July 2002 Archives

OK, I feel the need to clarify a bit on my last post, I'm not only looking for comments..alot of my posts have none and I'm fine with that..
I think BlueWolf hit it on the head when she and I were talking about it...she thinks (and I agree) that it has more to do with the fact that I'm afraid of how much to post on here now..
see..my other blog was found, by some I wish had not, (OK it was my ex-husband and his lawyer) printed out and is now threatened to be used 'against me in a court of law' as it were..so where as before I would have posted something now something holds me back..
even though my lawyer said in this state (and all others as far as I know) it could only be used for 'verification' purposes..it still bothers me that everything I wrote there is being thrown in my face on a regular basis...

anywayyyy..on to other things..it seems BlueWolf was right about something else to (yes this is a habit of hers)..blogrolling has *poof-ed* it seems..if its not back by this afternoon I guess I shall pull out my backup and put it back the way it was :-(

there are allot of times something happens or I'll see something that I think I should post about..then I don't for whatever reason..
maybe I've waited to long and it's old news..
maybe I think no one will be interested..
or maybe it's just more than I think should be put on here due to prior circumstances..
I read allot of blogs (obviously, check my list) yes I really do read (just about) all of them at least once a day, about most I think "why can't I write like that?"
..who wants to hear about what I do all day (night?)
..my life is somewhat boring unless you want to hear about all night phone conversations and spending time with 3 wonderful kids
..unless you want to hear about the latest pages I'm building/helping with what I do on here isn't all that interesting either

the funny thing is what I find most interesting about most of the blogs I read is they are writing about just that!! everyday stuff that they do..or see..or think about..

I started my this original blog when I was in a miserable marriage, several of my friends had them and it seemed like a good way to de-stress and vent about the crap that was going on in my life..back then (2 years Oct.) I updated almost every day, sometimes several times a day, about whatever was on my mind and more crap he was pulling..it was easier than having to repeat it for everyone who would ask what was going on..I'd just give them the URL and say 'go read' *s*
I would also post if I found something interesting, and my views on stuff...

I don't know when I lost that..or maybe I just got out of the habit..
but with all thats going on now..I think I need to get it back..

I can't believe what I've gone and done..
I actually signed up for blogrolling, and even inserted the code *sigh* what is the world coming to?
let me explain..
I had 'issues' with it before, simply because I know how to add a link to this darn thing I didn't want to use it..
but that 'recently updated' feature..well it was just to much for me to resist, and believe me I have for a while now...
I scoured around, looking for something I could put on here that would let me do the same thing without signing up for this..
*sighs* nothing..nadda..zip...zilch..
I'm weak, I know..*sighs*
however..I didn't add the 'her' or 'our' blogs to it..well because ours doesn't ping (neither does mine..but thats another issue for another day) and hers I go to so frequently anyway (not to mention I'm usually on the phone w/ her when she posts)*g*
so haven't 100% for certain decided I'm keeping it..like she said it might just due to popularity go kaput one day anyway...like blogback etc..did.
so I'll test drive it for a while..yea thats it! *desperately trying to make myself feel better about not hard coding something*

I wish I could...
I work nights, I have never had a problem sleeping in the daytime, I keep my house dark (to dark at times) I like it that way, I think I would have made a great vampire..cept that whole blood thing, not that I'm squeamish I'm just not into making a meal of it..
however once I get woke up its VERY hard for me to go back to sleep for a while if I've gotten at least 3 hours, which is one of the main reasons I hate telemarketers!
today was a different story, my boss calls me today at around 1:00 pm
the middle of the 'night' to me
she NEVER does this..EVER..if she needs to talk to me she will leave me a note to say 'call me when you wake up' she is extremely conscious about me sleeping.
so needless to say when I figured out what time it was I was wide awake and worried!
"T (yes she really calls me that), I can't find your drop from Fri. night"
"WHAT?!"
now here you have to understand we are 'accountable' for every penny in our drawer and drop from our shift..my drop from that night was well over $400..which is very odd considering the shift I work and the fact that most ppl pay with credit cards these days.
it is also more than I make in a 2 week pay period (not counting overtime)
so I drag my ass out of bed and head down there
by the time I got there (less than 5 min) she had found the money..not the deposit slip or bag it was in but the money none the less..
I was so relived I sat right down on the floor in the middle of her office...thank goodness...and she of course apologized for waking me up..
so now..I can't sleep..I came back home, got ready for bed again, and lay there..staring at the walls, the ceiling, tried reading a book..no go..
good god I'm gonna pay for this tonight :-(

while life has kept me from following the "under God" case to closely, I do have my own oppinions on it, others still do to it appears *s*
one of my reads/dear friends for many years (yes I have a few *s*) finally sat down and gave her view on it today go read this
she may not update often (once or twice a week) but damn when she does she will either piss you off, keep you laughing so hard you fall out of your chair, or make you think..
Mary, you took the words right out of my mouth..keep hanging in there, and give the little men a hug from me to.

