I really hate when something happens that reminds me that I’m human (yes folks, it’s true, seriously!
A week and a half ago we got a new system at work and now we are finally computerized! And guess who got to set it up…yep, yours truly ;-)
Now don’t get me wrong, I love this stuff… hooking up hardware, customizing the software we are using, getting our phone system to interface with both…oh yea, second only to sex in my book *S*
There is only one problem with this…
The people I work with, with the exception of being able to log onto the Internet, are clueless when it comes to computers it seems.
This week we have been running the new system side by side with the old one, so we can get familiar with the new one and make sure everything is matching up the way it’s supposed to…
Everyday this week I have gotten calls…
T, I’m not balancing.
T, we accidentally deleted so and so out…how do I fix that?
T, how do I fix this problem, its not coming out right?
And so on…
Now I would like to think I work with people that have a reasonable level of intelligence…however I AM beginning to wonder! This week alone they have managed to delete out 2 guests that shouldn’t have been, totally mess up the A/R system, and call me every dang day (yes, even my ‘days off’) with some new and inventive problem…
And I fixed them all…every last one of them…
Don’t get me wrong, its nice to feel needed, would be even nicer if that ‘need’ was reflected on my paycheck though…but once again I’m managing to get off the topic I had intended to post about…which is actually related to this, but I still didn’t mean to ramble on like that :-)
Yesterday, something happened that I usually call ‘hitting the wall’. I get to a point I’m so totally exhausted that I can no longer function…I hate when that happens.
Normally when I’m asleep the phone will wake me up, I have kids in school, I “need” that to wake me, due to if something goes wrong they need to be able to contact me.
Yesterday I came home and died I actually got 6 phone calls while I was sleeping and did not hear or answer one of them (unfortunately the one from work didn’t come until after I was awake)
I hate when this feeling comes, I am exhausted, I can’t focus, I feel totally outside of myself…and I don’t know how to fix it…I’m depressed, can cry at the drop of a hat, and wish everyone on the face of the earth would just drop off because I really don’t feel like dealing with them.
This hasn’t hit me in a long time, but honestly I feel I should have seen it coming.
The uncertainty of what’s going on in my own life right now, not knowing what the future is going to be, the frustration over being stuck in this holding pattern, couple that with lack of sleep, rushing to get things that I need to get done and really not having time to do them…which turns into a vicious cycle cause then I sacrifice sleep to get them done…and feeling that everything in my life right now is in the hands of someone else and not knowing what the hell they’re doing with it…something’s got to give.
Until then, anyone got a jackhammer?
I got something for that... *wink, wink*
oh I just bet you do darlin *s*
I know how you feel, I've been going through the exact same thing at work recently... Hang in there, it'll pass before you know it and will become part of your fond memories : " Hey, remember when we got the new system? They were calling me so often after work that one night I simply crashed. Yes, man, its true. I was working so hard that..." See if what I say isn't true.
*hugggs* I know what you mean. You get tired, then you get tired of being tired. So much bullshit going on in your life and you just need it to stop... on top of not having L there, or you being out there with her. Sometimes it seems it never ends... but it will. You can do this. You have gotten this far. You are amazing at work, and they obviously can't do it without you. However, tell them to leave you alone during certain hours so that you can sleep, for Pete's sake. Tell your friends to NOT call during certain hours, because you need your energy T. You need to be ready for this fight, and over heating your brain isn't going to help you. If they are your friends, they will understand. IF they don't, then you don't need 'em. I'm thinkin 'bout ya, and keeping you in my prayers. Just remember, you have to take care of you in order to be able to take care of those kids. Now get some damn sleep!
It seems to me that you need to make it clear that unless you are being remunerated for 'taking call' then you need to let the office know, that you are NOT available to them 24-7. Nothing is wrong with helping out, and it is a good thing. There are lots of things in life that we do that we cannot run down money for. However, human beings, UNLIKE computers, do not run on electricity and need REST in order to function properly.
So, deal with office issues, at the appropriate time. We all have issues in our personal lives that need to be addressed, and if one does not give them the time and thought they deserve, life will simply do whatever the hell it feels like with us.
Get some rest and like Mad Bull said above, I suppose in time this will pass.
Hummm I thought I posted to this one already or maybe I covered it in a phone call........whatever.......
but ummm when are you posting again??? HUH HUH??