood by me publicly and privately during all of this and I feel I owe this to them, and also my heartfelt thank you...it's not much, and if I could it would be more, but right now it's the best I have to offer...

The good news is that we still have joint custody, we agreed on a revised visitation schedule...
the bad news is the boys will still be living here during the school year "at this time" (the judges words) :cry
to say I'm surprised does not even begin to cover it...I would have loved to been a fly on the wall yesterday when they were with him, I can just imagine...

I want to close by saying this...Jet and Speedbump, thank you so much, I don't know how I would have made it through this day without you...you disrupted everything to be here for me today and I can never thank you or repay you enough for that, I love you both more than words can say :hug

well, looks like I've been gone long enough for my page to disappear!! :scared

things have been very busy here since I last posted, as most know I went to court Friday, the judge deferred the decision until he could talk to the boys "when they get back from FL with their mother" :banana
so they go talk to him tomorrow, to say I'm a basket case is putting it mildly...we did have a great time though, I took them around Jacksonville, went down to Port Saint Lucie to visit my uncle, went to the beach...(my sis and I got totally sunburned!) took tons of pics which I will post when I get time :rofl and the boys can't stop talking about how much they want to go back!! :happydance

fixed a computer for my uncle, tried to fix Whtetigr's but didn't have the stuff with me to do it (on it's way gal, don't panic!) during which time my sis managed to get lost with 2 of my kids :shakehead which put us a bit behind schedule but we still rolled into town early this morning....in time for me to get some sleep and go to work tonight :cry can't wait to see what kinds of problems I need to fix this time :throwcomp

on a final note, driving for 17+ hours in a van with everyone asleep, gives one entirely to much time to think...I need to quit that shit!! :angdev

has snagged another one :lol (yes -=e=- I am plotting to take over the world *insert evil laugh here*)

please go welcome Ran Ran to our little group, I can tell you first hand this chick is a BLAST to hang around :thumb. Those of you who read Whtetigr may already know of her :sun_smiley

not to much else going on here at the moment...still entirely to busy and will remain so for about the next month it looks like, and planning on taking the boys to FL this weekend for part of their spring break :banana which of course is causing no end of problems with :asshole...as if I would do anything to jeopardize my kids safety! :shakehead
keep me in your thoughts Friday please :errrr
I need all the help I can get :disapear

not much to put here again this time, Saturday went well and I have an interview set up for Tues. morning *crossing fingers, toes and anything else that may help*
been in sort of a 'mood' lately...those close to me know what I mean...:rofl (and have commented on it at great length I'm afraid :uhoh3) ...when i get this way I tend to play a lot of music...it just seems this song fits me perfectly right now...

Something to think about! *link opens in new window of course*
please view and sign if you haven't already :kisses

it really is never my intention to go so long without posting something, but when my priorities are 'kids, work, life, blog' sometimes it happens :smile

a few brief updates, everything so far seems to be on track with my move, and I'll continue to cross my legs hoping it stays that way :rofl

my boss, bless her heart, is freaking out over all of this...and is afraid I won't return after this week :lol (yes, I'm back down here for an interview :banana) to which I assured her I would be, since I have an upcoming court date! (the fun just never stops, does it?) :shakehead

well, there you have it, all the news that's fit to print :wink for reasons that I'm sure most of you know :lol