well it looks like I will have to return my techie-goddess crown
it seems I left a 'float' tag in my style sheet that was causing my layout to look totally f*&ked up..why it chose today to make itself known I have NO idea! fortunately my partner in tech geekness (and everything else) took pity on me, found and fixed it *s* thank you babe!
so I finally have a night off..granted only night this week I do but hey, sometimes OT is a good thing..and just in time because I think the whole world has totally gone off its rocker!
first off, work..as some (OK maybe 1 or 2) know I work nights. to be specific I'm a night auditor at the local Best Western. most nights are fairly tame, unless you get parents fighting over and with their kids and the cops get involved..but thats another post. on my shift its mostly me and my paperwork (from hell) and the occasional truck driver/weary traveler who just want a room and some sleep..most don't even bother to ask the price of the room, they don't care, they just want sleep.
but every once in a while you get the real 'bargain hunters'.. for example I had one last night come in and ask me the cost of a double room for one night. we do give discounts (corporate, AAA, AARP, and Military) they qualified for none of those, so when I told the guy (you could tell he was beat) what the price was he looked at his wife (?traveling companion) she said "no, not for that price" to him, then looked at me and said.."don't you give discounts for HEB employees?" I imagine I gave her the same look as I would have gotten if I'd gone into her HEB (grocery store) and asked if they gave discounts for Best Western employee's..needless to say I told her no.
then there are the ones who want to complain about how we do things..first off let me say we do NOT have a front desk system where I work..secondly when you stay at most motels and pay with a credit card they do not charge the card until you check out! third, I live in a VERY small town, we don't do things like they 'are in the big city' so coming in and comparing us to someplace you stay in Dallas and how they do it there is rather ridiculous don't you think? hell Dallas is only 2 hours away, if you like it so much better there that interstate in front of the property will take you right to it!
and if you need further proof that the world has gone mad..well the EX was acting human again today..BlueWolf stated that it seems to be only once a month that he does this and maybe he's having some sort of 'reverse period' type thing going on...I don't know enough about astrology to be able to say if its that or not..but something very strange is definitely going on lately...

well its been a fairly decent week
got the computers at work set up to share the internet connection and the printer, it's amazing how fast it went once my asst.-boss got out of there (note to self, never try to do anything w/ someone who thinks they know everything about everything around!) I mean heck, it took me less than an hour to get mine up and going at home, takes me over 4 to do it at work? (same thing, install the network cards, hook up the cable, and install the additional stuff it needs to work) all because he insists on coming in and 'helping' me get them done..grrrrr..just get the hell out of my way I know what I'm doing for Christs sake! so called "perfect people" really piss me off.
also got 2 MT comments remembering for someone who's wernt..that took a bit more troubleshooting but once I figured out how to access the settings in other areas wasn't to hard to go from there
so all in all not a bad week, as long as I can keep busy.

now for stuff posing as actual content

hope you had a great time at your party *s* wish I could be there to...and see I told you I'd post again *G*
glad to see your things are back where they belong..good luck this month (now about that "around the web" code..)
where are your archives??
love your redesign! umm..but the green mouseover color??
and your new weather pixie rocks! (love that purple hair)

I am trying to get back in the swing of things here, however most days little things (like sleeping, eating, etc..) take priority over blogging. besides sometimes I'm really not sure how much of myself I should put on here, as most of you know the last site got pulled after the ex found it and decided he needed to print it off so he could use everything I had written over the (more than) year and a half I had it against me..I was pretty open back then..and although I've been assured that he CANNOT use it in court except for verification purposes..it still bugs me...that was a rough time in my life and having it thrown back in my face on a regular basis is not easy, especially when its done by the person who caused all the pain...and still is.
I've pretty much come to the conclusion that to hell with him, I'll write what I want, and there really is nothing I could put on here that he doesn't know already (IE: that I think he's an asshole, about how I feel about BlueWolf, and that I'm actually on the internet) but as far as I know he still has not found this site, (correction, he couldn't find this site, he had to be told how to turn on a computer for Christs sake! (seriously!) someone found it for him) and wouldn't know where to look anyway..
I just want it all over with..*sighs*

I know...the posting once a week or so is getting a tad ridiculous, however I plead extreme irl busyness!
for the next month or so I will be working 6 day weeks..which sux but hey its overtime! so can't complain to much, OK well I CAN but won't..much *g*

the boys are still in town (miracles never cease) which is the most they have been since school got out. took the 2 younger ones to see Lilo and Stitch the other day, I HIGHLY recommend this movie! has allot of good things/lessons in it about accepting differences and different types of families..my youngest can't wait for the video to come out!

anyone else hope the USA follows Canada's lead on this?

ever have one of those times when there was so much you wanted to say in a post but when you sat down to write it the words just wouldn't come? over the last several days I've thought of at least 2 dozen things I wanted to blog about and now I cannot find the words..ah well, I never did claim to be a writer now did I..damn good thing..

and under saving the best for last, BlueWolf is trying to find a way to conquer the Spam Monster..great idea and plan..I for one am certain if anyone can do it she can *s*

I'm the :-!
Which smiley are you?

Flexible, huh? You might not always say the right thing at the right time, but you can put your foot in your mouth which is pretty cool all by itself. Now if you could juggle with your foot in your mouth, you could be a clown in the circus. Sound fun?

actually I usually just keep mine shut..

real content coming soon I promise

Yes I'm still alive, thank you to all who wrote and expressed concern over my disaperance..*s*
Blue Wolf was in town visiting this week so time was spend with her instead of on here (with her *s*) so posting just took last priority (to say the least)
her coffee still sits half empty on the nightstand, the 'blue stuff' and creamer for it are still on the counter in the kitchen, and I now know what she means when she tells me I need to 'hurry up and get out of the bathroom' *sighs*
we had a wonderful time, went to TX to visit my friend Jamie and her family, she would go to work with me and read while I did paperwork, we went shopping (first time I actually enjoyed THAT), went to the lake and took pictures, out to eat, and of course stayed in and watched movies and snuggled on the couch *s*
she even had the joy of meeting the EX *rolling eyes* lucky her *G*
my youngest and her hit it off wonderfully and he's already asking about her when I talk to him...
she's just in the bathroom son...
it won't be as long this time till we see each other again..it can't be..
but we have to do this the right way..
months are really insignificant when your talking about a lifetime, right?